Share your woes and I will lend an ear. We can share in each other’s pain and offer advice or help here. I miss having genuine connections with other trans people
>>43343494i am going to die soon
>>43343508why is that?
>>43343510i'm going to kill myself because i hate my life
Tonight I have a soul again. I just remembered how to feel one of my emotions and it feels really good. I think it's hope but I'm not sure. Sorta feels like a chakra in my heart opened
>>43343517I'm sorry to hear of your circumstances. You must be grieving a lot to come to that measure as a conclusion. Life has a way of being really hard and miserable on us. Is there anything others can do for you? There are people like me who don’t wish this fate upon anyone and just want to see our kind be at peace
First thing I imagined was the FromSoft youtuber that blowed up with Elden Ring frame data and lore breakdowns
>>43343528That sounds lovely! Sometimes emotions are what really makes us feel 'alive' and like there is a 'self' in this chaotic world. Hope is so important, you can’t tell her never lose it and I hope you can hold on to that feeling. Are you going to do anything with that newfound hope or feeling?>>43343537zullie? I like her bat oc
>>43343549*you can't ever lose it
>>43343549>That sounds lovely! It's pretty nice>Are you going to do anything with that newfound hope or feeling?Im going to become the prettiest tranny in the universe
>>43343533talking to other people helps me get my mind off of the pain sometimes, so you're doing something helpful for me right now. other than that no. my situation is unfixable and worsening constantly. death is frightening but it's the only option i have left
>>43343563Sometimes death does seem like the only solace we are afforded. Like finally getting to lie down and rest and be free of all of the pain that we go through. However, it is important to recognize that this can be something our brain makes us believe, simply because it is less effort than the mountain of difficult circumstances in front of us. Can you take it little by little? Just doing very small things, they will add up to be their own mountain someday. From my personal experience, it rains the hardest before you are blessed with a rainbow. Life has its way of making everything seem lost and once you push through… it does get better
>>43343494i'm about to take a comfy bath and then shave and epilate and then sleep a bit before work >~< i've been sleeping so much lately
>>43343494Hi Julie, I'm not sure if you're the Julie I know, but regardless of that, it's very nice to know that you're still around the place, even tho it's 4chan so it's not exactly the best desu, but anyways I hope you're doing fine and such things
>>43343494hi julie, I've been having second thoughts about starting hrt. Before it felt like i wanted nothing more than to change my body and i would agonize over the fact i was growing into a mans body but now that i have a long term (afab) partner Im not sure if i want to get on hrt anymore, i dont know if its because of how i was raised but i feel this need to be strong or manly for her or else im not safe? or she'll like someone else who is manly (even though she doesnt really like men) also i kind of don't want to lose my ability to use my dick :Phope your having a good day julie!
>>43343648I'm probably who you're thinking of, I don’t think there was another julie. Doing better than ever these days and I hope you are too! If not, what can I do for you to make it so? ;p>>43343625Freshly showered and smooth skin is the best. Really makes you feel reborn it’s so great
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>>43343717I typed out a lengthy reply earlier, but 4chan decided to just load infinitely and never post it fmlSo you say that you have had dysphoric symptoms before, is that no longer the case?>I feel this needs to be strong or manly for herMasculinity is performative, always earned and needs to constantly be reaffirmed. It is never inherent or biological like femininity. That is why you feel the need to prove it, because you are socially pressured to constantly reassert it. This has been researched scientifically.>else I'm not safeI urge you to go watch one of Vlad Nicola's videos (Natalia now?) where they dress up and get hit on by men. Even THEY are afraid and freeze up when a larger guy approaches them and terrifies them. You can never be masculine or strong enough to not be threatened or be fully safe.You can either keep performing this act or escape the hamster wheel by a)transitioning and/or b)being confident in your own masculinity without constantly reaffirming it with your actions. It is your decision.>I kind of don’t want to lose the ability to use my dickThat can be remedied with continuous use and/or topical testosterone application through gels or creams.Hope you are having a good day too and god please let this be posted this time!
>>43343494Very awful dysphoric day because my hips feel shitty and tiny
>>43344286Do you want to attempt to change them or would you rather try to be comfortable with them as they are?
>>43344292I want to change them.
>>43344401There are a couple of options. I'll rank them from easiest or fastest to most difficult or slowest.>hip pads / shapewear>styling / fashion>exercise (faking wider hips)>body recomposition / weight cyclingHonorable mention, either easiest or hardest depending on your finances:SurgeryHow long have you been on HRT?
>>433444452 years ish. Started at 25 because I made the decision to rep early in life. For me a big source of shitty feelings around my hips are like, femurs being too close together. I genuinely feel like I'll never be able to enjoy sex with my bf because of it. For pelvicplasty I know I'd want an iliac crest shave and that new widening procedure Leif Rogers is working on.
>>43344286I totally get that. My hips cause me so much distress and I cope in unhealthy ways to not hyper fixate on them.
