Cis friend made me get drunk and high at once, and in the whole time I’ve never thought about my appearance. Is this the strategy from now on? >t. 23 y/o tranny with schizophrenia who still doesn’t pass despite their best efforts
>>43213997you are going to die
>>43214069I’m pretty good rn but I’ve puked a couple times, I’m so Kazutaka Kodak’s pilled
>>43213997no. just be cute. stop drugs
>>43214459I’ve really tried my hardest to be cute but I’m so distinctly ugly. I always compare myself to the prettiest gigapassoids I know, and I have curly hair with a really sharp face, so I couldn’t hope to match.I don’t know how to cope.
>>43214705that just means there are meanies around you. find the proper person
>>43214756Not anymore, I only have nice people around me now. But, they’ve attached to an artificial version of me. I’ve presented a fake, overconfident iteration of myself to win them over.
>>43214778then they are not nice. reminder: overprotective father and mother are the same as abusive ones.
>>43214809They’re nice, they just don’t realise I’m hiding my neurosis from them. I don’t want them to hate me so I keep my schizophrenia secret. If they knew they’d reject me. I know they would. Being ugly is enough. I’m unstable too. If they knew that they’d never be my friend.
>>43214823uh, the hatchback from nother darm is still kinda cute. just saying
>>43215030Yeah but you're forgetting that I'm a paranoid schizophrenic. I've been called cute and stuff before but the bottom line is that I don't pass. My only path is to save for FFS but even my cis female friends are telling me that might not be enough. They've all said that my fixation on passing is 'unhealthy' when that's the whole point of my transition. It's not a transition unless you've gone from point A to point B, right?
>>43215076maybe you should not pass. maybe you frens should pass..? Hmmm
>>43215097They,,, do? Every friend I've had, cis woman and trans woman passes better than me. What's the point here???
>>43215106maybe not enough
>>43215464Like, I don’t pass enough? I know that. I’m fuckin tryin, give me a break…
>>43216107i meant them, not you. >>43215097 read again. calm down
