I used to think it was weed that made me feel gay/trans (I was very very late onset AGP), and I very much enjoyed that feeling especially when faaping. But now I've been sober for 6 months and the trans feelings haven't gone away, and it's making me worried and a bit sad. In fact, they've been stronger this week for some reason and I've been drinking to cope with it (plus the insane boredom of my life) and my craving for weed has come back super hard all of a sudden. Does anyone else feel/engage with drugs this way? What should I do if I'm too old to trans out.
>>43331208just troon out faggot. you'd probably be happier if you did that.
>>43331233>I'm too old to trans out.Plus it all feel fetishistic and porn induced.
>>43331208Happened to me when I started taking speed + lsd daily and hasn't gotten better 2+ sober. It'll only get worse, you just have to get it overwith and troon out
>>43331250how old
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>>43331325oof
>>43331208>don't ever buy no weed from the gas station.i smoked that shit, woke up, my motherfucking cock don't belong to me. explain. what the fuck did you sell me. look at me bro i'm MOIDED.
>>43331334As I said, very very late onset.
>>43331208https://xhamster.com/videos/two-amazing-trans-having-fun-together-on-cam-xhZ6FHm
>>43331208reminder that hitsujigoods, the creator of "date a neet" is a camwhorehttps://xhamster.com/videos/tranny-on-tranny-amazing-69-session-xhjmqbGhttps://xhamster.com/videos/two-amazing-trans-having-fun-together-on-cam-xhZ6FHmhttps://es.xhamster.com/videos/trans-couple-pleasing-themselves-and-their-cam-fans-xhUA5SWhttps://es.xhamster.com/videos/two-slutty-shemales-having-a-hot-69-session-xh5iikEhitsujigoods personal instagram accounts:@minimini_konbini@american_konbini@digital_konbinihere it is your stupid shitty "kara" wich is nothing but a putrid self-insert of hitsujigoods. i attach a picture of her sharing cum mouth-to-mouth with his beloved ex. enjoy the goon, you tranny mongrels
>>43331208why does she have cow pattern zip ties on her belt
>>43331424holy fuck I was going to not jack off again today but god damm why did you have to post this
>>43331424Kind of ugly desu, but still kind of hot. Doesn't really have any relevancy to my thread though
>>43331428thats the bikini ties
>>43331325You are fine nona, would you rather be john 33 or john 50? I passed starting at 27 its no big deal. If you have a job that means you have a disposable income and can out-spend and out-effort the youngshits
>>43331621I had my first AGP feelings around 27, I should have done it then. But I'm 33 with no job so I think I'm fucked. I would need to be convinced to do it anyway.
>>43331325don't wait any longer
>>43331646>27 Not to be that chud but maybe this is actual weed psychosis you are dealing with? It's pretty rare to spontaneously develop AGP at 27.
>>43331646Do it anyway, sounds like you have nothing to lose from trying, and desu you can just hrt rep for a while and see if you like estrogen or not pretty consequence free
>>43331646how do you survive at 33 with no job
>>43331670It is pretty rare, though I've always been bisexual. But I've always felt like a bottom too, so IDK. I don't hate my dick or anything, but I have extremely strong feeling of wanting a vagina>>43331685Perhaps but it will be obvious if I start I think.>>43331712Being a leech off my family
>>43331746Why do you care if its obvious?
>>43331765Because it's fucking embarrassing for something I'm not even sure of.also i've started drinking now and beer sucks. i miss pot so much
>>43331818Anon you are better without the alcohol or the weed. Stop drinking tonight, sober up for tomorrow morning, then I want you to challenge yourself into getting on obtaining estrogen injection to trial for 2 months total. You will find out during that time if you feel better or not and can keep going or stop from there.
>>43331849What effects would I feel in 2 months that I would notice?
>>43331646What are you doing with your time? Genuinely if you want a fix to this, just getting offline, especially getting off of 4tran and doing anything distracting would help. Sounds a lot like ROGD and the weed just isn't helping.
>>43331981>What are you doing with your time?Absolutely nothing. Avoiding living as much as possible. >Sounds a lot like ROGD and the weed just isn't helping.It sounds like it but it's been around for a while now and quitting weed didn't help. I had been totally happy sober until a week or so ago and now I feel like relapsing.
>>43331208>I'd rather be an addict hopping from one dopamine stimulant to another until I finally find the right one that will completely fuck up my life instead of just taking my pillsConscious reppers are so strange
>>43332019uh yeah it's not going to go awayweed doesn't make you gayporn doesn't make you gaythis is a cope from people who don't want to be gay
>>43332122>porn doesn't make you gaydoubtful
>>43332096I'm not sure if I'm a repper or if I have some weird shit going on>>43332122I had no problem being bi (thought I've never actually had sex). The AGP is the new thing that fucks me up though. I want to get fucked in a pussy really bad.
>>43332133100% of men watch porn and 5% of men are gay
>>43332148>or if I have some weird shit going onWhat do you think being trans is dummy. It's some unusual shit that you have to figure out how to deal with in the healthiest way possible. Alot of people seem to do better after they do something about it that isn't just using drugs or alcohol and fetishizing it in a shame/desire loop until they wind up like Kristi Noems husband.
>>43332227I guess my hangup is that no one else seems to be like me. No one else has it come on this late, not the AGP stuff I've read, not the regular trans stuff I've read, nothing. No one doesn't even feel a tinge until they're in their late 20s. So wtf am I?
>>43332157>5% of men are gayIs that just the publicly announced stat?
>>43331424Reminder that you are fucking OBSESSED with posting this and need to be corrected by FAT COCK immediately
>>43332251Anon every human has an existence they have to come to terms with. For most people I guess their gender isn't something they have to think a whole lot about. But for some people they do. I think as you unpack your life and face your past as you get past addiction you'll remember more signs. I said the same shit "but this came from nowhere" "I never had the classic signs" "I was always a little boy who never questioned it". Every single one of those lines I said out loud to a therapist who legitimately thought that trannyism is a mental illness. And you know what? As I continued to deal with my childhood trauma I remembered more and more things I blew off as nothing and remembered instances that contradicted each one of those statements. My suggestion is to reject all labels. AGP, HSTS, transgender, transsexual, whatever it's all just a bunch of words other people came up with and other people thought sounded good too. Decide for yourself the way you want to live your life, and then do so, regardless of the labels and regardless of what others might think (within reason for safety/basic existence). Once I self defined, what I wanted to do became quite clear and easy. And I'm now much healthier and doing better on the other side
>>43332251If it's any consolation I'm the same age and having similar doubts. I'm tired of being wishy-washy and decided fuck it, I'll try hormones and if that doesn't change anything or feel right, I'll stop. Also one of my friends (same age as well) only came out socially in the past year, and she seems to be doing really well.
>>43332308I've talked to a therapist for over a year and barely talked about trans stuff. I mentioned my thoughts to him and he's absolutley not anti-trans but it's still not something that was pertinenet until the few days when it is. Also, I was literally offered horomones a few years ago when I had an onset and I rejected it. I had no childhood trauma that was related to this at all, there was no crossdressing and no anything. I have nothing in common with any other fucking tranny. >>43332334I just hate the idea of being an old, ugly fucking tranny. Every time I see one it fills me with disgust. I'm fucking balding for god's sake, it doesn't fulfill my sexual feelings at all, it ruins it. It fills me with disgust.
>>43332386>I just hate the idea of being an old, ugly fucking trannyOh yeah I have no plans to present as a woman or tell anyone about it, that friends I mentioned maybe being the exception. I'm pretty sure I'll never pass. Who knows, my mind may change later, like I said I'm tired of agonizing over it.
>>43332435That just feels like it would cause me more agony desu. I want to be hot. I want to be attractive. I want to be the gooner porn stars I see. I am just a pathetic coomer and it's ruining me and making me do stupid shit like this whole fucking thread. But obviously it's not just that. I don't know man, I'm fucking insane
>>43332386>I just hate the idea of being an old, ugly fucking tranny. Every time I see one it fills me with disgust. I'm fucking balding for god's sakehow much balding? what do you look like now?
>>43332474Just a friar's patch. I look.... fine I can sort of cover it up. Bad skin though, very very bad in unfixable ways
>>43331424giwtwm
>>43331424I just got around to watching these now and god I hate their stupid dopey man faces. It's so repulsive, it turns me off the idea of transing completely even if I'm miserable I could never look like that
Hi I'm so sorry for all of this. I'm not trans because the idea of being anything short of a 10/10 perfect porn star completely obliterates any desire to be a woman. It's purely an AGP paraphilia about porn. I feel that longing in my crotch area when horny but nothing more, so I think it's something else. It's like a physical dysphoria but it's not that, since it's not attached to any actual gender dysphoria. IDK, I'm sorry I'm not sure why I'm bumping this.
>>43331621>I passed starting at 27 so it's no big dealWe need to save future generations by ensuring that children under the age of 45 are not allowed anywhere near destructive, experimental sex hormones. Your brain hasn't formed yet and it is clear that it damages your empathy.
