As I was being driven home from work by my mom (I dont got a license), she started a conversation about the future. I said the usual, enough money, good house, etc. She asked about love, and I said it wasn’t a priority but I perfer both men and women since Im not picky. She asked if I felt like a man. I said>”Somewhat”Then she said that I could be a feminine gay guy, and that she will love me, but I cant be gay. And it doesn’t matter who supports me online or in person. She also knows that I write about it in my physical notebook. She said the whole thing about being an with the FBI, but I think she just knows since she just lived with me forever. That didn’t scare me the same when I was 14 and experimenting with clothes, but at 18 I had a new fear. She said that she could always tell something is off with me, and she never brings it up because last time it led to me being under a 5150. However she tells me that even if she doesn’t bring it up, she still urges me to give up. Even if Im basically repping at this point.Why do I have to put up with this? I know I have no right to because I need to live with her since I still have school, and need stability, but why do I have to not be able to even think of being myself and basically decieve myself. It makes me sick. Hopefully I can move out or die
>>43213691It's hard to stick for yourself when your direct environment you depend on rejects you
>fbiWhat>i can be a feminine gay guy but not a gay guywhat??
>>43213691you'll continue to put up with it as long as you are dependent.
>>43213691she just saw the lesbian domestic abuse cases. I have seen worse. Dont worry.
>>43213767I wonder if that will be forever. Im not the smartest person around, I’ll admit I failed the permit test like 5 times
>>43213758I meant being trans, sorry for that mistake
