i feel a little young to early in life and transition to already be feeling this way but lately ive been feeling like I want to just like..grow out of everything. When I graduate in three weeks, I will leave all of this childishness behind, as I left my boyself behind back in high school. I feel so tired of the self hating. the self loathing. the self deprecation. All of the negative self-talk, all of the “im a boy” shit, all of the never gonna make it shit.whats the point? who does it help? it hurts me, obviously, but if anything its helping the people I hate. All of the “i’m a boy” shit just works to appease weird pedophilic chasers who exclusivly browse the internet with their dick in their hand. . its stupid and im tired of it. why do they matter? I just want to be a girl. No, I want to be a woman. A real woman who is beautiful and successful.Successful. I don’t really know what word means. But I know what I want. I want to make artwork and I want to be known for it. i want people to see it. I want to make good shit that means something and is important. I want it to be important. I want to see friends, have fun, go places, eat good food. Feel good, without drugs or alcohol. make connections with other humans, face to face. I know JOB is coming. That will change a lot. My priorities, however, will remain. I will have less time, but I will make time. I can handle it. It will change me. I'll do what I can. But I will continue to grow.I do not wish for an easier life, I wish to be a stronger girl.
>>43337439Raise your head high and bear the brunt of the world
>>43337452thank you. i intend to. ive been doing this my whole life and i have no reason to stop, ever. I want to be ready for what's coming
