>be me>21 yo tgirlMy first sexual experience was getting raped by some random guy on grindr. I hated it and spent the night crying in the showerHow come after that I became way more attracted to men???
>>43266360That's disgusting, I hate humanity
>>43266360Story time.What did you think you were gonna do on that Grindr meet?
>>43266360So, rape ends in two ways. If it was your first sexual experience, you become hypersexual. If it wasn't your first, you generally become frigid and avoidant.
>>43266471I was raped the first time I had sex (I was a child/teen) and I am frigid and avoidant.
>>43266463It was supposed to be a meetup to see if we meshed well to do something in the future. I made my boundaries very clear and they said they'd respect that. They seemed nice at first and we went to their apartment to play Mario kart and break the ice.They infact did not respect my boundaries. Mario kart turned into them forcing themselves on me and pushing me down on the couch we were on. I kept telling them no and to stop they would just sush me and tell me things like "don't worry ill be gentle" and "you're the prettiest person that I've had in my apartment"I think I was also crying during it but I kind of blocked out most of what happened
>>43266382>whore does whore things>waaaahh i hate humans >:(
>>43266463It was supposed to be a meetup to see if we meshed well together and if so then we could maybe do stuff in the future. I made my boundaries very clear and they reassured me I'd be okay. They seemed nice at first when messaging them and I went to their apartment to play Mario kart and break the ice.Eventually after not long at all (maybe 2-3 races) he started forcing himself on me and pushing me down on the couch we were on. I kept telling him no and to stop but he'd keep sushing me and saying things like "don't worry I'm gentle" and "you're the prettiest person I've ever had at my apartment"I think I was crying the whole time but I don't remember much of it since I tried blocking most of it out of my head
me too, were you also 13 and thought it would be fun ;-;
Only fuck the site was lagging and I had to retype that shit twice only for it to make a reply every time I tried posting ;~;
>>43266595Alright that sounds like rape I'm sorry that happened to you
>>43266360your brain is trying to cope with trauma by making men sexier, idk if that makes sense
>>43266668I'm sorry about what happened but you should get bullied for what you just did, that's really embarrassing.
>>43266965It's true I just made the same post 3 times. Please bully me
>>43267008you honestly do deserve to get bullied, it's really shameful.
>>43266595Did you report him to the police cuz it's literally rape damn.
>>43267100No I really should have, I was extremely embarrassed and ashamed for even going to his apartment. I just deleted my grindr account and tried to forget it even happenedIn retrospect this was stupid but this happened around 10 months ago and at this point I don't remember his name or where his apartment was exactly anymore
>>43267249We all were once young and stupid. The only one who should be ashamed of their actions is that guy.You should be a little nicer to yourself anon. Hope you get over it soon.
>>43266628Does using grindr once just automatically make you a whore? :c
>>43267249It's been said before but I'm sorry that's happened to you. I hope you find someone who you can love and feel safe with long-term. I'd give you a big hug if I could, nona.
I'm already weak and so much smaller. That's my biggest fear. That some asshole will take me and I can't stop it.
Thanks anons and nonas for being surprisingly kind <3 I've never told anyone that story and it felt nice to get off my chest
>>43268167Not really. I used it a few times after coming out and just had the most average hookup experiences. Guy says he's straight so he tells me to look as fem as possible, ends up sucking my dick. Went through about 3 guys and then I met my partner of 2+ years (also mtf)
>>43268465I'm glad we were of some comfort. It's a heavy thing to share and a horrible thing to endure. Wish you the best girl.>>43268507I've only ever used it twice, got messaged by some frizzy-haired guy asking where I wanna meet up and deleted it because I'm a big pussy. Downloaded it later and talked to some trans girl for 2 hours about books and then hooked up at a convention months later.
>>43266595giwtwm
