i am in western massachusetts.he is texting me again. he is asking me to come over. i can't get my mom on the phone. i don't need anything. i just want to hear her voice. she texts me on saturdays when she is drunk with her boyfriend. she tells her friends at work that she has a transgender daughter. i am trying to get my mom on the phone. i am in western massachusetts. he says we could only smoke weed if i wanted. his ex girlfriend will be there soon but we have time. no one in this house has worked in months. there are bills we don't talk about. i go over there and go up the stairs and walk past his children's shoes in the doorway. he is already looking at me andi am in western massachusetts. everyone is convincing each other of something. saying it is okay to live here. they read a google document about her. she isn't welcome at the fetish events anymore. she is a satan and. this is holy i am in western massachusetts and he is fucking me on his bed which he shared with his ex for the better part of a decade and it isnt pleasant, it hurts quite a lot, and i am trying to convince myself this is love. there is love for me still. there has been love. there can be love again. he put ankle on the tv for me and now he tells me i have no choice if he cums inside or not. i feel sick for days. i am in his bathroom and the toys of his children litter the shower. i can't get my mom on the phonei am in western massachusetts and there is a fire. i am smoking a cigarette. but i don't exist. my family doesnt hate me, they just don't pick up the phone. which is worse. i wish they would pick a side. instead i must guess. i will read the bible. and attend an hollow church. i don't feel him here. i amin western massachusetts. questioning why my parents would have a child in the first place. why my dad could not get castrated like me. why the beast could not be contained. and i was dropped into the flux. so now i am in westernmassachusetts. there is a rabbit in a cage.
>>43235307anon idk if this means anything to you but i will never forget you
>>43235307Please have love for yourself nona. A good poem for a sad situation but do try not to linger in the wound dear.
we talkin' springfield or like lee/stockbridge?
Okay dr manhattan lmao
>>43237321thank you. i love you
>>43235307Hey anon. This chud is thinking of you and I hope better things come.
>>43235307I hope you don't mind me saving this, anon. It is extremely affecting.I know I can't do anything but I truly hope you can find happiness and peace in this life. You deserve it, you are clearly a wonderful human being
>>43238539she needs to stop fucking this loser driftwood who lives with his ex
>>43238566You can easily find yourself in a place where you don't feel like you have agency, you are helpless, there are no choices.
>>43238596how does one escape from such a place?
>>43238624Radical rupture. Easily said, rarely done
>>43238656where one can no longer love, one must pass by. she needs to start by passing by this fucking loser who gives a shit what his loser cisf ex thinks. "ohuhuuuu she's the mother of my children." literally DITCH this fucking worthless straightoid. sorry to be crass, but something has to kickstart the impulse to decision
>>43238596story of my life>>43238656what might that look like?
>>43235307413 REPRESENT PIONEER VALLEY MOTHRFUCKRRRRSEVERYONE THERE IS ALREADY DEAD
>>43235307fuck the celtics
>>43240713i dont know if i can take it for another day. without fail, every single time i walk outside some social event dominated by trannies, they are talking about canceling each other. nobody smiles at each other. how can one live like this
>>43239570>What might that look likefor me it was a complete change that forced me to act or live the rest of my life miserably. Got out of an unhappy marriage and in the process lost my home, friends, and sense of self. So I had no choice but to find a way out of that shitty situation.
