I'm honestly mostly a lurker on here, but its late as fuck and i decided to just throw my heart to the wind and write..Ive never really put myself out there as someone to date in the past. I never really felt a strong need to but as i grow older and watch the world burn around me i decided i did really want to give dating a chance before i die lol.I kinda started casually with dating online friends who were kinda insistent with trying to get with me, but i guess that i was too much of a attention whore or something who spammed too much and wanted all their eyes on me because they became really distant. I asked and ranted to them about it and they said they would try to work on themselves about it but they didn't so i broke things off with them. Right after an admittedly long cry, i put myself out on taimi because honestly id like to think i'm somewhat decently cute. i'm a mixed black fat fuck and i have a decent face i think... ANYWAY, i put myself out there without really thinking id get a lot of matches, but turns out i was a lot of peoples little niche haha and the first girl who caught my eye was nice as fuck. she was cool and we talked throughout the day and it was really sweet!! I drew her as a couple animals because i like to draw and give gifts :3, after i did that tho she got really sexual with me. Not that i didn't like it of course, i love talking dirty with people sometimes... After like 3 days of on and off sexual talk i start pushing the idea of going out and actually having a silly date.. a little park hangout session. arcades + movies? the whole sorta first date kinda thing. after i did though, she has been kinda reluctant on talking to me. She says because shes shy but who knows...Did i ruin it by actually wanting to go out before i become someones sex object for them to suck and touch on? I just want to cuddle a girl and watch movies and draw for her.. idk
>>43246241don't use dating apps for the love of god, people there want to jump straight into fucking or to a late stage of a relationship Try to find people irl/close to you and get to meet themromantic relationships form naturally if you're compatible with a friend
>>43246296 I guess im still kinda a lame on that lol, I used to go to so many public places and hang out. lil punk shows here and there and became a lil well know face too so many people. but noone really likes talkin to me irl :P im just not that good at making friends irl i suppose bleeehhh
