i never posted here before, but i don't have any friends or anyone to talk to so i might as well do it here. ever since i became i became a teenager i've hated my body, i cant look at the mirror without wanting to puke, i just feel too disgustingly ugly to exist, i just cant keep living like this, i cant keep beeing a man. every single day i consider getting into hrt and transitioning, but in the end i always snap back and realise that it wouldn't work, it's to late for it to have any significant changes on me, i'd just get disowned by my family and kicked out of the house just to end up looking like a man in a wig, i will never be a real woman. i just can't keep going anymore, im planing on killing myself next thursday by jumping out of a abandoned building near my house, i might post a photo of it here when the time comes, goodbye
I meanwhy not just transition then?your options according to you are a) commit suib) transition and have a terrible time(but presumably cure some of your dysphoria which is making you want to kill yourself)just get on hrt nona unless youre like 40(which I know youre not bc of how you type) it will at least help a bitidk, maybe youll turn out better than you thought:3 dont kys nona as cliche as it is things do eventually get better, even a bit, if you keep at it(I was seriously suicidal like 2 weeks ago for example and snapped out of it and am very happy I did)love ya!
>>43285347find someone like you (me) who will support you and take E and transition.. there is still a way..
>>43285347so why not transition? why not try hrt? if it works then you get to actually live life, and if it doesn’t work then what’s the harm? you weren’t going to do anything with that life anyway, at least by starting hrt you can say you tried
>>43285347im kinda similar, im maybe not even a trans woman i just hate looking so masculine and i am slowly realizing that im not a cute teenager anymore. i think im even more upset about not being able to be a femboy than i am about not being able to be a woman. like i dont think i ever would have naturally ended up "transitioning" if this board didnt convince me that it might be possible but the closest i naturally came by my own choice was once when i was looking at pics of Satoshi from higurashi and i just started losing my shit and decided to finally stop hiding behind facial hair because i hated how i looked without it. i was on hrt shortly and actually looked passable i think but it made me start having weird dreams and i woke up hallucinating/having psychedelic visuals and started getting bad luck whenever i wanted to do my injection so i just stopped, and i also ended up throwing the vial out during a small ocd episode. dont kill yourself, maybe there's a way you can rearrange the circumstances you have now into something nice in my experience when i wanted to kill myself the most, the things i did to try to get through that time didnt feel amazing at the time, but as time passed those things "bloomed" into beautiful sources of comfort later on. you can't always "feel" things until they become a memory. im not doing good right now and i am really mentally ill and my mental illness even "alters" my reality (by making me notice how much random things cause bad luck so i cant do lots of things i enjoy) so its hard to give good advice. but i want you to feel better. i don't think i can transition and i might end up john 50'ing if i ever try again but i'm trying to be "resourceful" and do what i can with the things that i still have. if you want to talk maybe we can, my discord is snow.firefly
Learn to love and accept yourself, just the way you are
troon out faggot
>>43285423Do you live in France by any chance ?
