Even if I get my dream body I will never have a fully functioning penis. why live. I'm short and autistic, it's hard to keep friends or date. I wish I was born male. I don't even think it's worth it anymore. In the end I'll always wish I was born as I should have been. My best hope is to shove it all deep down and live life as an average woman, because at least that's attainable, not dreaming of something impossible that would lead most to want to die.Sometimes I think I have mental illness that makes me want to be this way. Why do I want to be born male? Why can't female be enough? Why wasn't makeup enough? Why wasn't forgetting about it over and over and over enough? Why does it always come back?There is something possessing me that makes me compare myself to the average male, to wish I had what he had, to know I will never quite be there, no matter how well I pass. It creates depression. It won't be enough until I look undeniably male. I hate it.
>>43341038Ok fakeboy, you should let your motherly instincts take over
>>43341038i'm going to drink beer
Hit that T already bro. Phalloplasty is leagues behind vaginaplasty sure, because amab are prioritized, but let's give it a few more years maybe they'll develop it more. In the meantime get those nasty organs out and everything.
>>43341063what response do you want from this, what sort of reaction do you want to provoke in me? what emotion did my post evoke in you to say this. everyone always has something to say about it. it is exhausting.
>>43341106i have to wait on my DIY to get in the mail and it's making me depressed i think. thanks for the encouragement.
>>43341107Don't give them the time of day. They're just mad they won't ever be able to pass/look feminine so are lashing out at you, cause you're upset at your own perceived femininity.
>>43341038Spend your money and time in the trans community adjacent to the medical community. Your life will become a reason for scientists to develop medical procedures that will achieve your bodily goals.
>>43341107Just have kids bro that will fix things
You'll be okay princess
>>43341038maybe if you compare yourself to men and realise women don't give a fuck about you you'll go full circle and go mtf lolat least t does anything I'll forever be the same estrogen does nothing and I don't get a vagina eitherI'm just poking fun. >>43341106>because amab are prioritizeddo we think this is why? i haven't checked but- there are more mtf, moving and removing tissue Vs adding tissue , add penis surgery just seems harder >>43341123>They're just mad they won't ever be able to pass/look feminine＼(^o^)/ they are talking about me!!! (▽)
>>43341174this but unironically
>>43341167The Beta tester
>>43341219beater
>>43341196we can both get the parts without key components for fulfilment and happiness if we moneymaxx. i like your emoticons lol. you probably look more feminine than you think. it's a common feat of people here, thinking they look nothing like how they want to while also holding decent traits.
>>43341038tldr past the first sentence but thats the whole reason i'm a femrepper. i really truly wish you the best though and i hope you find happiness and peace, brother.
>>43341185i thought this was bitchwhinecentral. ik i will but i just like to bitch and whine lol. things will be fine once my stuff gets in the mail. i just have no approximation on shipping and have had to wait for weeks. i feel like my hips are growing by the day. bleh
>>43341249The whole reason I feel like this is because I'm not on HRT. I felt this same depression while femrepping. I feel it now a few weeks off hormones without knowing when they will come in the mail. It makes me zone out. Wishing you the best. Hoping U can make the most out of whatever you do.
>>43341242I don't have the male drive required for moneymaxx and yes I'm using hyperbole , I'm not hideous or anything but I'll never pass probably and my healthy habits doesn't help. picrelhttps://unsee cc/album#nIvU7cx8kVfptoo bad I'm too scared to post face
>>43341038You sound like a girl
I know it is quite tiny but metoidioplasty is quite close to a functioning penis as the clitoris, especially when enlarged by T is homologous to the penis. You have erectile function, with the skenes gland you can cum, you can pee standing up as well. For shortness and autism, there ain't much I can give for advice other than work out I guess. I'm 5'6 so it isn't like I do not understand the struggle, but I personally don't get worked up about it too much other than thinking how great it would be to be tall or even just average. Also, >Sometimes I think I have mental illness that makes me want to be this way.Yeah. Its Gender Dysphoria.
>>43341282arms looking good tho bro
>>43341219Everything has a lineage, ancestors walk so descendants can run, but with the way technology advances so quickly in this age, it may be that those beta testers will see a finished product for themselves one day.
>>43341282Tomboymaxx lmao, and tell others that you are a cis man on E
>>43341310>broer actually
>>43341316The lab rats are gonna be euthanized lmao. It is hard enough to repurpose dick tissue for a vagina, and now you wanna make a dick out of vagina parts? Make it make senseYou can't conjure tissue from thin air
>>43341349yeah this is the main hangupwith mtf srs they can use tissue from other parts of the body for the actual inside of the vagina because they just need to create a tubefor ftm srs, there's nowhere in the body they can get erectile tissue from, so they have to use implants in order for it to achieve "erection"
>>43341242assuming it was you>you're imagining things!>you look like a real boy!yes I do that's the problem I'm mtf lol
>>43341196I'm so high rn but I think it's a like byproduct of this male dominated society we've come to produce. Mtf trans people are largely the ones being very openly bashed and denounced. Because it's "erm man in a dress!!" It's that this world has been cultivated to prioritize/cater to men moreso than the other. Them and their rights, needs, power, legacy etc have been paramount throughout history. It's a fact, especially now, that men who break from that sewn, absolute expectation of malehood- what men must do and be, are shunned. Targeted, ridiculed, if even in small ways. So a "man" whod detract so far as to say "he's" a woman. That's gonna be like the ultimate blow to those who religiously subscribe to said ideals. Their emotional outbursts at the idea aren't gonna be held back. Cont
>>43341424Despite this we know those people who smile with their eyes to affirm mtf and ftm alike. To say the least. I'm high, you know what I mean with this. Shake our hands with knives behind their backs. Being so Bae and so woke to be kind to a 'trans', and, subconsciously or not, have in their heads that we still aren't what we say we are. Never will be. Still viewed as men and women, women and men. And men are men after all. Largest, most bitter and near global subjugation would warrant this, to be kinda fair. Mtf are more visable so I guess it'd make sense their medical needs would be most advanced, studied. They're more important..?
>>43341462You don't even need to scroll on this board, to understand what is in place of what i was going to explain. Ftm aren't even viewed as ftm. They're poor and confused and victims and in a phase etc etc. As history has done as far back as is recorded, are reduced. So, naturally if one would be so unladylike, the medical science and care are going to be not nearly as progressed. Perhaps
>>43341196But yeah I gashing a hole does sound easier than sewing a rod too
>>43341462this is why i'm moving and going stealth asap. you get it. this has happened to me a lot.
>>43341290U inspire me. thanks.
it’s crazy how literally every pooner wants more than anything to be mtf
>>43341038Ftm > cism You got the best outcome, you just don't know it yet
>>43341038Hey man I don't know shit about fuck but it sounds like you might have OCD, might be something worth looking into it can be managed pretty well with therapy and meds
>>43341038>Sometimes I think I have mental illness that makes me want to be this way. Why do I want to be born male? Why can't female be enough? Why wasn't makeup enough? Why wasn't forgetting about it over and over and over enough? Why does it always come back?uh, that's called gender dysphoria
I saw a big fucking guy with a gravelly voice while I was walking between classes. He was obviously a republican. It disgusted me. Do you want to be like that? I'm trying to escape the rapist sex
>>43341665i've looked into it but i don't meet the criteria i guess. what about this sounds OCD?
>>43341580i wish i was born male, like transsexualism. it's crazy how every hon wans more than anything to be ftm. u see how retarded that sounds lol
>>43341806yes i am a severely dysphoric transsexual. the mind can be fixed, but the body remains the same.
>>43341634name one way this is true. one.
>>43341950doooodddddd u haven't thought of the ushy gushy boipusserino and the le heckin AFAB empathetic socialization that makes birds follow her- i mean him :/ when she walks. it's super manly if you think about it, heh, women with vaginas not caring about how anyone thinks about them. so cool dood. FTMs are just a different breed compared to disgusting cis men.
>>43341905The last paragraph of your post sounds very indicative of OCD to me personally (as someone who has it) OCD is just recurring thoughts that cause you distress and compell you to do something. For my 2 cents it sounds like you have all or nothing type obsessive thoughts about your gender that cause you distress. The compulsion part can be really complicated but maladaptive coping mechanisms like negative self talk or putting yourself down immediately after those thoughts is definitely OCD behavior.
>>43341038If you were born male you would be an incel and still hate yourself
>>43342042sometimes I wonder if it is OCD, but I can't tell if it's one way or another, if the OCD is causing me to be transgender, or if it is the OCD making me worried I am not transgender. Complicated. Thanks for sharing
>>43342081Yeah for sure no problem, if you have a therapist I'd def bring it up again, regardless of what they say it's probably a good idea to talk about radical acceptance as well it's a real game changer if you're having a hard time accepting things in general. Best of luck!
>>43342056that's just you projecting i would be friends with my brother's friends and talk about videogames and bullshit together and i wouldn't be some schizo 4tranner
>>43341385>>43341349Do not presume to know everything about what is medically possible. Lab grown organs and genetic manipulation technology is in its infancy. Science makes a habit of begetting what past generations called impossible.
>>43341580TRVKE
>amab are prioritizedYou fucking retard it's much easier to cut a hole into someone than create an entire flesh appendage
>>43342363well, yeah. i wasnt "presuming to know everything." i said the lack of erectile tissue is the hangup and why ftm srs options are pretty lackluster right now. i really hope stem cell work gets to the point in my lifetime where they're lab growing erectile tissue for ftm srs, but it's certainly not there yet, especially since once it's medically possible it takes time to trickle down from experimental to the general populace.
>>43341038>There is something possessing me that makes me compare myself to the average male, to wish I had what he hadDude just buy a cowboy outfit and go ride a horseYou will be better than 99.999% of average men
>>43341038You did this to yourself.I get messaged by a dozen different ftms on Taimi every weekEvery time without exception they look like short fat hairy blobs of grossness.The fact they don't even have a cock, just a hair puss filled hole ridden with sweat gunk and more hair is vomit inducing.I miss when ftms were just regular tomboys.If I wanted a hairy fat dude I'd need him with a veiny cock.You could have been a tomboy and been called a dude by us men, joining our gaming clubs and taking dick on the side. Instead you are just this ugly fat puss-filled swamp creature that will never be truly loved. I feel nothing sympathy for you.
>>43341806Why would you not want be be a republican big man, fat cock rapist who makes the weak submit to his will?
>>43342746nth post best post
>>43344383He’s a faggot mtf judeocrat nigger lover
>>43342171Cope. Being born a woman isn’t stopping you from hanging out with your brother and his friends.
>>43347251Nta that depends on the brother and the friends... Not everyone accepts every'thing'
>>43342766>seethe and schizofreniaLel
>>43342766pretty much this, every FTM i've met tends to fall under this category
>>43341288True but that's just incels in general. Cispoons have similar mental health crises and develop similar weird coping mechanisms to pooners. Look at case studies of men that didn't get diagnosed with hypogonadism until it was too late. wew lad
