>>43225462
make animation memes
watch animation memes
review animation memes

>>43225462
i refresh my favorite threads

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>>43225462
i am 25 years old, I went to a mediocre uni because my family forced me to, at age 21, I have basically liveda s a neet in school and only show up for exams (studying math), then I dropped out last year to neet harder for a little while and I have been neeting for the last year. My life is basically loooking for ways to avoid employment as long as possible but I have to do some light work now for a little while to keep my mother happy. I am sure inevitably I will find a way to be a neet again. I've considered integrating into society and going to med school but I don't know if I'll actually do it. I have szpd which motivates most of the neeting for me

>>43225462
wake up, use the puter for 16+ hours while drinking 6-10 cups of tea, have dinner, purge my dinner, check this board on my phone until 6 am, usually having even more tea in bed, then pass out and sleep less than three hours. on special days i cry and cut myself.

>>43225515
>i cry and cut myself.
tea drinking cutter is hot desu

>>43225477
This.
Content creation,
NEVER WAGESALVE
NORMAL JOBS ARE FOR NORMIES ONLY
if you dont know who Rick Astley is then go to lick your 9-5

>>43225462
cry
work
cook
go to the gym
cry

once a month: find some guy on grindr to fuck my mouth

>>43225515
i always drink like 10 cups of tea as well, its like an autistic stim at this point, i just need to keep drinking it to break up the boredom of refreshing 4chan

Just start watching movies instead of scrolling yt shorts. You'll start coming up with something to think about.

Personally I spend hours a day on wikipedia just searching through random info that interests me and then I write about it, and I always have a book I'm reading or want to read if I am bored. I also started learning spanish every day to give some structure to my day. These are all things to cover up the fact my life is meaningless and there is no point to the day-to-day but it slowly builds up into personhood.

>>43225462
M-F
>5am wake up, eat, exercise shower
>8-9am makeup skin care
>9am-5pm work/sadness
>5-6pm traffic jams on interstate
>6-9/10pm make dinner, wash off face chill
>10-12am get ready go to bed, wake up from screaming night terrors at least twice
Saturday - Sunday
>wake up 1am
>panic attacks
>get ready
>work around 5ish am
>come home around noon
>cry
>hide crying while washing face
>get ready, go to bed by 10:30pm
I dunno this is life there’s shit posting and other stuff but this is it, no frens, no family, just me

>>43225462
It's a tough one.
I've managed to find two spaces outside of my tiny little flat to exist in. One is a volunteer gig at an op-shop which I do two days a week on good weeks, and the other is like a mental-health community service thing.

I'd like more. But it's hard to find spaces that actually work for me.

I'm going to to the hills of Tennessee for a week to walk around, maybe bike, clear my mind, and hopefully write a bit and work on my website.

>>43225528
i didn't know other people did that too... i think I'm genuinely tea-addicted. sometimes i start feeling lightheaded & weak and get the shakes until i have another cup. i wonder if it's actual withdrawal.

>>43225528
>>43225550
OR you're using the caffeine to treat your ADHD.
t. 5 cups of coffee a day

>>43225531
Wikipedia browsing is soooo based. I recommend:
Union of Slavic Forces of Russia, Ynglism, Francis E. Dec, and Amerigo Dumini, off the top of my head.

>>43225562
well maybe but ive been doing this since childhood and im probably just addicted to caffeine

>>43225567
Both can be true, but I actually gave up caffeine for a while because I thought it was exacerbating my anxiety.
Turns out it was masking my ADHD which promptly set about ruining my life.

I'm trying to get the meds but it's really fucking hard in my cunt (Australia). I'm guessing you're british, so it's going to be even harder for you. Maybe get started on the paperwork just in case?

>>43225581
i can always just start abusing speed

>>43225562
it's very much a real physical reaction. it's VERY pronounced shivering, like actually disorientating. it could be my sugar getting low desu
also just in case im >>43225524 and >>43225567 is another nona

>>43225462
i wake up, distract myself with whatever video game obsession i have at that moment, with the occasional youtube video, then go to sleep.

i am over 25 years old, too useless to be employed, and will likely kill myself in the next 3 years
though, i've believe i'll kms for the past decade, so maybe not. i doubt it tho.

>>43225625
im trying to beat the whole quake franchise wby

I work overnights 5 nights a week, and those are the nights when you'll see me shit posting on the 'chan. I know I'm not a loser because I pay my own bills and make an honest living, have my own car, I'm kind to others and vote Democrat.

>>43225462
drink tea, browse /tttt/, check /leftypol/, listen to youtube, eat, go to work, listen to music, go for nightwalks, listen to news, wander around the garden watering plants and pruning stuff picking up dead leaves and raking the paths so it has a pattern and clearing line of sight under the brush for in case of snake attack, water and feed animals, listen to podcasts, grill some stuff, meal prep, eat, get really high, look at cute tummies on twitter, browse /tttt/, watch kino, pass tf out, repeat

>>43225462
Apply for jobs, work on side jobs and commissions, work on projects, play with cat, spend time with bf, work on certs in hopes of getting job. All in all, struggle but try to make the most of it :)

/tea tea tea tea/

>>43225563
Oh those are great ones, I wish I could remember more recently I can recall are
Theatre of cruelty, knights of the golden circle, Bendetta Carlini, Zizians, Israel Epstein, Ravachol, .

And if I never found Claude Levi-Strauss, CCRU, Situationist International, and Spanish Revolution of 1936 on wikipedia I would be completely different now.

>>43225462
i make banger yt videos and neet out for most of the day, it works, i make some money off of it, its like i can almost say im employed

>>43225652
>I'm not a loser
basic maintenance isn't some kind of special quality kate, that's just the most bland and normal expectation most people face in life

>>43225690
these sound like fire. I think the Revisionist Zionism rabbit hole is pretty interesting too. Kach, Baruch Goldstein, Lehi etc. Also Uzi Hitman is a real guy and that was his actual name.

>>43225694
no way you are but my first thought was kirbizia. it'd be funny if a big youtuber was secretly a /tttt/ manmoder though

>>43225462
I don't do shit, I'm too depressed kek

>>43225717
Yeah religious stuff gets pretty interesting, I really like gnosticism, Manichaeism, kibbo kift, old saints are always cool. Occultism is very fun, tarot (and this with Carl Jung) as well as playing cards was a cool page, way more diversity than I thought. I remember going doing a rabbit hole with FDR's VP before truman Henry A Wallace who was kicked out due being a theosophist (niche cult) who ran for the progressive party (which was infiltrated by communists without his knowledge). Lots of fun stuff there. Today I spent a full 2 hours on the exploitation film page going through all the different types and learning stuff.
>. Also Uzi Hitman is a real guy and that was his actual name.
Which reminded me of Israel epstein lol, who I found in a random photo when I was down a chinese communist party rabbit hole on wikipedia.

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>>43225768
>theosophy
I mean when you look at an image like that you know you struck gold

>>43225768
>>43225796
I have never wanted to be in a polycule before now.

>>43225768
Lin Biao's page had some funny war stories like the time he put a captured japanese cavalry uniform, went on a ride, and got sniped by one of his own men thinking he was a japanese scout. There's also the List of Nepalese Communist Parties and Temple ov Psychick Youth, You're mogging me hard right now and i think you're very cool.

honestly i don’t do much at all other than work, but when im not working i enjoy listening to music and finding new artists, journaling, reading classics, and wasting away on instagram

>>43225809
kek

Its nice meeting someone who shares similar interests like this! Once I got friends irl who shared an interest in this type of stuff it immediately became relevant and I ended up wishing I actually spent more time on there lol, so keep going on learning dude!

>>43225714
Yeah? And being a loser means failing to meet those basic expectations..what do you think loser means exactly?

>>43225847
letters?

>>43225847
Just to be clear, I'm not the person you're wikiholing with. I kinda do that but not really.

I've just spent the last year and a half trying really hard to integrate with the normies, and I don't like it, but I hate being alone more.
I want to be around people like you, who are interesting and articulate and fun.

But we all seem to wind up in these dark little holes communicating with each other sporadically and anonymously and never touching. I feel like there's a better way, I just don't know what it is.

>>43225828
Thanks anon that actually means a lot. Frankly I don't think I'm autistic enough to hande list of nepalese communist parties so if you can muster that give yourself some credit lol. The Ère des attentats and years of lead are both really good jumping off points if you're into some conflict stories. You are getting me distracted going back and finding fun stuff. Technocracy movement and Free love also very interesting
>>43225863
I'm a trans woman.

>>43225894
Yeah I mean I feel you. I have tried to be normal and relate to people but it does feel like their interests and lives are more vapid and unconcerned with the interesting parts of life. I found a fun niche for a while with surprising people on my tiktok/pop culture knowledge which earns me some points but its no longer that cool to be online so that doesn't work that well anymore. But if you are a curious person curious people will find you and see you for who you are. I found just a handful, but extremely fulfilling relationships with a few friends who want to discuss these things freely and as I said that made it all worth it in that moment.

I am in a lull now and I do miss the times when I was tripping here and posting about every musing with you autists but you learn much more by living in the world than watching it you know. Its worth it to try.

>>43225898
im getting really distracted too trying to one-up you. Alexander Marinesko was a character. if you wanna look at nice art the Carceri d'invenzione were beautiful. in terms of religion there's Proto-Protestantism, Aleister Crowley and Rosicrucianism. my memory's really bad and im not at my puter right now so i can't check my history waaa

>>43225462
I tend to go for a walk, maybe a hike, skateboard or chill with friends/go shopping

>>43225462
I wonder, how do people not using the american alphabet write on walls?
Like, if you are chinese, wouldn't it be impractical to write your chinese letters on the wall? It would take so much time!

>>43225921
I don't want to ruin the moment, but I've got some bad news for you. The whole "I just fell into a group of cool people" stops happening after a certain age if you're still single.

My group at work are okay, but that's very much limited to while we're at work. There's no house parties or anything like that, there's no hangout places, there's just the break room three times a day two days a week.

In terms of actually finding community and stuff, a lot of those bright people you're friends with now are going to go off and get married and have families and stuff. I really hope that happens for you, but for me it didn't and then all of a sudden I was the old person spergranting at people half my age while they tried to find somewhere else to be.

>>43225950
>american alphabet
wow americans really are incredibly uneducated

>>43225927
You know I can't exactly tell how much my stuff is that niche because I don't know how much Guy Debord or Max Stirner or Nestor Mahkno are known but they are very interesting pages. Spies for Peace, Korea People's Association in Manchuria, Symbolism (movement) of which Les Fleurs du Mal is some beautiful poetry, Arkady and Boris Strugatsky, Militant tendency, Henry Every really fascinating pirate story, Manchu–Han Imperial Feast just a few from my history of the past month

>>43225982
it's not neccesarily your choice to have that life but its not inevitable. Of course I am in university so I guess I can't speak, but there are interesting circles in many places throughout the world. I have met some people through alternative spaces, mutual aid organizations, political action. You have to find a third space though ideally in your life, or live in an area conducive to a more engaging and communitarian style of living like a dense city where people share similar interests

>>43225989
>american alphabet
Yes? Are you writing using serifs right now? No, you're using straight letters, an american invention for the american alphabet (you use 'u' not 'µ') for the american localiZation.

>>43226011
Go hang out in those spaces and tell me how many people are over 40, single, and autistic.
I really hope it's not inevitable, seriously I hope there's a way out of this hole for me, and I definitely hope there's a way to avoid falling into it for you, but don't expect it to be as easy as it has been.

>>43226114
There are tons of spaces for middle-aged autistic men, if anything its easier to find that than anything for young people in most non-urban areas. stop being a fucking chud unc

>>43226129
1. There isn't.
2. I'm not a man.
I agree with you that third spaces for youth have dried up with the onlining of music culture and stuff, but the only third spaces for adults now are either

1. Enforced normie
2. Have a three drink minimum
3. Have a no singles policy

If you've got suggestions for places to try, I'm all eyes, because this is THE problem that dominates my entire life.

>>43225462
I like gardening

>>43226034
Typeface is not the same as alphabet. Just cause the letters are drawn differently doesn't mean it isn't the same set of letters.

>>43226164
You know what your interests are not me. If you don't have a bar or a hobby that is accesible online I can't help you. But I think you could still do volunteer charity work and meet very nice people or join a book club or hiking club or something. Or just unc-mode and be a character in the neighborhood idk

>>43226222
>It's different but it's actually the same
You don't understand language, you're dumb. The japanese don't write "ta" the same way as we do and it doesn't mean the same thing either.

>>43226227
this is me >>43225542
Workplace = business hours only. And it's actually kinda crazy how exhausted our wranglers are. I really wish I wasn't such a burden.
>a bar or a hobby that is accesible online
Online I have this place.
IRL is what I'm looking for, and that's the three drink minimum one. Those places aren't for connection, those places are for making money, which means not only do I have to have some, but other people have to have some too.
> join a book club or hiking club or something.
Enforced normie and/or no singles policy.

The reason I'm telling you this isn't to depress you, it's to encourage you to be proactive. Because I'm being proactive and I'm getting a dribble because I didn't get proactive until after I was so deep in the hole that it's potentially impossible to crawl out. You're not in the hole yet, because when you're young it's easy. But it's not going to stay easy, you need to be proactive about maintaining community, knowing that once the normies couple up and start working full time they're not going to have room in their life for you.

>>43226294
are book clubs really enforced normie? Would hiking clubs have no singles policy?

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During weekdays i wagiedev, gamedev and try to regularly go on runs
During the weekends I take edibles, do gamedev and fuck my ass.

>>43226368
what's the game about

>>43226368
wish i had access to edibles

>>43226326
More the other way around, but also yes.

>>43226394
A book club with a no singles policy sounds hellish. I hate normies

>>43226381
I'm scared of giving too much info since I'm in a 4chan gamedev community
>>43226385
be gay do crimes

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>>43226433
>now all of /agdg/ knows you're a tranny
what genre is it at least. i'm the artist for one myself

>>43226385
Marijuana is a growable plant btw

>>43226433
>be gay do crimes
I tried to buy drugs online and got scammed....

>>43226448
I don't even have the faintest of where I'd find seeds

>>43226411
I've got untreated ADHD aswell so I can really do books, but yeah they're not going to tolerate spergrants for long.
And book clubs as I understand them are extremely gendered, mostly for women, who don't give a fuck about books.

>>43226458
>Google
>"Marijuana seeds for sale"

>>43226476
>they're not going to tolerate spergrants for long
You're an adult and you don't have that under control by now....?

>>43226567
>mask better
Sweetheart that shit is a shortcut to permanent burnout.
I want to be free to be who I actually am, not better at making the normies comfortable being around me.
Like I said, 18 months of this shit listening to my voice remasc because I'm anxious, being tolerated but not actually included or listened to, that's not community, that's just pain.

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>>43225462
my work schedule is all over the place but usually I have work all weekend plus one random weekday. I love my job so it never feels too stressful when I have to go.

usually I stay up late and sometimes don't sleep at all, then once or twice a week I'll sleep through a whole day.

in my free time I mostly watch movies or tv shows, I've watched 10 movies in the last 3 days alone. sometimes I play video games or read manga, scroll here or on tumblr. sometimes I even feel creative and work on music or draw but that's pretty rare these days...

I try to get out and see friends at least once a week. I go hang out at bars and on very very rare occasions I'll go to a house show or rave or (a couple times a year at most) get invited to a party.

I haven't had sex in close to a year and nobody I have a social connection with understands me at all so I feel very alone, but I have still managed to put together a somewhat comfortable life despite all that.

>>43226627
>I want to be free
>can't go somewhere because can't control yapping
People use a diagnosis to do anything nowadays

>>43226889
It's like you're not even listening.
This is the result of your bootstraps method >>43225894 and >>43225982
You reach middle age and your umpteenth burnout and you realize there's not actually a way back in.

>>43225727
ive actually collaborated with her on a video lmfao we have a groupchat together

>>43225694
not dissimilar from me, but depression's got me working so little lately. It's funny working for youtube though

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>>43227000
followup on that, shes a funny character that girl

>>43225694
what videos do you make

I go to work, come home and post on /tttt/. That's about it.

>>43226394
>>43226326
I’m in a book club and single, and i went to the hiking club the other week and it was all autistic people,

>wake up
>go to work
>come home
>make dinner
>smoke weed
>play video games (sometimes with friends)
>do the dishes
>shower
>go to bed

the life of a introverted bichud

>>43226907
>It's like you're not even listening.
You live in the real world babes you have to learn anyway

>>43225462
read 4chan thread
read discord
read plantfucker smut
read books
write shitty smut
dryfire practice
cook food
sleep
repeat

I used to go to work but I got fired.

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>>43225462
think about why my life is so fucked up
there isnt really anything i can do to escape my abnormal family/living situation except become financially independent which is borderline impossible because my ocd is disabling to the point i cant do normal tasks but i havent applied for disability because the process seems overwhelming to start and i assume i need to get documentation and stuff from past therapists
i have no energy
i have a part time job i really hate and my mom doesnt work at all and my father is an abusive piece of shit who legitimately has hidden microphones in our house and car (im not "schizo" my mom is the one who first noticed this shit and then told me and since then i realized when he would quote things from private conversations between me and my mother) and my dad pays for my moms phone and stuff but cut mine off (lol) and my mom knows she can get away with making me be the one who has to worry about work and school while she doesnt do shit because my father enables her and bullies me. we also have bedbugs which he also purposefully spread through our house to torture and abuse us for 3 years now so i cant escape anywhere or have a normal social life because it would spread to others.
i dropped out of college and am trying to get back in. i cant take estrogen anymore because it started triggering psychedelic effects in my body from when i was stupid enough to do lsd as a teenager one time. i also grew up in a cult. i cannot function and do the bare minimum to survive. my mom gets away with making me be the one to do everything and just goes apeshit and threatens to call the police if i argue too much.
i really hate my family and life. there isnt much i can really do. i really wish i had parents who put me through college so i could have a good and normal job and not have to worry about going homeless or having to go to school while working and having a legitimately disabling mental illness that i couldnt even handle college with

>>43229900
>i cannot function and i just do the bare minimum to survive.*

also the only person i vented to about this shit ghosted me because i think i said something she didnt like or whatever so im completely alone, i dont have irl or online friends except one childhood friend who i only meet on holidays when he travels back here :)

>get up, feed child
>back to sleep for a bit
>take child to school
>come back,. do a couple chores, maybe shower, pass out
>some days, get up and go to medical appointments or blood draws or do a litle shopping
>go pick her up from school
>make dinner, try to include her in the preparation
>play, read, or sing together
>brush our teeth, tuck her in
>stay up to do paperwork, chores, write notes for my care attendants, fix and mend things, budget, study, whatever else
>maybe read for fun or play a game
>sleep

>>43229933
do you want to fuck your childhood friend?

>>43225462
Wake up.
Take stimulants.
Fuck around on my phone for 4+ hours.
Slowly build up enough guilt to maybe work on my business for 1-4 hours a few times a week.
Special day, maybe once a month: get myself to shower and brush my teeth and change clothes.
Back to phone until I fall asleep.

>>43225462
Ehhh
>Go to work (coast guard)
>Go to the gym (160lb and lean)
>Read (Jung, Hall, Zizek lately)
>Read political Essays on X
>Send friends memes on Instagram
>Edit my face with AI onto Trump and share it with my friends (heh)
>Sleep with trans women & cds and get ghosted, or ghost them (5 and counting this year already)
>Wear protection and get tested regularly
>Go hiking and explore the towns and cities in my area
>Call friends and family to stay in touch
>Pray to God to help me get better
It's a simple life, being a bishit white man

>>43230334
NO. can you people chill

>>43230397
>puddle pirate
makes since, the navy is straight up gay, so the USGC would be chaser gay

Your mother

>>43225462
cry

>>43225539
you do a 9 to 5 on the weekdays and a 5am-12pm on the weekend? why two jobs?

>>43229494
paradox map game slop

>>43229933
>also the only person i vented to about this shit ghosted me because i think i said something she didnt like or whatever
in my experience if she suddenly ghosts you she either got a boyfriend or she killed herself lol. flip a coin nona

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>>43225482
nice

>>43236702
i got signs on pinterest of these tarot cards of messages from people who have departed when i was thinking about her, but i don't know. i know she had bpd and i saw her say something in one of the bpd threads recently about ghosting somebody after they said something that ruined her perception of them and im p sure it was because i posted something about wanting to top/being a versatile and that i don't think I'm actually completely a bottom, and i know she didnt like trans tops. i'm sad because i genuinely miss her and love her and think about her all the time and got attached and obsessed with her because she made me feel better and is the first friend I've made in a long time including since my current situation began. and i never would want to top her, i don't have that kind of attraction to her, she's older than me and I'm submissive towards her. i literally am like how misa in death note is obsessed with light about her. i noticed i attracted girls slightly older than me since i was younger and still thought i was just a feminine bi cis boy lol
i just am sad that if she ghosted me she didn't even let me know that she's alive. i can accept her not wanting to be friends with me, i just want to know that she's alive. :(

>>43236887
>i saw her say something in one of the bpd threads
is she a tripfag or something lol
how do you know that was her? i think youre projecting a dead womans shadow onto random nonas because you cant let go
or maybe she actually is ghosting you lmao

>>43236887
>after they said something that ruined her perception of them and im p sure it was because i posted something about wanting to top/being a versatile and that i don't think I'm actually completely a bottom, and i know she didnt like trans tops.
You know, you shouldn't get attached to someone who'd ghost you over such a minor thing. Reserve your love for better people

>>43236918
she isn't a tripfag i just am guessing based on her typing style and what i know about her and her personality. i saw someone else that i thought might be her but idk
>>43236948
i really don't think i can be a chooser. my life is hell and i have no idea what could actually make things stop being so horrific except divine intervention. i hate myself a bit for being so attached to her despite that she may have just thrown me out for that while knowing what I'm going through but i can't help it. i also saw her in my dreams 3 times recently and I'm scared she might actually be dead and i can't fucking believe it.

>>43237035
You seem very mentally ill, I'm sorry. I wish I could take care of you myself, you poor thing.

>>43225462
wake up spend a few hours in bed with no purpose or reason to wake up go on my pc and rot until going back to bed to sleep, no way out until i kms

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>>43237083
thanks :')

>>43225462
Wait for the day I get my drivers license back so I can drive again and have a life again and not have to use the internet all day like loser.

>>43225462
>wake up, pills+skincare+5min exercise+brush teeth
>browse chans/reddit/youtube on the computer, sometimes tinker/organize computer stuff or watch anime, eating happens there too
>go to bullshit job, do the same as above but on the phone
>go back to house, shower+skincare+brush teeth, go to bed

so I basically do the bare-minimum to maintain my body and distract myself I guess
I’m quite happy actually, despite no friends or meaningful social contact. it’s a very low-stress life

Take Adderall, read, take notes, study more, burn out and ruminate until the next day. Repeat ad infinitum

>>43237271
> meaningful social contact
irl I mean

>>43238456
i wish i could have meaningful social contact but even online i cant manage..

>>43239211
just don’t try, like at all
the people who would want to be around you will go out of their way to do so
it’s harder than it looks, the less you care the easier it is

>>43239820
i dont think this applies to me i literally have 0 interaction ever outside this board i never once had a person want to be around me lol

>>43225462
bed, eat, go out, eat, bed, eat, sleep

>>43225462
go to work during the week
watch whatever tv show i’m watching at the time (lately it’s been malcolm in the middle)
i do a stupid discord basketball league almost every day
i’m on this board constantly
so basically, nothing productive

>>43225462
I dedicate myself to the religion ive created and sometimes I shitpost on troon troon troon & troon

>>43225515
whats your favourite type of tea nona?

>>43239844
>i literally have 0 interaction
meaningful ones? if yes, me too for I guess 2 years
>i never once had a person want to be around me lol
can’t relate, but there’s a first time for everything
in the meanwhile, maybe you can try improving your life as to make it more comfy? I guess that worked for me very well, at least for me socializing isn’t tiring when I don’t have a lot to worry about
but ofc your priorities might be different

>>43240815
no i mean at all..i am missing something to even have shallow interactions with other people and seem normal
thank you anon you seem nice i wish your advice applied

>>43239820
you still have to try a little bit though
there were people who wanted to be around me, i ignored all their attempts to reach out until they stopped trying
in real life no one's gonna stand outside your house with a boombox, if you don't put any effort into caring about people they'll naturally assume you don't like them and move on