Were you more feminine than the other boys you grew up with?
>>43307141Yes, though only during early childhood. Like I had a friend who started hating me specifically because I was too effeminate for her and she wanted to hang out with more masculine boys. I was like, 4. It was weird. After puberty I masculinized a lot in terms of behavior but still had a fagcent and a few close confidants could tell something was up. Even had my boyfriend clock me as a closeted tranny (and he psyoped me out of starting HRT at 17).
I grew up with and among girls primarily.And until age ~14 I was confused for a girl physically, behaviorally and over the phone.
>>43307141yes i was only able to make friends with girls as a result
>>43307141No, not at all, why do you ask?
>>43307141A little bit until puberty hit. Then they became masculine and I didn't.
I was than i adapted
yes totally, i've got beaten up in the past for being a effeminate fag, so trutrans ig
>>43307141i was a chad but got tired of mogging
I was just autistic and couldn't make friends.
>>4330714190% of my friends were girls growing up i couldn't stand to be around men or boys
As much as I could be without upsetting the social mores, which required keeping my distance a lot when my facade slipped. Ironically my first friend I distanced myself from because I thought she played too roughly more like a boy instead of her questioning my femininity which became the norm later.
yep.. i was the shortest boy in my class and not interested in sports or anything so i mainly played with the girls until around 12/13 when i started making guy friends, and even then i was the ‘easily offended’ one who always was the target of gay jokes.. but now ive come full circle again cause most of my friends are girls again
>>43307141Kids told me I was girly, then had to explain why that was bad actually. didn't land, still repped most my life fmstl. still miss my waist length blond hair, stupid nordic deformities
i cant tell if that was actually the case or if people liked to pretend it was because my extreme reactions were hilarious
>>43307141not really? i was unmanly and didn't like sports but i didn't have girly interests. my body language however was very gay and i had some very faggy interactions. one time while i was in class, must've been 13-14, i was looking at another boy across the room who rarely showed up. he looked back at me, i leaned back, he leaned back, and then we just smiled at each other for 40 seconds or so with our heads resting on our palms . i didn't even like the guy and i don't know why either of us did that. it's the gayest thing i've ever done.
>>43307141Yep, I over corrected it and am now a shell of a person. I want my happy, bubbly personality back
>>43307141Detrimentally so, and then I drank to cope
>>43307141Physically no. I did have effeminate hobbies but they didnt stick out much. I liked theater as a kid up to highschool, I did ballet/choreographed dance in k-5. I'm a bit of a crybaby even now, I'm emotionally dysregulated. I had a boyfriend at 23, got dumped at 27. I am a cis man, ftr.
>>43307141yea, i was like the most obvious fag ever even when i was trying to be str8 lmao
>>43307141Halloween Party>be me, 11th grade, self aware I'm a repper, straightedge >never dress up for Halloween >friend group (guys and girls) throw a Halloween party with beer, weed, w.e>everyone drunk and dressed up, I'm playing pool and just hanging out>bantering with friends cause I'm winning>hit a shot across the table at a super weird angle>friend of friend (John) dressed as an Egyptian says: "wow anon you have such a girly, faggy body so bending over the table must be natural for you">friend just laughs, "yeah anon is basically just a girl, his face is girly and his hair is emo as fuck">"fuck off, you guys are fags">later on John offers me weed, get peer pressured by the group and take a ton of hits in a row because I'm nervous and never smoked before>insanely blasted, friends gf comes up and puts her cat ear headband on my head and does eyeliner + cat whiskers etc>too high to care and John and I are just talking about League of Legends>I realize he's staring at me like prey, his eyes keep drifting to my lips and he's really close>start eyeing his arms and abs, he's just barely taller than me but he's SO much bulkier. Im 110 lbs and hes probably 170 of muscle>I start leaning on his shoulder, most people are passed out or leaving>he whispers in my ear sending tingles all over me, "do you want to go somewhere else?"Dont want to derail thread, but I can finish the story if anyone wants
>>43315233begging u to continue
>>43307141i crossdressed frequently (including at school) from 4-10, then less frequently from 10-20 due to shame, in sexual situations.i always felt that i was more mindful than male peers
>>43315233please please please I need my fagslop
>>43315233>we move to the game room / guest bedroom, its packed with 4 computers (mine included) and a bed>I'm still blasted and a lightweight so I clumsily try to navigate the room and almost fall over a tower>his hand grabs my waist of behind and holds me up>guides me to the bed and sits me down while looking down at me, his crotch is right in front of me>"thanks... you're really nice" as I try to avoid staring at his bulge which is super obvious through the thin material>I'm flustered and he's just smiling down at me>"Anon, you're so cute when you're not trying to act tough">start getting horny, think to myself "oh my god I'm a fag, its not just 2d">he sits next to me, I'm in a haze, just staring at him>suddenly realize I am touching his chest and abs>interrupted by his voice in my ear, "I let you touch me, so its only fair I can touch you">I feel extremely hot, almost like a fever, "ye-yeah, you can">I underestimated the difference in his hands and my own, his hands are rough and strong and the feeling on my waist and thighs is foreign enough to make me twitch>he starts leaning in, in my head I'm screaming "is this real, is this happening, how did this happen">he kisses me, softly but forcefully>all i can do is surrender, and it feels so good, my underwear is soaked and its showing up on my jeans even>his hands brush my nipple and I yelp>he pulls back, "you really are like a girl, are your nipples sensitive?">"I... play with th-them everyday">he gives me the biggest smuggest grin and gently brushes over them again>this time i moan softly, and i finally look down and notice that he's hard>impulsively i start softly caressing it and he breaths deeply in my ear while kissing my neck, again i yelp
>>43315508NVM it's larp
>>43315508>"good girl, I like hearing the cute noises you make">this makes my mind go blank and he starts kissing my lips and keeps teasing my nipples>I pull down his pants, and it literally pops out and hits my thigh leaving a long trail of precum >I'm panting as he keeps kissing my neck and teasing me, I'm pretty sure I came here just from stimulation and I could already cum from my nipples>he gives me me some breathing room>I finally get a good look at his dick, its pretty average but thick >I feel hypnotized, but its my first time so I'm awkward, I just try to imitate the hentais I've read>start kissing the side while rubbing his inner thigh>he moans and i get more confident, start running my mouth up the side getting it wet, his precum is salty but in my daze I thought it was amazing>finally put it in my mouth>"good girl, you're doing so good", he says and places his hand on my head>I look up and he looks so content and handsome, I start targeting the glans and slowly increase my pace>he moans exceptionally loud, and i feel it pulsating and suddenly feel the warmth in my throat, I gag a little but hold it in>sit up and let it drip out of my mouth onto my chest>"wow, anon, you're so fucking hot" he says as he cleans up, then he takes a paper towel and cleans up my face and body since I'm zoned out on the bed>fall asleep with him holding me>next morning friends come to the room, door locked>he opens the door, friends ask what happened last night cause someone said they heard people fucking>"weird, yeah I dont know, anon and I just crashed in here" > I'm wearing the makeup still from yesterday but its smeared all over my face so they all look confused Eventually everyone forgets or moves on but I hooked up with him a few more times.
>>43315645Why do you think its larp? Its from Halloween 2013
>>43315773>"I... play with th-them everyday"
I was socialized as some freakish third thing because I was too faggy to be masculine but too autistic to be feminine
>>43307141I was short and cute so I got picked on a little bit and quickly developed "short guy syndrome" becoming a little more aggressive and short tempered than my peers.My repskills were pretty strong to the point in my 20s I literally had a friend tell me "anon you're so manly, nothing ever bothers you"
>>43315814I did, starting from 13 years old. Also the text itself is hard to convey because I was high as fuck and stumbling over words. It was my first time smoking weed and my first intimate experience with a man. Also, I've never wrote a greentext before so I dont know how to depict my slurring and stumbling over my words. I apologize for ruining my experience with poor writing.
>>43315978i think u did well enough nona. so jealous of that if real, i was always so masculine that even my high school bf never rlly wanted to fuck me. i hope u didnt keep repping after
>>43315824based freakmoder
>>43307141i started puberty at like 4 and had to be the big strong protective older brother or my dad would like kill me lol, until high school where i was basically just any other boy
>>43316030>i started puberty at like 4whaaaaaa-
>>43316011A tranny on r9k helped me find a source at 18 when I started college.
>>43315233>>43315508>>43315758they definitely knew!!!!!(๑˙˙๑)
>>43316011Also>never wanted to fuck meThats terrible... I hope you got someone better. Technically we never dated but we basically were doing everything. We'd skip class and get taco bell and stuff. Saw a few movies together. I never smoked again, but we still hooked up like 4-5 times. He liked femboys and trans women but ended up with a cis girl...
>>43316066>He liked femboys and trans women but ended up with a cis girl...every single time
>>43316046He reached out like 8 years after graduation when he found my new social media and told me he's not surprised. We fell out of contact for all of college
>>43316078Yeah... I got a little sad when I saw it. I saw him in the grocery store when I went home for the holidays once after I fully transitioned, but I was too afraid he would be grossed out so I didn't. (We grew up in Florida so everyone was pretty conservative in my group)
>>43316099awwww
>>43307141duh
>>43316066that's so cute, as much as i envy u that makes me happy<3 and glad to hear u didnt waste time after toothat relationship, and the rest of my childhood, were rlly my fault. ive been with someone now, but it took many years and we're ending things soon
>>43316136I'm sure everything will work out for you! why do you think it's your fault? You shouldn't blame yourself for just wanting affection Ive been in a relationship for the past 3 years and its been up and down.
>>43307141Not really. I had a friend who was a girl in 1st grade but then I moved away. At the next school, all the girls were narcs and I was a troublemaker so only the boys wanted to play with me. I didn't like sports, but my main thing was video games and computers so I fit in with the boys. I didn't have a lot of friends who are girls until I started hanging out in trans communities.
>>43313989this your femininity dies by way of scrodinger's cat
>>43316250i haven't treated either of my male partners well, past or present. and i was too afraid of femininity and nonconformity as a child and adolescent...i was masculine, cruel, a rule follower. i never did anything fun or took the necessary to save my body from what it is now, something that so so few men can ever love
>>43316508Im so sorry Nona, you should love yourself but I know how hard that can be. Just do your best everyday, I will support you in spirit. I know that things will get better for you <3I had internal damage when I was really young which delayed any growth I had for years on top of chronic GI issues. My 7 year younger brother outgrew me by the time he turned 13. I still deal with health issues related to it
when i went to preschool i tried playing with all the girls. i got to school late and the girls didn't like that a boy was trying to play with them so they scratched me and hit me and threw scissors at me. The teacher wouldn't do anything to help me because I was a boy and if girls were being mean to me I deserved it. I also got abused by my mom at home. Those feelings ended up turning into a deep mistrust and detachment from women, which made coping my my dyphoria way more difficult later on. People assumed I was gay throughout my whole life but not trans, so I guess I was noteworthy but not exceptionally feminine. I only ever really felt safe around men because theyre far less cruel to me and still sorta feel this way. It makes me feel faketrans because I'm so disconnected from female socialization but I really couldn't take it. Now that I'm deeper in transition I have to socialize with women obviously (i get put into the female conversation at gatherings, etc) and can understand all the female socialization stuff going on. Still prefer male friends though.
>>43316985Unironically, popular girls are the worst people you will ever meet. I also prefer my male friends, whenever I interact with women they just bash each other in secret or create drama. My guy friends dont give a fuck.
>>43316862sorry to hear that, i can't imagine...it must've been v hard for u as a child and teen. admirable to handle transition and college on top of thatand thank u for ur kind words, wishing u the same
>>43307141i was one of the two who were teased for being girly so i guess
>>43317038>Unironically, popular girls are the worst people you will ever meet. I also prefer my male friends, whenever I interact with women they just bash each other in secret or create drama. My guy friends dont give a fuck.yeah, unironically it feels like the only social environments that have genuine acceptance for lifestyles other than their own are mature males. Toxic masculinity has more or less been undone while toxic femininity hasnt and men are lovely while women are not.
>>43316496if you can suppress your femininity, you never had it
>>43319752its the other way around
