This is my first post here sorry if it sucks >be me 6 years old>older brother forces me to watch porn. Holds me down and makes me watch it. >makes me do weird things with him naked>Soon after this i start exploring porn>find trans porn. Start to watch it all the time and emulate what happens to woman in the video to myself. >eventually the sexual stuff stops but brother still beats me up all the time>tells me im not manly enough>I stop watching porn>ffw to high school I take his advice, get into football and sports play on the football team my freshman year>become friends with the popular guys in high school>still the weird outcast of the group. Dont get invited to most parties. Only there cause a few of the guys like me>start watching porn again but this time like a normal straight guy>all of high school depressed, dream about how my life would be so much better as a woman>plan to move out and explore the idea of being trans after graduation>covid happens >work construction and live at home for 4 years>grow a beard>spend all my life savings on trip to Europe and troon out while im there>come back and start hrt a year later>still hate my life biggest regret will always be not starting sooner >but happier than ive ever been>2 years hrt now and honestly im clocky but kinda pass when I try hardAm I faketrans and this is just a fetish? Is my brother a repper? I literally had enough money for ffs and i spent it on a trip to Europe where I just was a scary looking non hrt hon for 3 months.
>>43292033i don't think there is a "faketrans". i also don't think it's a "fetish" because you were exposed to those things by force. I'm sorry that all of those things happened to you. i was also a scary looking non hrt hon a few months ago when my brain was really fucked up from lots of ongoing severe trauma and problems and my hair is short so i basically looked like a crazy gay guy in makeup. i think a lot of stuff that we (humans) do is motivated by multiple factors that are difficult to explain without carefully and thoroughly examining the circumstances involved.
yes you are faketrans, yes this is just a fetish. no, your brother is a rapist
>>43292254>>43292254Im still gonna keep transitioning idc if its a fetish im finally happy
