>be me> gay awakening as a pre teen> have desire to be feminine> take years to get over> be teenager and find out about trans people> begin watching and reading a lot about it> spend a year coping and hating myself for it> get over it> fast forward to present daythis is all well and good but i sadly have a ton of agp traitsgender envy from looking at cis womenduring that just under a year of hating myself for possibly being trans had a bunch of autoseuxal moments(from seeing my own rather male reflection and when thinking about being a girl) which I hated(to the point where I no longer want a sex drive or anything like that) and almost makes me want to get null surgerythat plus originally wanting to be a femboy at a young age(didnt learn about trans people mid teen years)I have like a lot of dysphoria body wise and all and would like to be a mother ideally(freezing sperm is a nasty idea desu + no uterus :<) but idk I cant shake the feeling I must be faketrans or somethingit doesnt help that I already look like a short femme gay boy pre hrt(18) idk maybe I should just cope and be an hrt cis guy or something I cant stand the idea that this is due to some gross fetish
People are cognizant of when they are doing something for a fetish. You can't accidentally do something for a fetish. Drop the Blanchard bullshit and enjoy your life, nona.
>>43264596>it doesnt help that I already look like a short femme gay boy pre hrt(18) Let me breed you
>>43264596please consult the chartif you were always a fag and have no attraction to women + you're naturally short and feminine you're unlikely to be agp>gender envyas in the way sneeds say of 'i want to be her and fuck her' or just regular jealousy?>I no longer want a sex drivehrt will lower it and change how it feels>I have a lot of dysphoria body wisethat's literally all you need. even if you didn't have the other things, this means you should troon out. if things are as you're describing, ygmi anyway
>>43264653are cluster b faketrans?
>>43264649ew I only really added this to assert that I theoretically could cis cope but idk it would suckhaving a flat chest for life would make me wanna kms >>43264653gender envy in the giwtwm sense/ being jealous that I am not as feminine as the cis women my age def not some weird White Lotus shit(that scene still gives me the creeps)
>>43264681Ok but if you're already a gay boy with a flat chest, iLOVE you and need you to be my bf. Flat chests are so peak. If you're grossed out by this you're agp btw they're the ones that think there's something wrong with gay men loving themselves and other males
>>43264704lolthe idea of being a gay man is so gross to me not because of internalized homophobia but the idea of some guy liking me for having male traits is weird
>>43264718Idk maybe you're unsure of what you want? A gay boy doesn't care about any of that stuff, he's already naturally fem and cares more about getting a bf and being in love than about the dynamics of two males loving each other. There's absolutely nothing wrong with loving your body and your life. These people that would groom you into hating your body and your life are dragging you into their little misery world honey. Think about that.
>>43264680depends if you class agps as faketranspersonally i see it as not all agps are faketrans but all faketrans are agp>>43264681>having a flat chest for life would make me wanna kmsyou're a tranny>gender envy in the giwtwm sense/ being jealous that I am not as feminine as the cis women my agei wish sneeds didn't coin confusing terms to describe what gets their princess wands hard because it confuses people who experience normal emotions like youyou're describing normal jealousy, cis women get jealous of other cis women
>>43264736I mean idkIn an ideal world I would have secondary + primary sex characteristics for a female plus in an even more ideal world I would be normal and have a uterus and have kids(what kind of maniac does piv)so maybe I am just trans idk I think atp im unwilling to not take hrt at the very least
>>43264596>Am I AGP?whats even the point of asking this? would knowing whether you are AGP or not (whatever that means) change anything about your and your transition? no need to obsess over labels, no need to look for yet another reason to hate yourself, just do your thing if you feel like it
>>43264704>>43264736listen man, i know you like twinks, but some people genuinely have dysphoria
>>43264681reddit spacing>>43264653>>>43264750>sneedshut the up
no you are not agp you are a 110% trv-hvss-tvss OP.now go troon, be happy and leave this hellsite. LEAVE THIS PLACE NOW
>>43264750so what is a trutrans agp?
well if i was agp that would imply im some kind of autosexual pervam I misunderstanding the labels
>>43264796What's wrong with being autosexual?
>>43264761Yes but we don't live in an ideal world. We live in a world where beauty and love are forever scarce and fleeting. It does sound to me like you're agp and not gay, which is a subject I'm not really qualified to speak on since I'm not agp. Good luck.
>>43264796Leave this place, don't let it poison your mind. AGP is not a thing in the real world.
>>43264804its icky!!!! most people are not autosexual
>>43264783What is dysphoria then? A male who thinks his body is somehow wrong because he's attracted to female bodies and his brain has misinterpreted that attraction. That's a mental disorder not a sexuality.
>>43264788imo someone who surpresses their autosexuality enough to not be fucking weird there's well functioning transbians/bi trans women, they're just hard to find, and usually have a combination of>early transition or lucky enough to gigapass>extraverted>little other to no mental illnesses
>>43264824that's agpdysphoria can also come from hating masculine characteristics because they conflict with an internal neurological sexnote though: 'feeling like a woman' doesn't exist, but 'wanting to not be a man and rather having feminine characteristics' does
>>43264827i suppress my autosexuality by taking estrogen and manmoding as e killed my sex drive
>>43264819>its icky!!!!that's an opinion>>43264827>weirdwhat's wrong with being weird?
>>43264824>What is dysphoria then?reframing your internalized homophobia as a gender problem rather than a sexuality issue
>>43264892You're stupid. I wish I could swear at you.
>>43264596Same here
>>43264852>hating masculine characteristicsBecause you are an autogynephile and hate masculine characteristics in yourself and others. >an internal neurological sexIow some make-believe concept that is supposed to substitute for calling it a mental disorder. You do not have an internal neurological vagina living in your brain lol you're just nuts. >note though: 'feeling like a woman' doesn't exist, but 'wanting to not be a man and rather having feminine characteristics' doesAGP..
>>43264892No sorry. How you can still be this densely unaware surrounded by mountains of evidence that agp are not coping gays, idk
>>43264653I fit into cluster A pretty much entirely except for being a lesbian what does this mean
>>43264922>Iow some make-believe concept that is supposed to substitute for calling it a mental disorder.son i'm crinehormones in utero influence both physical characteristics and mental ones, this is well published science at this pointi agree, dysphoria is a mental disorder categorised by the distress of one's physical features not matching their mental sex. but sure, if not neurological sex, what causes dysphoria? and what's the treatment?
>>43264956there's exceptions what characteristics are you missing
>>43264653i'm literally every a point but gynephillic
>>43264987i'll believe it when i see it
>>43264960100% of you all are agp and I do not for a second believe that agp begins in the womb. AGP begins to surface post-puberty as the afflicted find pornography materials that clue them into their fetish, which is the sole reason they want to become women at some point. Take OP for example; 18 years old, discovering that he wants to be a girl late in his development, whereas a gay boy is feminine and playing with dolls and trying to experiment with make-up by 4 or 5 years old, as well as feeling crushes towards other boys. Agp are males fetishizing females for the psychological/sexual gratification it brings them. They are frauds.
>>43265018then why do some people transition before/early in puberty?
>>43265018Blanchard is a pedo fraud and you are pathetic for letting him poison your mind. AGP isn't real.
>>43265018Then why did I already want to have girl parts when I was like 6 years old?
>>43265060because gay children are mistreated from birth, they are seen as weaker less desirable children who can safely be neglected so parents can devote more resources to work and other childrenthe real reason ray blanchard is hated is because his terminology rejects the notion that sexual orientation can be changed by switching gendershsts are seen as gay man, agps as straight men, trannies view the ability to cross sexual orientation boundaries as socially useful but rarely acknowledge this publicly/outright
>>43265049Those are hsts like Kai Schreiber. AGP won't transition until late teens at the earliest, because it's driven by a sexual fetish that emerges long after puberty had set in. >>43265051Santa Claus isn't real and you don't see adults shitting themselves over it and trying to keep others from learning about Santa Claus. Hmmmmmm...
>>43265060AGP are first and foremost skinwalkers and with that distinction comes pathological lying.
>>43265072Honestly, do the rest of us a favor and blow your brains out. Livestream it for me.
>>43265072>Those are hsts like Kai Schreiberare you the same guy as >>43265018you just admitted hsts exists if you are? that's what i'm saying, OP is a hussy
>>43265094>I can't dialogue or debate so im going to shit myself in anger like an ape Wow so feminine sir.
>>43265115Yes but none of you are hsts. Hsts are rare.
I was not aware you had to be hyperfem at age 5 to be considered hstsdesu I wouldve gotten super abused if I had acted like that as a little kid so that shit wasnt coming out regardless
>>43265117You aren't trying to dialogue, you're just poisoning OP and the board with pseudoscientific nonsense. There's nothing to debate because nothing you are saying has any basis in reality. You deserve death.
>>43265146You reject the studies that you dislike and will promote asinine autistic theories like a secret hidden neurological chamber containing your xx chromos. You rant and rave about agp being fake while being agp yourself. Fuck off autistic.
>>43265018must everything follow such a strict biological timeline?
>>43265196Post the studies you dumb fucking faggot. I've seen it all before. They either don't exist or don't say what you think they say because you're a scientifically illiterate ghoul. I haven't promoted any fucking theories ITT, I'm just calling out your brain damage for what it is.
>>43265200When we're taking about mtf that transitioned for fetishistic reasons, yes. It's not only reasonable to assume that they wouldn't transition early, that's the only conclusion you can make considering sexual fetishes only develop after puberty especially a fetish as extreme as agp.
>>43265227The original series of studies, spanning 16 years, that you will perform mental gymnastics to avoid. We don't need more studies do we? What we need is for agp men with autism and anger issues to be bannished off of the lgbt island.
>>43265127surei painted my nails from ages 5-8, had persistent fantasies about having a vagina since i was 5, had crushes on boys all throughout school + fantasised about them and tried to make myself seem as feminine as possible to attract them (which didn't work because i wasn't open about it and assumed they'd find me out like in my fantasies and got me bullied for being a shy faggot), and exclusively watched gay porn since i found out porn existed if you're also the guy banging on about how OP shouldn't transition and just be gay, know that i thought the exact same thing too but wasn't naturally cute enough to stave off dysphoria and get a boyfriend
>>43265085I wasn't gay, I thought I liked girls until I got on HRT. Granted I never was with a girl but still.>>43265085All right then, wonder why most guys don't want to have a pussy despite having access to porn
>>43265072>KaiIm actually really jealous of her shes super pretty and got to transition super early(altho i am 18 so I dont have much to complain about with that)grr I hate people with rich parents and love and familial support :< really grinds my gears kek
>>43265301>I wasn't gay, I thought I liked girls until I got on HRTlol, nta but way to prove his point by saying you have meta attractionJesus Christ, you didn't lie well enough apparently
>>43265281>The original series of studiesNo one avoids them, they've just moved on because he was wrong.
>>43265298Ok you were gay, however thinking about vaginas at 5 years old is very abnormal. Gay boys many times that age would never lol. So who knows. Idk you or your story or if it's accurate, all I have to go on is my past experiences with trans women being extremely awful and leaving me with the impression that they're pathological liars with a syndrome for imitation.
>>43265325I'm not arguing I'm not AGP, I am. I'm just saying that I was like this as long as I remember.>>43265338Most kids at the age of 5 know boys have a peepee and girls have a coochie,
>>43265331If he was wrong you wouldn't care. There wouldn't be clear cut cases of abnormal men with AGP like Chris Chan, Jessica Yaniv, Stacie Marie Laughton the first trans mtf elected to Congress arrested for trying to have sex with a 4 year old girl. Agp is real and scary.
>>43265338desu it sounds like youre a transphobe and just hate trans women rather than that youre an intellectual scholar who is fending off these ignorant 4chan blanchard haters or whatever with your magical AGP studiesjust say you dont like trans people and leave it at that
>>43265338vaginas are the secret to power, boys are invisible if they are gay, whole little girls are treated like princesses because of their vaginas, in an attempt to groom them into breedingits not the vagina itself, its the social privilege it confers, and the subsequent anguish in your mind at your subconscious recognition of this - noticing how the girls around you are treated so much better than weak feminine boys are, who are left to rot like unwanted blemished grapes
>>43264596The fetish stuff is stupidThe bottom line is, once you transition, you will be a girl, and by then it really will not matter why you're doing it, and nobody will care. If you have awful gender dysphoria, treat it.
>>43265346I saw my first vagina at 6 and was repulsed lol. Already had a bf of sorts and we would kiss and cuddle. I wasn't thinking my body needed a vagina to make my bf more attracted to me. So idk. That's not the normal gay experience imo.
>>43265363If he were right you wouldn't have to peddle your bullshit like a religion. The existence those people does not change the reality that Blanchard's typology is not broadly applicable and that trans women cannot be neatly categorized into two groups. You are moving the goalposts.
>>43265369I have trans friends, mostly ftm but a few mtf I've respected. I don't like these particular basement creatures on this board, not trans people altogether.
>>43265374You're fucking crazy bro. Whatever meds you need to take, do a double hit today.
>>43265338>thinking about vaginas at 5 years old is very abnormalgenuinely unsure how much of it was just being curious about the differences between the sexes as a young kid and how much was a manifestation of dysphoria, but the thoughts of having one were there before i knew what sex actually was>leaving me with the impression that they're pathological liars with a syndrome for imitation.i don't actually blame you for this opinion. many agps have openly admitted to lying about having dysphoria younger than they actually did or finding signs where there aren't any ("i played as a girl character in my autistic malebrained videogames so i'm totally trans" (something not even cis women do all the time (seriously, just look at the community of women who make Arthur Morgan look as hot as possible))), which leaves a nasty stain on everyone else
>>43265402gay men transition to escape brutal homophobia, trannies are anti-blanchard because he exposes the real social problem behind their empty "dysphoria" rhetoric>>43265385it is if you are gay and autisticbeing autistic doesn't make you a woman
>>43265385Yeah I wasn't like that, I guess I'm a straight jeep guy who likes men
>>43265423>trannies are anti-blanchard because he exposes the real social problem behind their empty "dysphoria" rhetoricOr maybe it's because I have firsthand experience being transgender and know it's plainly not representative of my experience. Easy to know a fraud's a fraud when they're trying to explain your experience.
>>43265436people deliberately misrepresent their own experiences because others will destroy you socially if you dare tell the truthmost people don't believe gays are born that way, and will do anything to suppress homosexuals leading happy, actualized lives
>>43265447>people deliberately misrepresent their own experiences because others will destroy you socially if you dare tell the truthI don't have anything to hide or misrepresent about my experience. I will answer literally any questions you have in excruciating detail and plain honesty just to prove you wrong.
>>43265414I don't trust anyone with AGP anymore as a general rule. A few years ago on this board they were openly proud of the fact that they had this sexual fetish for women. They would post in AGPgen sounding every bit heterosexual and male as they lusted over the pictures of young cis women they posted and made crude remarks about their bodies. And they still do this in lesgen. These are not women. These are not transgender people. These are straight men.
>>43265501>they had this sexual fetish for women>sexual fetish for womenThis is called a sexual orientation, dear
>>43265501I tried to live as a straight man for many years as a result of this rhetoric and I can confidently tell you that I am not in fact a straight man and attempting to live as such is catastrophically harmful to us. Don't peddle such nonsense.
>>43265501>>43265571But if I fantasize about a man filling my pussy, am I still a straight guy?
>>43265601Agp meta rot.
>>43264653lol I'm a mix of bothbut I'm bi
>>43265601you are a gay guy with internalized homophobiawomen are not gay for only being attracted to menif you were a woman, your attraction to men wouldn't be seen as sexually predatory and unwanted
>>43265789Bi trannies are agp and not bisexual. A bisexual woman is attracted to male bodies and female bodies, and craves cock in her pussy. The typical tranny calling himself bi has found his loophole to once again confuse people as to his identity. He is not physically attracted to men but is autoattracted to the fantasy of being desired by men.
>>43265763But why do I love my tits and ass and shit and dream about chopping my dick off to be smooth and nice
>>43265816>everything I don't like is AGPpathetic
>>43265816>He is not physically attracted to menI wish I wasn't, would stop my impossible crush on a guy
>>43265818Agp rot. Hsts don't get SRS because they don't hate themselves or their body, rather they want to make themselves more attracted to men. You want to make yourself more attracted TO YOURSELF. That's the mental disorder.
>>43265818because people with penises who sexually are attracted to men are reviled and treated as predatorspeople with vaginas who sexually are attracted to men are treated like goddessesto your autistic mind, the idea of switching roles seems possible and ideal
>>43265827Maybe you're the great outlier agp who is attracted to himself yet also attracted to a man.
>>43265833I mean yeah, I didn't disagree.>>43265838Idk srsussies are pretty widely called disgusting axewounds, I still want one>>43265845Am I an outlier? I feel like lots of AGPs could be happy with a guy if they felt more female.
>>43265865your fantasy is that a man wouldn't notice you being a gay man and would fuck you anyways if you have a vaginaits the quintessential homophobic troon fantasymost gay men have scarred childhoods from realizing their male bodies prevent other males from being able to express sexual interest in them only
>>43265865No, and this feels like being stuck in a spider web of autism where we keep going back to the idea that you can change your sexuality or that your innate sexual taste buds can be changed if you just look a certain way or get the treatment you desire from a partner. You will always be faking your desire for men. Most AGP give up on that at some point and start fucking cis women outright because they are straight men.
>>43265917Honestly it would be hotter if a man noticed I'm a faggot with a pussy and raped me because of that>>43265924I'd rather date women too cuz it's easier, dating men long-term is kinda rare unfortunately. I guess I need to learn to stop faking this desire or something.
this thread is weird as fuck because how the fuck can a trans women not be agp by your definitions and constantly twisting interpretations?like this thread went from agp blanchard bullshit to just mindlessly pathologizing anything a trans woman could possibly do say or likeyou like women? agp pervert straight manyou like men? agp autosexual homophobeget a grip and stop listening to weird cis people on the tranny board who have nothing better to do but chastise trans women
>>43264653cluster a except six foot two so none of it matters and Ill always be an depressed gay man
>>43265996what if I enjoy being bullied by men
>>43266019gain self respect and get a nice boyfriend for yourself
also yall have completely forgot this post was supposed to be about OP now yall got in this stupid dogfight over what AGP even is and allat
>>43265816strong muscular male bodies are hot lol as well as soft female bodiesI had sex with both men and women and I enjoy both I'm just not "topping"
>>43265978That's really for the best. Maybe you can settle down and father children some day and live a happy life. You're not going to ever find your fantasy prince straight man who's going to somehow confuse you with a cis woman and bring you round to meet his straight friends and family. >>43265996I know who I'm talking to here. Is this thread made up of different posters than the ones that post in every general and every thread on the board?
>>43266120Idc if he's straight or not, gay might be weird cuz not sure if he's ok with me on estrogen and stuffNot interested in women so don't think that's gonna work out
>>43266096You're a bisexual male bottom then. Idk how you bottom for women, or why, but I admit there are some things I just don't understand.
>>43266139Good luck. This site is full of bugs and dropping out but we still managed to have a board fight lol. Hope you find a man you can be happy with.
>>43266096>strong muscular male bodies>i'm only attracted to literally the most masculine type of man but i'm totally not meta attracted or anything
>>43266141I don't have and never really had any desire to use that thing or have it in something I even feel repulsed by that thoughtthere are other methods to satisfy each other than penetration you don't just have to top or bottomwell genetically I am male yes but I'm living as a woman and I'm passing so who cares about chromosomes?
>>43266176>cis women attracted to muscular men>perfectly ok>trans women attracted to muscular men> oh my fucking god you agp meta attracted autosexual homophobe!!!grade a pathologizationcis people on this board are either gay, chasers, or intellectually disabled
>>43266176I just pointed out two extremes like strong male and soft female bodybut many types of men and women can be attractive and I'm more attracted to a persons vibe than their body
>>43266193lol, people who are androphilic aren't just attracted to one body type why do you think cis women call timothee chalamet hot? it's because they actually like men and not just a vessel of masculinity that makes them 'feel like a woman'
>>43266222>"strong muscular male bodies are hot lol as well as soft female bodies"tell me where in this sentence they say they are only attracted to this particular male body type kekblanchards greatest soldiers over here lmaoooo
>>43266209>>43266237i guessed>i like all male bodies but i would never EVER date a cis guy that doesn't fulfill my meta attraction i have never heard of a bi trans woman dating anyone but women and extremely masculine menalso call me schizo, but no one says something they believe followed by 'lol'
>>43266258yeah thats pretty schizo i wont lie "lol">i have never heard of a bi trans woman dating anyone but women and extremely masculine menwhipping out a lot of anecdotes in this thread huhalso im the OP lmao I dont know what I was expecting but this turned into a whole ass AGP derail threadpretty funny kek
>>43266258my ex bf wasn't hyper masculinehe was just a slim kinda soft guy actually
>>43266258my ex bf wasn't hyper masculinehe is just a slim, introverted, kinda soft guy
>>43266299'kinda'so were you attracted to him for him or because he made you feel more feminine?
>>43266299sooo did you actually like him for him or just because you felt more feminine by being wanted by a man?
>>43266371jesus this framing is unbearableeverytime someone says anything to you you get all suspicious and act as if their innocuous statement is something elsethe blanchardian defenders on this thread have made great use of mind reading(you said x but actually mean y!!!), sweeping generalizations, strawmanning, and irrelevant personal anecdotes to build their case here>'kinda'>so were you attracted to him for him or because he made you feel more feminine?picking apart peoples sentences like this only makes you sound like a dweeb whos clearly looking for something that isn't there maybe accept that you can't generalize an entire group of people and are wrong about some things? Old man Blanchard would be embarrassed by such weak argumentation."lol"
>>43266371I was genuenly in love with himbut it didn't worked out because there were a lot of shit happening in my life