Im sorry to the bartender I was mean too, I feel extremely horrible for it.>Me>Go to a convention with cissiod friend>Cis friend doesn't know I'm trans so I went in boymode>Day goes by and there's a line for an after party>Wait in line>White dudes making fun of me and they thought I didn't notice>making fun of my hair>Mood ruined, confidence fucked, pissed off>Get into the party>Walk up to bartender as they greet me>In the rudest possible tone "DO YOU ACCEPT CASH?">They gone quiet for a second >They look nervous and like they did something wrong>Night even more fucked because now I feel like an asshole>Go home>Sad.This happened like 2 or 3 years ago and it makes me cringe every fucking time. on the off chance that bartender browses this board, I'm very fucking sorry dude. I shouldn't have talked to you with that tone, you didn't do anything wrong. I was just very upset for a multitude of reasons.
>>43322203You learnt a lesson: hons must self isolate and stay home. Please do not attempt such things again
>>43322238honestly, this has been my best course of action, so you're not wrong kinda. I just avoid people now cause they're mean and judgemental. I stay in my room and either draw, sleep, or browse this board. being alone fucking sucks but I don't want people to hurt me, and I don't want to cause them any pain either.
>>43322203Shame means you are better than the thing you are ashamed of Thinking about how bad this moment made you feel is a sign of growthReal shitheads never reflect on their shitty behavior
