when you turn 30 you just kind of slowly realise that all of this was vain bullshit and that soon you will look like an old person and no one will pay attention to you anymore and you arent really going to look any different and you never could have and then the dysphoria just naturally fades away
>>43221910Hope this is true
good luck
I turn 30 this year and my dysphoria has just gotten worse over time. I think more and more about all the wasted years.
>>43221910this doesnt happen by like 25, maximum?
>>43221910this post was written by someone who is either not trans or has a room temperature IQ, but probably both
>>4322194325 is making me want to kill myself
>>43221932Same, I can't help but blame myself
>>4322194923 is making me want to kill myself and i might do it soon
>>43221910>>43221932>>43221920>>43221931Lol>t. HRT at 30
>>43221910bro really hit us with the "grow up"
>>43221932i started trooning at like 24, i could have started at 30, i dont think it would have made any difference, im the exact same person
>>43221954I mean, at some point (at least for me) being suicidal became a confort zone, thinking about but not committing and planning but not executing, just seeing my life go away unable to end it
you can't make people pay attention to you by saying words? that's always worked for me
>>43221943well when you have tranny thoughts you are developmentally delayed from never getting to live as what you want to be so its normal to still have a teenage mindset at 30
>>43222006yeah but its usually not the good kind of attention
>>43221910im betting on this t. 28yo repper
>>43221910i'm gonna be such a hot milf at 30 just u wait
>>43222021Like I'm gaining so much lore rn. I'm minmaxxing my transition. I'm gonna be aura and hot in a t4t passbian relationship and help other trans girls.
>>43221910Well that's a load of bullshit. This sounds like something a retarded cis person made up. Part of the reason why I trooned in the first place was because aging as a man and aging as a woman are very different and I chose to age as a woman.
>>43221910may be true for trenders. I feel rlly happy with my life now. why would I want to live like an old man?
Nah I'm longevity and skin protection maxxed, people still think I'm a minor and hasn't changed in 10 years, I will still look good at 30 maybe even 40
>>43221910Haдeюcь чтo ты пpaв лoль
>>43221910I started HRT after I turned 30
>>43222047i have had tranny thoughts since i was 11 and been actively trooning for 5 years and this is basically my conclusion. i guess im just a retarded cis person tho
>>43222075If this is how you feel, then detrans right now. And don't you dare transition again afterwards. You came to your conclusion, right?
>>43221910I broke, the marche towards turning HBL (Hairy Bald Large) can even make cis men troon out of disgust.
true. just look at kristi noem’s rep husband. repping always works out bro just grit through it ^-^
>>43222106You have 0 reading comprehension. Retard
>>43221910cross eyed fucking rabbit holy shit stop posting him unless you just wanna broadcast youre as retarded as he is. why are internet retards so obsessed with age waah waah im 30 years old im literally going to a retirement home next month. shut the fuck up god
>>43222195I want to be Illya irl but life made me a horrible moid
>>43222191You're literally in here invalidating every trans person on the board with your "nobody will pay attention to you" bullshit. We didn't troon to get attention.
>>43221910
>>43222250they are right though you have 0 reading comprehension, im not saying you trooned to get attention, you trooned to be whatever person you think you want/need to be to be happy. and i just dont think it matters past a certain point, you realise that all of human identity is this illusory thing, its shallow and superficial. do whatever you want with your life its just that the older i get the less i want to cling onto something that ive done nothing but fail at and feel embarassed about. im not a woman just because id rather be feminine than masculine, in truth i dont want anything to do with sex or gender because the entire thing feels more and more like a big humiliation ritual
>>43222250>You're literally in here invalidating every trans person on the board with your "nobody will pay attention to you" bullshit.What? That wasn't me, I was just speechless you told anonette to detrans over her post.
>>43221932Buy a rope, sweetie <3
>>43221910When I turned 30 I realized all my years of repping and trying to fit in and support shit that'd 'save da west' was retarded and you can't live in opposition to your self.
>>43221910can confirm false33 over here, awkwardly socially transitioning waiting for hrt
>>43222355whoahhh dude so true nothing is real and we're all like heckin spacedust or something...
>>43221910this is total BS I know lots of oldheads
>>43221910No, you realize it's too late to Troon so you get into wierd fetishes like sissy and breast enlargement shit to live out the fantasy of trooning. Case in point John 50 and cristi nohms husband.
>>43224353that happens even if you transition young because transitioning doesnt really work.life is a pendulum that swings back and forth between repping and sissy gooning
the thing is there are probably tons of people who repped and eventually got over their dysphoria but they obviously wont be browsing this board so all you ever get is a bunch of neurotic trannies and reppers who think this is their life sentence when you can just accept who you are and move on.
>>43224848Trvke. The mentally ill are over represented here. And the longer you stay here the deeper the brainworms burrow.
i just turned 28 and after 5 years of daily "am i am i not" bullshit all the trans thoughts abruptly stopped. i have given up, and i am not happy but i wasnt before and clearly was never going to be
John50's are literally an archetype describing how this doesn't happen lol
>>43224860You could if you wanted to, please don't rep, I started at 29 and can confirm that is just luck and a bit of effort. I still respect what you do though good luck.
>>43224855yeah this whole website (not just this board) is the epitomy of crabs in a bucket. nobody wants to accept the idea that maybe all of this is just a phase in your life that will end. the ones that realise this just quietly detransition or never troon in the first place and end up finding meaning in other things. while others stay obsessed with the idea of transitioning as if it would fix everything if only they could be the way they want to be. its just straight up neurotic.>>43224860I cracked and trooned and all that happened is I do the "am i am i not" bullshit every day for 5 years anyway except I take estrogen and try to convince myself it actually does anything besides make my body abnormal and make my sexual appeal zero outside of chasers who like men with tits.
>>43224917Alternatively they troon out and learn to live with themselves and not agonize about every waking moment and gain a sense of self actualization and are able to exist and function in society despite their minoritized status. And they are able to do this because they arent mentally stunted by this god forsaken place
>>43224963i am learning to live with myself but trooning is nothing to do with it really. i dont really have any place anywhere and its mostly a process of acceptance for me as i go into my 30s and i begin to become completely invisible.
Cool write up anonDon't careIm in my early 40s and regularly fuck 18-19yr trans girls. Im extremely well known in my local queen scene, am nearly 6"6, and the feeling of having a smaller younger tgirl in my hands looking up to me completely giving herself in to a bigger older man like me is intoxicating. I won't stop until im dead.
>>43224995well my post wasnt really directed at masculine men
>>43225007Im a drag queen, but point taken.
>"I'm having a depressive episode and this is why it's you should give up on life too"
>>43221910lol no I’m 35 and I’m constantly moving towards better sorry you suck op
>>43225124is it an episode if it lasts 15 years
>>43224917Why do you keep taking estrogen if you still daily consider "am i - am i not" in regards to being trans /transitioning?I dont wanna be confrontational its just that im 6mo E rn and i also still do the same shit lol. So would be interesting to hear why others in the same situation keep going in spite of the doubts.For me its mostly the fact that despite the doubting & anxiety i think most of the time i do like all of its effects. + Im hoping ill just get over the anxiety/doubting at some point, but im scared it might never happen :C.
>>43221910I'm 30 and transitioning as a teenager is the most important thing I did with my entire life. Everything else good follows from that.
>>43226163because the idea of quitting feels like resignation into slowly becoming my father and it feels like slow suicide. its just that i think becoming my father might be inevitable at this point. like there is genuinely no escape from the prison of the body and larping and pretending i want to be a girl is the only cope i have that gives me some psychological distance from the inevitable end.
>>43224848>>43224855>>43224917i used to think like this and repped for the longest time but john50 genuinely broke meso i just trooned in the endi dont plan to ever socially transition tho, i want to permaboymode. its a sort of middle ground.
>>43221910I am 32 and no. You are just a faketrans retard who finally grew out of his sissy hypno addiction.
>>43221910This is true but the only effects were that I stopped wearing business casual everywhere, stopped trying to hide that I was balding and grew out a mustache.t. FTM
>>43221910Sure thing chud lol, thats totally what happens
I had the opposite experience of OP with a more optimistic outcome. I hit 30 and realised I'd done what I set out to do and can now live the rest of my life as a woman. I also found that age caught up with me a bit, but that felt liberating like I no longer had to cling to youth or imagine my only worth was a very narrow idea of what being beautiful is. Aging gracefully is nice actually and 30 is not old. I feel no longer as though dysphoria and other peoples perception of me rules my life and that I can start existing as any other woman my age would.
>>43230320>im better than you because i have the purest thoughtslmao you are 32 maybe time to stop the magical thinking sweetheart. you are no more a tranny than anyone else
>>43230661If you didn’t want people to compare their experiences to yours, maybe speak for yourself next time, you autistic gooner retard
