even tho now I'm mostly less brainwormed abt being agp since starting hrt, it feels like it has permanently melted my brain somewhat desu. my sexuality is just kinda broken. i feel downright psycho thinking about my sexuality. basically I'm a meta attracted psuedobisexual agp but with such strong psuedobisexuality I'm functionally asexual, because I'm exclusively into men in regards to them making me feel like a woman, but don't rly find any men attractive at all, and I'm exclusively into women as a form of wishing i were them, but I'd never ever want to pursue anything with a woman at all. so in the end I'm left yearning for like, the vague idea of a man, but never any man that exists. I don't fucking know what's wrong w me and i feel both disgusted and also just like ig powerless cuz I'm literally yearning for something that doesn't fucking exist or is just like a concept or wtv. like the only thing i care about is just the agp aspects and nothing more which ends up making it all just impossible i wish i knew how to just love someone like a normal person or just be actually asexual like a normal person.
nigga im not reading all ur shit tell me it shorter
>>43222294I'm basically so meta attracted that I'm exclusively into men for them making me feel more like a woman, I'm not actually attracted to any individual men at all, and am functionally asexual because of that despite not being asexual. and I'm annoyed cuz it's not normal and gross and also leaves me yearning for like, a man but not actually being into men and it's just retarded asf and j hate it
>>43222285i think you might be thinking about yourself too much. you're in your head and conflating fantasy with reality. idk go live your life go volunteer go play some gay shit at a local event go join a dance class, LIVE. romance is secondary to this, it will come to you. look to better yourself and your life. fuck.
>>43222285the brow ridge. i'm fucking dying. 11/10
>>43222285>I'm a meta attracted psuedobisexual agp but with such strong psuedobisexuality I'm functionally asexualThis is the most retarded sentence I've ever read and I've been on 4chan since 2003. Blanchard isn't real. Dick is amazing. Men are jerks. It takes a while to figure out your new emotions and sexuality after you've shifter your homone balance to female.
>>43222534I second this. Congrats OP you made the dumbest post of the year and its only April
>>43222285Did you make the picrel? If you did, stop worrying about your gender and get into art, it's extremely evocative imo. As for your sexual problem, try a different angle: instead of trying to reason out what's going on psychologically (which clearly isn't working, what you wrote is nigh incoherent), instead dissect your waking self like a dream. I mean, oddly enough, when you masturbate about being a woman being desired by a man... the desire of the man is being generated by you... a man... towards an object which is a woman. Have you ever meditated on the fact that *you* can make women *actually* feel that way when you desire them? Like your desire can actually turn them on?
>>43222482oh yeah for sure, I badly need to get out more and just fucking live i just, idk, lazy or something idk. i mean this is all retarded bullshit idk. i feel like it's all like idk i wanted to be girlmoding soon but that's no longer a possibility and idk, I've kinda felt lazy and shit since then ig idk. i badly need to get out more cuz my laziness is caused by being sad from being lazy >>43222524thank u glad u like my art >>43222534i mean genuinely i think it's the truth idk i mean I'm for sure some sort of fetishist idk, i mean Blanchards typology or wtv is for sure bs but like idk how else to describe it idk.>>43222745surely there's dumber come on someone literally JUST shoved a pinecone up their ass>>43222791i did yeah idk I'm not super into drawing, it's usually just like vent art for my own personal disgust at myself for agp or various other like tranny issues but i thought this idea was funny lol
>>43222285That has to make dating difficult.
>>43222791>>43222870I'm this anon: why are they pooners who are drilling into your brain and destroying your genitals? That's a striking choice.
>>43222285Most datable /lgbt/ poster
>>43222891I've never tried cuz I've never been into anyone ever, and I'm not gonna be able to try anyway cuz I'm a shitty fucking manmoder and even my plans to honmode have been dashed and idk feel lonely lately ig idfk.>>43222911it's just funny idk it's pooners giving a gigahon surgery but because she's so big by comparison they need industrial tools>>43222912I'm sure most ppl here r more normal than me. that's part of why i don't even want to try dating someone because like i don't know if i could love them as much as they deserve ig idk
>>43222791also no i mean I've never really desired women kike that ig, ever. like i wouldn't rly say I'm into women, and I've never rly wanted like ig to make a woman feel that way ig, whereas w a man i probs would like that idk. like i just lack attraction to individual men i think. i mean like idk i think I'm still kinda normal I don't think I'm an agp fetishist anymore i just see myself as a tranny ig. like in my mind i can see this whole thing kinda falling apart as long as a man made the first move and I'd just become normal but that could like idk not be how it works
>>43223695I really hate to say it, because it makes me sound like a moralfag, but you should try not masturbating for a week and seeing what happens. if only to see what happens with a bit of libidinal clarity
>>43222285porn broke my sexuality.it made me be into femboys and tranny porn.im tryna nofap so i can reset my brain wires and be 100% straight again.
>>43223713i mean idk i gave it up for a few months to see if that'd do anything and it didn't lol, and also since starting hrt i like barely do anyway. so unfortunately this won't be the fix lol cuz I'm not some chronic gooner
>>43223756protip straight people can just watch straight porn instead of femboys tranny porn maybe you should try that
bumping because i want to become normal
