what are the best ways to punish myself for being a fucked up tranny boymoder? i punch myself a lot (i know malebrained) and i don't want to like permanently hurt myself but i deserve it due to being a dumb tranner
>>43259315forcefem yourself
>>43259315get a st4t husband who lovingly beats you into complete femininity and submission. he hurts you because he cares for you nona.
>>43259330i am already post op :(that's part of why i deserve punishment i can't even be a girl and i cut my penis
>>43259352You're a boymoder. Plenty of fem left to be forced. Nobody can see you had srs. Honestly it should be illegal to boymode post srs
>>43259315Forgive yourself and live your best life (preferably with girlmoding)
>>43259315i tend to scratch now. it feels a little more fembrained, and i kind of like having scars. but sometimes it is easier to just hit my hand against a hard surface since scratching requires a continuous commitment to the action. i've had the urge to cut a lot lately, but i try not to do that since its so messy.
>>43259364this is why im punching myselfsometimes i punch my srs hole which hurts a lot>>43259389it's been a while and i'm scared pucnhing could cause brain damage so i've started punching other parts
>>43259397>sometimes i punch my srs holeYou shouldn't do that and you shouldn't call it that. You're a woman with a vagina, stop otherizing yourself that way. Hope you get better
>>43259408i don't like to call it that since' im not a real woman
>>43259315idk I started doing so many drugs that I black out regularly
>>43259414I disagree.
>>43259416i've done this with alcohol before but that's part of the problem>>43259422how am i a woman if i was born with a penis and i can'teven properly be a trans woman if i am a boymoder failure
i want a self-hating boymoder gf to fix
Turn yourself into a public service announcement on the dangers of prolonged boymoding
>>43259555i used to pretend to be a girl i just switched back because i don't deserve it
i wonder if i could spank myself somehow
>>43259647i can fix you
>>43259653i want otmake my bf spank me but i am scared he will think it is sexual
>>43259501>i've done this with alcohol before but that's part of the problemno this is immense self-harm retard
>>43259352WHAT. Why are you still boymoding post op???? Im losing my mind, what do you look like? How are you still boy moding. Thats insane
>>43259750that's why i said it was a problem
>>43259760people call me she usually but i am considered a boy since i was born with a penis. when i got surgery i pretended to be a girl but then somet hings happened and it is better to accept my fate
>>43259779Girl, you need to just let yourself be happy. Find a friend group. Headcanon you are a silly boy that goes by female pronouns like a cute anime boy. Doesnt matter what you do, stop living like this, its such a wasteee
>>43259802it's not really possible any more
>>43259834What could have possibly happened to make you like this?
I use a baseball bat pretty often, gets the job done without serious damage
>>43259864a lot of it was a rape like thing but there was also some stuff with the police
>>43259885I'm sorry to hear that Nona, you are beautiful and you don't deserve this. I hope whoever is responsible for your suffering gets karmic justice. Please try to go easy on yourself. Youre not responsible for what happened. You dont need to be punished.
>>43259911idk i know that i deserve everything that has happened to me and even more
>>43260081You don't. Please love yourself, you deserve love. It hurts me that you're so distraught. I believe you can overcome this. Get help if you need it, but dont hurt yourself. You're already hurt enough, you need to heal
>>43260112if we didn't deserve this the world wouldn't be so horriblethat's why i need to hurt myself to atone for everythign
>>43259352based fellow boymoder with a srsussy
>>43260134The world is horrible because horrible people make it horrible. You didn't do anything. Trans people didn't do anything. It would be horrible with or without us. You should live a happy life, live for yourself. Enjoy the things that you can when you can. Hurting yourself is only increasing the amount of suffering. It doesnt change anything else. No one benefits from your pain. Redirect your despair to better yourself and help the people you love.
>>43260157it's not based it's horrible>>43260160i deserve it and maybe it is good for other peole to see me sufferi don't have a baseball but i've been following the bat suggestion
>>43261160its more based than being a optics nuke hon. Just because you have no dick doesnt make you a woman.