i cut off the only person that cared about me now i can finally kill myself
>>43215846i care
>>43215846Don't do that. Going back to them and apologizing is the much better option here. Just explain to them that you were going through some shit. I don't think they would want you to die.
>>43215857hes much happier with his new partner and i just used him
>>43215846>>43215869Look this will sound sad but never settle in with the perfect person because you might disappoint them. Settle in with the second. Don't take it as a test boyfriend or gf however.
i told my mom im sad and she told me to detransition
>>43215846Why'd you do that.
>>43215846happy for you. i hope you have the resolve to follow through. try to stack methods. like pills/blades, gun/noose, drugs+alcohol/blades.
>>43215928i dont love him
>>43216026why
>>43216056when we met i didnt have a crush on him and the relationship just happened and i thought that i might develop feelings for him but it never really solidified
>>43215846the only person that i cared about broke up with me, now i can finally kill myself
i think im over it now
btw he said i have npd so before you feel sorry for me keep that in mind
>>43216081dying is normie
why is it always the mentally ill bpd trannies the ones who get loving boyfriends :c
>>43216076This is the consequence of relationships being about feelings instead of overall values and duties in modernity.
>>43215846>i cut off the only person that cared about me>i just used him>i have npdyeah you should kill yourself
>>43215846another statistic. great. couldnt you have just done that while you were a man instead of giving them more fuel to mock trans women? my condition is not your solution to depression, retard.
>>43216076how did it happen? were you single at the time?
>>43215846I broke up with my ex because of severe mental health issues she had. I still love her but I dont want to be treated that way anymore, ive suffered enough from others before her and want to be treated better.Still, if she shot herself I would too. I'm scared to see her in the news some day. I'd rather her get help and start getting better.
>>43217357You're such a faggot, I will be wishing only the worst misfortunes on you for the rest of my life
>>43215846First time? I tried hanging twice but im stupid and failed both times and woke up with emergency services called. Maybe you could have better luck or use a different method.
I fell out badly with a friend who was struggling and bouncing between guys. I know she mistreated me and others but I became so crazy that I betrayed her in a way that I can't really live easily with. I wish I could have been her friend in spite of everything, I knew early on that she's the kind of person that burns bridges constantly and hurts people but I love her and wanted to be loyal to her in spite of that. It was ultimately just the wrong time for either of us, and now I'll never speak to her again. Sometimes I worry that she's alone due to her behaviour but I can't really do anything about that.
>>43217364Im sure your applying your own experiences as a victim unjustly onto me so I understand the hate. But my ex was a problem and hurt my friends during a moment of psychosis and that is not acceptable.Im sorry your hurting and lashing out, things will get better.
>>43215919you should listen to her
>>43217708>muh friendsNo u are certainly a faggot. God will see that you die, pig
>>43217858well doing what's right isn't always what's best for yourself unfortunately.I'm sorry your so hurt. I hope life gets better for you and you can let this hate go.
>>43217858another narcissist retard you and op should kill yourselvesyou make us look bad
>>43217900hey, thats not healthy either. Op and this person shitting on me are going through some shit and speaking from anger. They need help not to be put down. Posting anonymously allows people to yell into the void, and while they often "yell into the void" at another person due to how the site is set up, its just venting not malice.Give em some slack.
BPDemon checking in, I hate it when this happens
>>43217900How is that narcissist, also kill yourself
>>43217920You're really annoying I actually hate you most of all
>>43217931Trannies are soulless demons. I'm glad the guy has a new partner, hopefully a cis girl who actually knows how to love someone else.
>>43217953>t. incel
>>43217953I said I'm BPD I didn't say I'm trans
>>43217957>t. not an incel because he shoves pinecones up his ass >>43217968All bpdemons are trans.
>>43217953thistrannies are incapable of loving people the way real women do
>>43217939I doubt it. I can tell how your posting your not my ex since she's self loathing and wanted me to leave her and made efforts to drive me away for "my own sake", so I'm guessing your someone who thinks I'm her ex. Im not your partner that did you this way. So while I care to some degree about you, you are just a stranger to me so I don't care that much. TLDR your not my problem even if I feel bad for you today I wont remember you a week from now. So perhaps you should do better in your personal life, get your shit together, and after your lifes in order try to get your ex back.
>>43217920im op i didnt shit on you im sorry soneone is being mean to you in this thread
>>43218016I'm happily in a relationship of a few years idk what you're getting at, I don't have any ex like you're alluding to and Im not assuming you're a person I know. I'm speaking straight from the heart me to you nigga.
>>43218042If you were happy you wouldn't be spazzing out on a shitty 2000s image board like this.
>>43218022Its ok, I more feel bad for this person dunking on me, I hope they find happiness someday.....and you too OP. Lives hard.
>>43215869If he has a new partner couldnt you try to be friends? he probably doesnt want you to kill yourself if he cared about you
>>43218057yes I would and am
Some people will have nearly 1000 partners and still refuse to get help
>>43218075i dont think thats possible after our last talk
We love vague vent posting
>>43218226try to reach out nona its never too late apologies and a conversation is better than death methinks
>>43215846Probably should work on yourself considering your track record
>>43215919You should tell her that you prayed about it and God told you to transition.
>>43215846are you brown
>>43217379Had this experience with a French tranner. I regret how things went but I'm no longer crucifying myself for her sake. I love her yet she was just awful to me and others. In messy relationships, try to take accountability for your side but don't just excuse the other side. It's rarely one sided.
>>43218115sorry your life is that bad then. Would you like to talk about it?
>>43218226Do you need someone to talk to. I have a bestie thats helping me through the worst of it. But I have a easy job and she has a hard job so Im lonely most of the day time hours. If you need a partner to vent to I sure could use one too.
>>43218300No. Bitch
>>43215846can you give him to me i'll treat him better
Its crazy that something similar has happened to me with a prominent anon in this board too, I really liked them but they didn't like me the same way, it broke my heart, i removed him recently too but maybe it was a mistake, i miss my friend, i miss when he cared about me, it hurts seeing him give people so much attention in the self help general even if i have that thread hidden for a while now
>>43218420I could love you platonically too if you want to recreate this uncomfortable pain
>>43218483hah thats exactly what they claimed about us, just platonic. its really a different type of torture, i wish that things could have been betterpicrel is especially a hurtful one because i stopped smoking for them, sucks man
>>43218554I went through a similar situation...though worse because she constantly overshared in inappropriate ways as if inviting me to try for more. I'm not ready to date and didn't intend to push things (she had several boyfriends as we talked) but she made my emotional state a complete wreck and it was hard to be her friend. I wish I stepped away like you did desu
>>43218585>several boyfriendsred flag af, i hate people that just use you as a doormat, and while i did step away i also just feel like a husk of a human being, was this really worth it? I don't know
>>43218612Yeah...I'm taking it as an opportunity to better myself. I still love her, even as a friend, but I ended up hurting her just as badly and no longer feel comfortable with intimacy. Hopefully, after a few years I can become a new and stable person. I won't say you'll forget about them, honestly you won't. But it'll get better. Take some solace in your decision because it was the best course of action. Leaving before things get bad at least leaves a future open after all
>>43218647I feel like they already were bad, so much shit happened, its like you said up there someone that just made a wreck of my emotional state. And i know i wont forget them, i'm trying to come to terms that this is it but frankly it just makes the world seem more bleak than ever. I know i can maybe become something else with that gone, but i know i wont like the result.
