Hows your mental health /lgbt/?Has anything good happened in the past week?
>>43237809Nothing good has ever happened to meFucked up brain + fucked it up some more through experiencing this madness called life = slushy brain~~~I genuinely can't feel "love"
>>43237809I've been depressed lately and stuck in the past and unhappy about the present and dreading the future
>>43237809debating on whether or not to go back to the psych ward. but it'd probably be just a 1 week vacation from the world.
My brain is 100% fucked, so im just going to respond to everyone with cat pics.
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>>43237969right before that post i did a hook-up thing on telegramnow we wait for something/one to fill this void
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>>43237809it's bad
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>>43237982Be safe, use protection
>>43237993fed up being a hon
>>43238017can you post pics so I can feel better about myself?
>>43237809The good and bad is not evenly distributed. Some people get all good and others get only bad. Communism at its root is the idea that people can redistribute satisfaction fairly.
>>43237809not good, i get the feeling everybody hates me again and tbf its justified
>>43238040you can't redistribute beauty
>>43238017I understand. Not passing kills the soul
>>43238014You know it, babe
>>43238040I mean we cant control a lot, but what we can control absolutely should be fair. Like the law, or everyone having the basics to live
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>>43237809already responded to the last mental health thread, so we won't go into detail, but, it's been getting mildly better.slept 4 hours last night though, many such cases.bf hates us though because he is incapable of putting up with our insane shit and he gets mixed signals constantly, idk what to tell him. stop being a virgo or something.
>>43238138thanks for the kitties
>>43237809goodgood, got hit on at the bars last night
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>>43238144>stop being a virgo or something.So thats why you dont like virgos lol
I think the change of the season is helping my mental state. Its been alot better lately. Im not letting myself be walked on as much, working on a way to leave my abusive drunk of a partner. If all goes well it should happen within the next week or so.
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>>43238175oh lmao oopsie, yeah, not really though, it's just so hard to really get to know and relate with earth signs. they act so, vastly differently than I do, and it drives us insane.He's a great guy but fuck I wish he was more impulsive and willing to speak his mind, ig I'll never find anyone more stable though
>>43238194Virgos are closed off, and if we open up, its like our soul being exposed to sunlight. But once we do, we love very deeply
>>43237809I haven't been able to muster any motivation to do anything but work. I'm losing my only friend because I don't know how to talk to anyone or keep up a relationship that isn't explicitly transactional. I'm also about to move somwhere that's more conservative and I keep getting reminded that I'll need to be more careful with looking trans or interacting with my neighbors even though I'm a manmoder. Just feel bad and ugly. Not great mentally.
>>43238205that's very true, but unfortunately it means when you do open up you're incredibly vulnerable. Aries are impulsive and often say more than they need to, and I love him dearly but, he gets hurt in the process and I don't really know what to do other than feign stubbornness. I'm honest with him, and tell him immediately what I mean but once he's hurt, it's not fixed as easily. we wish we were someone else so we could be better suited for him, we need therapy for it but I don't even know how to bring it up. we've tried repressing parts of ourself but that just turrns into rumination and rots, we've tried being honest and open but he doesn't understand that we often say alot that we don't mean just to refine a point. I think the biggest difference as a Virgo and an Aries is that he says one thing with an incredibly amount of meaning behind it, and, I say alot of things with very little meaning behind them, but we both expect the same from the other. he takes everything I say fully to heart, even if it's not what I meant, and I go insane when he only gives us one response
excellent cat posts
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>>43238245This sounds very very familar to me. Being a virgo means you feel life so much more. Im BPD, so im also very sensitive to negativity. I honestly can't say what to do, because my own relationship failed. My new relationship is much better because he has a terrible memory, which unironically helps. And also i feel looked after, so when he says the wrong thing, i remember the good stuff when i storm off, and im like oh yeah he got me the sofa im sitting on.Thats the solution i guess, try to have nice things dotted around that remind each other of the good
>>43238291Caturday has gone but the memory lives on
>>43238291exquisite even
>>43237976I'm afraid I'll ruin my marriage
>>43238392why is that?
>>43238451Because of my depressive episodes
>>43237809nothing good happens to me lol.my whole life is a tragedy store thats so fucking boring and pathetic people put the book back on the shelf after one chapter because its obnoxious.
>>43238470if you're married, you do have some responsibility to manage that sort of thing but i know it's really shitty. I've been in a similar position and I've had to work hard to not let it fuck things up a 2nd time. I hope things work out okay for you
>>43238531Yeah I'm trying to make it not spill over
>>43237809im glad i didn't have access to firearms a few hours agoyeah, social activity yesterdaywith regards to fixing my life? nothing, probably
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>>43239619Im glad you didnt do anything bad
mine is very good, my bf seems to be even more loving as every day passing and it makes me so happy, i fall in love more and more
>>43237809not great. had a nice last night but im just very stuck on my ex now.. I thought we had a future together and that I could trust her with everything I guess. and it just didnt work out. I've been semi obsessively checking her socials and everything, although shes blocked me almost everywhere.
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>>43239884>I've been semi obsessively checking her socials and everythingNot healthy, please try to occupy time and start healing
>>43239945i know :c
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>>43237809im resisting having a mental breakdown and cutting everyone off and living in isolation
dude my mental health is so bad rn lmao I'm hyping myself up to my impending homelessness because
>>43237809trying no t to hate my mom for never being there for me when I was growing up.
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>>43240516i want a cat
>>43240650Purring helps reduce depression
>>43238193:) thanks
>>43237809It's in pretty poor shape at the moment.I had it all, I had a girl who was on the same wavelength as me on almost everything, the times I had when we'd go out together were some of the best times of my life.But alas, nothing is ever guaranteed, and she recently broke it off with me. I got along so well with her family, too, so I'll be missing them a lot— the dog too, of course!Though even prior to this I had been stressed over medical issues, with the only good thing to happen in the past week is getting an appointment to check me out.
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>>43241462Did she say why she ended it?
>>43243189Allegedly it's because I'm too emotionally immature, but I find that a bit hard to truly believe when she's just as bad, but in other ways...I was hurt by something she said to me, and when I told her as much, I got a cold response, and not a single acknowledgement that I was hurt, nor any attempt to see it from my angle. What else is there to do then, but confide in your friends, right?Wrong! Speaking to them turned out to be the wrong route to go down, though only because she could see what I was saying.I said that I was still hurting, and that I'd simply not speak until she got the hint that I was hurt, because up until that point I was convinced it was either a total lack of emotional depth, some kind of autism, or malice.Anyway, she didn't like that at all and claims that it broke her trust in me, in it's entirety, and that I'll never change, etc. (note we've never had an argument like this prior)And then she just cut it off.Sure, it was petty of me to give silent treatment, and I acknowledged as much even then, but 24 hours of no messaging with someone who hardly messaged in the first place, and calling their unfeeling words autistic hardly registers as reason to nuke what was otherwise a seemingly great relationship.
>>43237809I'm crying everyday for months
>>43237809nothing good really but nothing bad either
>>43237809broke up with my (first ever) gf of three years and have to learn a year of uni that i missed in a month for exams so im kinda losing it
I got molested when I was a kid by another kid, he wasn’t even older, just fatter and stronger. Everything in my life is because of that both good and bad, not sure if I’ll ever be okay or happy or not distracting myself.
i now have no friends as of today by my doing, just ghosted everyone. still have a bf, but even though it's almost a year anniversary, he's still emotionally avoidant. im so close in breaking up with him because it just feels like we're just fwb for the last few months. i just want him to love me as much as i love him, i havent felt that way with him ever. his parents like me and he seems to like me, and he said "love you" first, but i just don't feel any love from him.i 100% hope its just my broken brain perceiving that shit, but i cannot fucking tell anymore and it makes it worse.
>>43237809I laugh a lot and try to be lively because the alternative is succumbing to my depression...
>>43241462genuinely thought you were my ex for a minute @-@. just broke up with her >>43237809better but still not great. between jobs right now, had my first break up. I only have one or two irl friends and I repped through college so making them is an uphill battle, havent really had a friend group since middle school. I should finally have my legal name / sex changed soon so thats good at least. hoping to get out and socialize more when I start making money again
>>43243173Pardon the delay— I like this image very much, thank you anon. :)
im crashing out this weekend, nothing good has happened. my bf and i r splitting up, we have two more months living together. he barely wants to do anything and i mean ANYTHING with me anymore, says i want too much attention, ignores me most of the time. i try to be hopeful abt the future, im moving away to try and finish my degree but i just hate living this life so much i wish i wasn't into men or a tranny or stupid or having personality disorders or ADHD or just an overall piece of human garbage . i find so few men actually attractive (not talking abt high standards really just so rarely like, feel anything at all) and one just unmatched me on grindr after i sent a messy nude and a self deprecating text and god i just want to kms i wanted him so bad. and i wanted to know that i have any kind of chance to like. make it. i wish i was a straight woman, or a straight man, im so envious of all of them it hurts
More cat pics coming, my brain is fucked right now. I read all comments i hope things go well for everyone, need to go lay down now
I was unironically mentally insane until i shaved and exercised some and played vidya on friday.Gonna make homemade pizza tomorrow.Ouuuuh *rubs my twinky tummyOooouuvh
>>43244299Homemade pizza is nice
>>43237809>Hows your mental health /lgbt/?Awful. If I had a gun I would 100% kill myself immediately. The only reason I'm still alive is that other methods are risky and/or inconvenient.>Has anything good happened in the past week?No, unless we set the bar real low and include me having a bit of fun playing VR (Beat Saber and Jet Island).
>>43244542You're an absolute niggerfaggotNEVER kill yourself(with a gun)That leads to restrictive gun laws.Sorry to hear you're doing bad tj
>>43244583First of all, fuck you asshole for caring more about some laws than about a person's ability to end their suffering.Second of all, I already live in a country with restrictive gun laws, and that's why I haven't been able to kill myself.
>>43244633Yeah ruin the party for everyone bc suicide must take 0.1 second instead of 2 minutes.Gund save people from getting raped but i guess mr suicidal just doesnt care about that
>>43243794Why did you break up?
>>43244654Not gonna engage with your bait. Find yourself a real hobby.
To impregnate women, to have sex with them until they get pregnant, until they swell up with my children, and those children become retarded just like me, perpetuating this endless cycle of reproduction and sex.
>>43237809>Hows your mental health /lgbt/?Bad. I've been really depressed and having trouble getting out of bed or doing anything, I'm behind on a lot of school stuff. I'm probably gonna start seeing a therapist soon but idk what to expect.>Has anything good happened in the past week?I went to a local park the other day and walked along the creek for a while
>>43237809>Hows your mental health /lgbt/?every day i walk through a void and am apathetic about everything>Has anything good happened in the past week?i saw project hail mary with my parents last weekend
It might actually be over this time. Sliding into another depressive episode and I don't have anything left. I don't have anyone to help me through it. Meds don't work. Therapy doesn't work. Every time I get depressed like this I just have to ride it out for months/years. I don't know if I want to make it out of this one. I am tired.
Getting more cat pics for nona'a here, hopefully thread alive later
>>43237809I just got diagnosed with OCD and I'm hoping to get medicated for it soon
>>43237809im really not doing well. have been coming really close to actually offing myself.
>>43244688she was pretty much incapable of doing anything (not her fault, depression + audhd is a bitch) and i had to take care of her despite not being all that functional myself. she trashed our shared living spaces, spent probably 10k of my savings on literally nothing, i wasnt able to talk to my friends because we shared a computer room and she didnt want her friends knowing she was dating me, kept talking those friends despite them being horrible and disliking them, pushed away the people she did have that had her best interests at heart and was just generally kinda miserable to be around etc. whenever i brought something up, she'd be genuinely apologetic but nothing ever changed for more than a week. i felt like id become her carer rather than her partner and i began to view her as such. i lost all physical attraction, the idea of kissing her on the lips for example felt disgusting, like i was kissing my daughter. she loved me and i knew that but i felt extremely lonely.despite that i cared about her very much (and i still do). In my mind she would suffer infinitely more if we broke up than i was currently, and i was terrified she'd do something drastic if we did, so i just let it continue. every few months id break down and tell her i needed something to change because i was miserable. this time i told her i really cant take it anymore but i couldnt break up with her because i knew she needed me, and a few days later she decided to break up with me, which im honestly very grateful to her for.
nigga my mental health is dogshit and i wanna kms so badly
>Hows your mental health /lgbt/?I'm doing better now. I just been sad for a very long time>Has anything good happened in the past week?I got very nice and sweet messages from people on the internet and it made me happy
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>>43238144>I'm a mentally ill pluralgender tranny thing>shockingly, for reasons that I simply cannot be accountable for, my bi boyfriend must suffer
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>>43237809Ive cut off most people that i know. The only thing ive done that is good for me this year would be that i finally got a job but besides that ive been high 24/7 for the past few months and ive started abusing roids. 4 months into this year and besides the job all ive done is drugs,roids and grindr twinks. At the start of last year i was a virgin with a very different way of thinking compared to now. I cant help but think ive lost myself while fooling around and trying to change things in myself thinking that they are for the better.
>>43237809Right now my mental health is okay. My meds are keeping me euthymic. I have not experienced any hallucinations recently, except for a hypnagogic hallucination that my cat jumped on my back and started snuggling with me.My past week has been pretty uneventful. My seizures seem to be subsiding. I hope I can go at least month without one. If I can go a full year, I'll try to finally get my driver's license. My dad told me he talked to my mom about getting me new grips for my handlebars because the old ones are all sticky.
>>43244542>The only reason I'm still alive is that other methods are risky and/or inconvenient.Have you considered an exit bag and nitrogen, or is that too inconvenient? That's what I was planning to do but I don't have a good excuse for buying nitrogen that wouldn't tip people off. I do plan on getting into metalwork and welding as a hobby at some point, so I suppose I'll have a good excuse then, but for now I'm having a decent time. Plus, if I can weld, that kinda takes away some of my reasons for suicide because the main reason I have thought about it in the past is because I feel like a financial burden, but if I could weld, I could do odd jobs here and there and help people out and get some cash. Then I could pay for my own food and soda and stuff instead of relying on my mom. In general I don't feel too bad relying on her now because I realize so many people love me and that's why they give me financial support and pay my debts for me and stuff. It has to do with how I devalued familial love because it felt forced, but now I have a loving gf who is willing to financially support me and that feels more real. Of course, just because She's willing doesn't mean she's able. But still. I'm much happier than I used to be.
