i wanna be 19 again
>>43242695real everything since the age of 19 has been a blur and i can’t believe it’s been 7 years since my 19th birthdaylike what the fuck? time stopped being linear for meme being 23 feels more distant than being 19 somehow, it literally feels like yesterdaymy brain is fucked and nothing makes sense anymore
I wanna be 14 again and make completely different choices with my life
I don't. Everything before I was 22 sucked dick in a bad way
>>43242782i woulda just fagged out desu. i knew around that age that i liked guys too. there wouldnt have been pussyfooting around it and pretending like women did much for me.
>>43242695No. you don't.unless ur talking about being able to start hrt early then yeah go for it.
>>43242695Same
>>43242695im currently 19 and 3 months old and i never been more miserable my whole life
>>43242695Same turning 26 next week still in undergrad and lots of suicidal thoughts about my birthday as usual wish I could rewind my age. Got a girlfriend and decent at art made some new friends . But I don't think I've really been happy with my life this entire time. so much of it was mostly wasted doomscrolling procrastinating school work etc Burn out from school over thinking to existential crisis. or even with art pushing myself to the point I hated it>>43242782Honestly this>Troon 14 instead of 16 >Don't develop eating disorder>Don't try to become an artist just go to school after college and do art on the side>Still somehow meet my GF despite the time line switching somehow.>Slack off at some engineering job while hanging out with friends and engaging in hobbies
>>43242766Same desu I actually don't remember 23 but I super remember being a teenager to like 20 the it just blurred together into this giant stream of burn out and despair. Like in highschool I was mentally ill enough I went to a psych ward and constantly bullied but somehow that was better than whatever it is I feel like now at 26 maybye I should actually act on the suicidal thoughts this year. Or not idk my girl friend would be sad but she's be better off without me.
>>43242695I wish I died at 19 like I planned. I'm way overdue. rn my retirement plan is to die before then
>>43242782>14 again>kill myself
>>43244668i would. i had no idea life was going to be this hard.>>43242695im 21 right now, any advice before i become an oldshit (22)
>>43242695You won't be. I'm not going to lie to you.
>>43244732it would've been much easier to catch the bus back then than it is now. i got too many connections. i'm weighed down from heaven.
>>43244732my advice is to stop thinking you're older when youve got loads of time before that even is a consideration because that attitude will poison everything in your life
>>43242695>>43244774But she can close her eyes, imagine the smell of pollen from the city's concrete peonie planters on a warm summer day, hear her friends' laughs as they hop from store to store down the street, that teenage naivety to know that at the end of the day you'll return home to moma's cooking -- what was it, fettuccine alfredo today? instead of a lonely bedroom, instant ramen, and a "PAST DUE" cc bill on her desk.>>43244786Same. Also I think the most difficult part is over with, so that helps. But I don't think living through that was worth it. I still think about ctb sometimes.>>43244831I am a bit paranoid about running out of time. I want to be as pretty as I can before I hit the wall. I'm getting more into (a certain sport) as of late but I feel as though I kind of missed my shot with that because you have to start young to have a chance. I'm still trying but i know that I'll never be half as good as the people I look up to.
>>43244668I really wish I had. Skip all the depression and heartbreak and body horror, the tears and the misery. Straight to the grave. If only I'd known better
>>43242695A part of me is perpetually trapped at 17-19 and it's starting to scare me that she won't grow up with the rest of me.t. 23
>>43242695what did you miss doing so i can make sure not to miss out on since im 19 right now
>>43242695I turn 20 in a month, I’m kind of scared nona I’m still repping even thow I have diy. Please give me ur elder wisdom
>>43243595why the fuck wouldnt i???? my life was peak and i had so much potential. no i wasnt truly happy but i wasn't quite suicidally depressed every day>>43243713when i was 19 i was at my worst from 17-18. now at 23 almost 24 im at my worst.>>43244628you know i planned the same thing but i pushed it back ig>>43244732as i said 23 almost 24 and i dont know what to do. dont grow up i guess stay young. i felt like i had so much ahead of me at 21, at 22 didnt immediately care abt being old and scrambled my brain with daily dph abuse for months, then 23 hit me like a truck.>>43244879i didnt and still dont have friends and i want to die>>43245151i still cut and act like a depressed teen its ever over>>43245220EVERYTHING im gonna be serious for a moment. if you have something you want to do, even small things like idk learning some skill or grinding some retarded vidya to be the best at it. literally just do it. im even operating on this advice NOW in my elder years>>4324567220 is very young. 22 is the youngest you can give up. being depressed after your youthful spirit leaves forever is a whole different kind of hell
>>43246279I hope you get better, I don't care to learn your story though. Please take efforts to improve your life.
yeah idk at 25 you just settle in to being an adult i guess. i tried to ctb at 24 though so i understand, it’s a bad age
>>43247041you keep saying that after 1 guy mentioned the archives to you.i literally am looking for a job
