I will never do anything of worth with my life and thus i've made the pragmatic choice to kill myself.Not even about hrt or not hrt. I don't work towards anything. I have no plans, goals or dreams. Ten years from now i will be the exact same person i am now.I will never be good at anything, will never develop a hobby or a passion, will never have friends and will never be of use to others.There's absolutely
>>43270395just do whatever you want insteadGo see a movie and then cruise on the freeway and get an ice cream, then learn how to blacksmith custom knives in your garage while you catch butterflies and paint their designs in watercolor
>>43270429I dont want to do anything.I guess maybe jerk off and nap but why even bother.
>>43270429This is another thing.i dont eve have a real hobby or passions or Im not gonna watch a movie or cruise or get ice creamI'll eat stale bread and replay factorio again with slop.in the background.Not gonna blacksmith anything.I'll do things that are equivalent to watching paint dry
>>43270437You could always go to a psych and try some antidepressants, maybe one would work for you
>>43270457Our psych wards are outdated and you get lithium.and mercury injections as soon as you appear.That would.only push me towards suicide because i'd get unironic measureable chemical brain damage
>>43270501I mean an out patient psychologist, silly. Don't go to a psych ward. They have never prescribed me lithium OR mercury, just stuff like Trintellix.
>>43270536They do in my country. They hadnt gotten any funding since the 80s nor was there ever an update to the procedure
>>43270437Constant internet use, porn (if it applies) and/or video games have burnt out your ability to feel any pleasure. Removing all of those will feel like hell at first, but the less you use of all of those things, the more other things will feel enjoyable again. You don't have hobbies or want to develop skills because you're dopamine receptors are conditioned to want an immediate fix. Common problem in today's society. The problem is that the withdrawal stage can feel scary and hard, but it def can be done.
