if i had been born as a cute twink i never would've transitioned, at least not until twink death. i would've just lived my life however i wanted, married a guy and have been happy, but nature didn't make me that way so now i inject myself with exogenous hormones every week just so i can be happy with myself. the real irony is that it hasn't even worked, i know i'm ngmi so this was all for nothing apart from a desperate chase of vanityi can't even separate my desire for attractiveness and my desire to be a woman, sure, i hate my broad shoulders and masculine facial features but that's because they take me away from how i want to look, transitioning was always how i was going to end up, i couldn't take being completely disgusting to all around me and unable to get any sort of relationship with a guy. now i just wish i had made that decision earlier before testosterone raped my body and made me unlovable. i knew what i wanted, i was just naive and stupid
i was born twinkish and still want to be a woman. now that i'm on hormones it feels like i'm creating a strawman out of masculinity, dumping my problems onto it, and burning it down through transition. but even characterizing it like that, the feeling that i should be a woman (or something *other* than male) still remains. the mental tug-of-war is draining
>>43220685>creating a strawman out of masculinity, dumping my problems onto it, and burning it downi don't know if i can feel that too, masculinity really just had nothing for me. i failed to perform it because i never wanted to and there wouldn't be any benefit to it, i wasn't trying to attract women>the feeling that i should be a woman (or something *other* than male) still remains. the mental tug-of-war is drainingi get this completely though. i never wanted to be a masculine guy, but if i could've gotten away with being cute i probably wouldn't have felt dysphoria, but even still in my mind being a cute guy is a completely separate thing to being a 'woman' or a 'man'. hell, i only started getting bottom dysphoria when i realised that now my dating pool is straight guys theoretically, and oh shit they're not going to like what i have. i don't know if i'm a transmaxxer or what
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>>43220478you're so stupid bro but its not entirely your fault, i mostly blame trannies for indoctrinating people into this dumb "trutrans" idea that being trans is something innate even though it cant be proved and no genetic component to being trans can be identified.like just be nice to yourself, you didnt ask to be born at the time when the internet is becoming a thing and the relationship between the sexes is falling apart and people think the best way to get a girlfriend is to inject steroids and bash their face with a hammer. is it really so shocking that you went the route that you thought would lead to peace?see in the past you wouldnt have had to worry about who you are or what you look like or how you are keeping up with the tinder orgy porgy bullshit. you would have just naturally gotten a wife by just living like a normal person instead of getting your head deep fried by the internet. but its cool because we've all had our heads fried. you just have to accept the reality of the situation. you arent disgusting, just a product of your time and environment.
>>43220478Saaaaaaamein fact it made things worse bc e gave me reverse dysphoria
>>43221891>no genetic component to being trans can be identifiedhormone exposure in the womb, various conditions that affect sensitivity to androgens and estrogens, intersex disorders>you would have just naturally gotten a wife by just living like a normal personi'd still like guys, forcing myself to be in a marriage with someone i'm not attracted to would make me bittermy problem is just that i feel like a faggot at heart, and barely even a person at all
Same. I wish so badly that I could've been pretty or even just grew up in a supportive place but now I feel like theres just no way to reach a life thats worth living at all.
>if.i was born BASICALLY female or as close as a man can get to one without hormones i would not feel so strongly inclined to transition(up until i begin to age as a man)Nigga i think you might be trans
>>43222219why are you spreading troon propaganda cismoid I thought u were based
>>43222219i don't feel like a woman
>>43220685i feel very very much the same, anyway how could you be happy if you’re going to go through twinkdeath
>>43221968>hormone exposure in the room, intersex disordersmight account for some degree of it but most trannies are not intersex and not all trannies will have had hormone exposure in the womb either. its mostly wishful thinking that you can account for some solid ground to stand on rather than have to commit to a voluntary decision to be trans or not.and that was just an example, even as a gay guy you could have gone to clubs and stuff and been happy instead of getting the internet torture chamber treatment.
>>43222432>its mostly wishful thinking that you can account for some solid ground to stand on rather than have to commit to a voluntary decision to be trans or not.then what causes dysphoria if not something concrete and observable?>even as a gay guy you could have gone to clubs and stuffpart of the reason i transitioned was to find a long term relationship i hope i'm not that disgusting that i couldn't go on grindr and find someone to blow my back out, but that's not what i ever wanted. i always wanted to find a person who understands me truly and who i could learn everything about, you don't get that as an unattractive faggot
>>43220478>if i looked like a beautiful woman i wouldn't have taken the "turn into a beautiful woman" drugnobody cares if you want to be a hrtwink or whatever else it's called. if you want to be prettier then do the things to look how you want to. get FFS and look like a twink. do whatever you can to look however you want
>>43222247nobody "feels like a woman" this is honscience
>>43222677ik i just suck at articulating my points
>>43222546>what causes dysphoria?lots of things could cause it, agp can cause it, being gay can cause it, being an alienated incel can cause it, being autistic can cause it, its usually a mixture.
>>43220478I mean i would say i was okay when i was like teen and would probably be okay like that but i knew i and saw how my body was getting more musculine and it madee so anxious and misserable on its own like yeah all the effort i put in and things were still going downhill felt pretty frustrating anyways tried to casetarate myself and then hard repping since i still needed some ideal to aspire to.
