I have ideas but I want opinions from the professionals. for disclosure I'm cis, 30, 6'2 and 240 lbs. I do look rather mean, permanent rbf. Every transgirl ive hooked up with has had some form of sadomasochism or other abuse fetish. I can't complain as I do love impact play but when I see the sh scars on the inner thighs I just wanna stop and hold them tight.
I was persistently abused as a child and now my ability to form bonds is contingent on replicating that dynamic.
I don't have any scars but I do want to be hit
I just get crazy dopamine rushes from it and it feels good in my head and body, plus I feel wanted loved and like I belong to them and that makes it hit harder.No reason, no abuse, no self harm scars, it just does that to me
>>43272609i feel like i deserve to get beat up but i haven't managed to find a man who wants to beat me up
>>43272623Troubling to hear. Sorry that you've had to go through that, I hope this coping mechanism slowly fades.>>43272667>>43272689I see.>>43272805Okay. But why do you feel like you need to be beaten, thats what im asking.
>>43272609>cis, 30, 6'2 and 240 lbsdo you look like this with hands that look like that?and if so can you choke me and spit on me?(I didn't read the rest of the post)
>>43272609i dont know, i never really suffered any bad trauma growing up but i have still become someone who self harms a lot and likes the idea of being abusedi guess just hating myself like this my entire life has rewired my brain in some way
>>43273209Weren't you just posting that youre a top yesterday
>>43273209No. Im fat with some bicep muscle and huge calves. I could probably split your head if I scythe hard enough. Now answer my question.
>>43273403uhhhhhhhhhhh>>43273437uhhhh my mom didn't want me and treated me as a burden my whole life while another sibling got to live happilydo you have a hairy chest?
>>43273456Thank you. I can kind of relate, im alienated from my family for beating up an alcoholic who ran his mouth too much. Id say im hairy but mostly arms and legs. I do have a nice treasure trail.
