I will learn to accept that I am a cis man
>>43223821You still haven't learn it?
I will learn to accept that you are a cis man
>>43223821opinions on atheists? opinions on christians? opinions on muslims? opinions on jews? opinions on religious states?
>>43223821there you are. fucking piece of shit
>>43223853be nice to repper-kun
>>43223829esl detected
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>>43223877i’ll say whatever i want to her. she’s strong enough to handle it anyway
>>43223829No unfortunately. I still desperately need to accept it and give up on all of this bs already. It's pointless to try anything but that. I'm male through and through and nothing will ever change that and I for sure won't be able to change it. I'm the type of man who isn't good for anything but being cannon fodder in a pointless war. Reliable and expendable
>>43223926You don't deserve to be cannon fodder or die in a war ): , instead of seeing it as being a man or woman try seeing it as treating dysphoria be it with transition or not
>>43223926based. follow in the footsteps of your brethren that died in the trenches and against the soviets
>>43223821i won't, and i never willi will remain in loathing over my male form, a shape incurable by exercise or hrt.i will continue being a neet until that time has expired. theni will pass away quietly in the night, never to be recognized
>>43223821I will learn to intercede on behalf of repper-kun who may or may not be a cis man but deserves to love what they are as perfectly made
>>43223944What dysphoria? I'd really hate to appropriate such a serious condition, just because I hate myself. Actual trans people suffer so much more than my retarded play pretend
>>43223830Thank you
>>43223846Don't care as long as you're a decent human being.>opinions on religious states?Very negative
>>43224013thank you
>>43223957Literally what I'm currently doing. Just need to make the last sentence a reality also
>>43224161are you unable to be a neet anymore?im genuinely scared for what lies beyond this fate. but, as long as my dad doesn't feel guilty over things, i think i can be content.i just... don't want to live. its not even like i want to die, but im simply not built to survivesorry
>>43223986idk if it helps or not but i was in the same boat as you for a long time, thinking my dysphoria wasn't real or that i was just some deluded retardbut all in all despite not socially transitioning, i've benefited a lot from hormone therapy and making small changes here and there over the years. i guess i mean to say it's worth a shot, whether or not you're cis.
>>43224294repper-kun is already on hrt tho
>>43224249Probably not, but the day I won't be able to be a neet anymore is definitely quickly encroaching upon meI also simply don't want to live. Everything is unpleasant and brings me so much more pain than it should
>>43224310>Probably not, but the day I won't be able to be a neet anymore is definitely quickly encroaching upon mesame, its an indeterminate amount of time left, but idk how much longer my father is willing to deal with my (almost 30) useless ass existence.i just try to maintain survivability while inconveniencing him as little as possible. >I also simply don't want to live. Everything is unpleasant and brings me so much more pain than it shouldyeah, i was employed for a very short amount of time at one point, and it crushed me. i can't live with that again.i literally exist on the whims of whatever stupid game i'm obsessed with at any moment. it becomes my sole source of joy, surrounded by abject misery. then, once i get bored, it returns to only pain.i really do wish the absolute best for you. i would not wish my fate on anyone.
>>43224294I'm glad it helped you, but it's impossible for me to to believe that I'm anything but a lost cause
>>43224365I'm in the exact same situation, only that I'm in my early twenties
>>43224434if you are early twenties, i hope you are willing to hold out at least a little longer.hrt takes time, often years. i was an early twenties, freshly unemployed, newly hrt tranner too.i personally know how tone deaf this often feels, but i really, desperately, encourage you to give yourself a bit more time. as much time as you can.even if you end up following the same exact path I did, i can say its worth giving yourself as much time as possible.that is probably something i should introspect on myself too, but i just want to tell you what i wish i would've heard a few years ago
I feel you. Transitioning as a fake trans is cringe
>>43224561I will try to give myself more time. Death can wait a bit after all, even if I currently desperately yearn for it. It is basically inconceivable to me that anything will ever improve, no matter how much I keep struggling, but the future hasn't happened yet, so I can't know what will come my way.Thank you a ton for the kind words, and I wish you the best as well
>>43224688I don't even know why I'm doing any of this and no amount of introspection has made it any clearer
so glad i realised this was just a phase
>>43226086What was a phase? Wanting to transition, or still thinking of yourself as cis and in denial of it
>>43226105injecting estrogen was just a short phase for me. turns out i'm not actually trans
>>43226169That's what I thought as well after stopping hrt for the first, second, and third time
>>43224294>idk if it helps or not but i was in the same boat as you for a long time, thinking my dysphoria wasn't real or that i was just some deluded retardIm not OP but how did you get out of that mindset? I struggle with that stuff near daily and it makes me constantly anxious about whether or not i should stop taking E lol.Especially not being sure if i actually have any dysphoria (depending on how broadly you wanna define it i might have some experiences that qualify. But ive never been comfortable saying i have dysphoria).And i also semi-constantly panic that i just somehow deluded myself into taking E bc of like peter-pan syndrome or just hanging around tranny social media for too long. And that any second now i might realize im "cis actually" or that i hate the effects of E (esp breast growth) and will regret trying any of this.
>>43226320If you're afraid of the possibility that you may one day find out you're cis, you're almost certainly not cis
>>43228183ok, sure ig, maybe. but ig i could still be not cis and rather have not taken E? (or done some nb hrt stuff like serms, microdosing E or get an easy masectomy while they are small but keep taking E)also im not even sure im trans yet lol. i kinda started E in the hopes id be more certain about it.But instead i just love it now sometimes and other times jm scared ill dislike having significant breast growth or turn out to be cis afterall somhow :c.
