How long have you been on it, nona?

>>43258320
About 7 months

>>43258317
i kinda am feeling the same way some times. do you boymode when you go outside?

>>43258663
Yeah, I've never girlmoded yet

>>43258743
nona are you retarded stop doing that the only times i feel the reverse dysphoria is when im around people that i either havent told yet or those who misgender me. are there atleast places where you are out?

>>43258818
Nope. I'm not out anywhere, not even to myself

>>43258863
then how are you on e for 7 months

>>43258887
Diy hrt. Bought a vial almost immediately after finding out about it

>>43258922
then for the love of yourself atleast come out to people you trust. what are you waiting for in order to come out?

>>43258949
Not really. I just hate myself and believe I don't deserve to be seen as anything but a man. I also have nothing to girlmode with cause the thought of my male body stretching the fabric on clothes that would normally look good on a woman is making my skin crawl

>>43259008
hi repper-kun

>>43259021
who?

>>43259008
then go talk to a psych nona. and also about the clothing dont start with the hyperfem shit that just makes you more dysphoric but start with just shirts, learn to tuck and groom yourself its the small things that help

>>43259071
To be honest, the thought of trying out even regular women's clothes makes me worry because I'm very afraid it'll make me want to detransition

>>43259181
nona no cisoid would ever buy a vial of e as soon as they find out its possible those thoughts are just the brainworms trying to get you nothing worth having comes easy

>>43259350
I'm not so sure about it myself. First of all, I don't remember ever wanting to be a woman prior to getting on hrt. Second of all, I can't say I started to transition because of dysphoria.
It was learning about how hormonal transition works that kinda flipped a switch in my head which made me take it. It just felt like the most reasonable thing to do, so I did it. The factors which contributed to this could've been many

>>43259445
nona you are the biggest repper ive ever heard of no cisoid would want to take e after learning about how it works. unless youve got some wild traumas that caused this but in both cases still go to a psych

>>43259782
I'm still not sold on that. My previously mentioned points still stand, in addition to the possibility that I'm doing this just out of sheer stupidity, thinking this will somehow "fix me". There's also the fact that this makes me feel extremely perverted, since I'm appropriating a body that doesn't belong to me.
Also, I don't have any trauma relating to this

>>43260034
>> somehow "fix me"
and
>> I don't have any trauma relating to this
arent really adding up also the trauma doesnt have to be related to tranny shit theres this study i remember reading some time ago about this.
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10794437/
while the study mostly had afab respondends i still think its a usefull study.
and still go talk to psych

bump for the answer when i wake up

>>43260228
How do the two not add up? Feeling empty and broken are just parts of the human condition, no matter whether one has trauma or not, aren't they?
Thanks for the the study though, and I will talk to a psych. Have my appointment in a couple of weeks

>>43262304
the two of not having a trauma and that it will somehow fix you. because im sorry to tell you but feeling empty and broken is not part of the human condition but i wouldnt know. anyways goed luck with the psych and i hope you atleast figure out what it is fren

>>43262858
>feeling empty and broken is not part of the human condition
That's pretty much inconceivable to me ngl

>>43263902
it is to me as well but trust me its not part of the human condition. tho i would talk to you psych about that you feel like it is.

>>43264039
It might not be part of the human condition for some, but I've always been this way, so I really doubt that will ever change, psych or not. I'll still give it a try, but I have no hopes at all

>>43264949
sounds like dysthymia ngl if it is the case ive got the same and atleast for me antidepressants made it bearable

>>43265015
I've been on antidepressants for about three months now, and it has probably only gotten worse

>>43265015
I've been on antidepressants for about 3 months, and it has unfortunately not improved anything at all. If anything, I'm doing worse now

>>43266350
>>43266408
Didn't mean to bump it twice. My original reply didn't show up at all on my end because of how slow the site currently is

>>43266408
if its only gotten worse then maybe it would be worth a shot to switch antidepressants but thats something your psych would know better than me.
seen as the site is having issues and weve been having this thread for well over a day now maybe want to switch to somewhere else? if so and because captcha is so extremely slow atm ill just drop a burner email here
burner.zc4mr@simplelogin.com

>>43266455
That's really kind of you. I've sent you an email. Hope you'll have a great day