what does /lgbt/‘s inner world look like? how does the tiny, imaginative universe that you have created in your head work?
>>43348941>A night time lake of black water and trees above is a full moon and ever since I started dating my gf white lillies on the water>A rolling field of green grassy hills , bronze palaces with a blue schy and fluffy white clouds over head>A giant library reaching from a frozen plateau deep deep down. With a pillar in the middle I often Impale myself on>A strange glowing eye I touch the surface of and sink into>Nightmares about getting lost in an infinitely large school, mall or hotel>Darksouls 1 for some reason(I guess the world is structured in the shamanic lower upper mid world type journey)>Demons who I let kill and maim me because I don't want to be evil and violent>A monster who swallows me whole taking me to another worldJust the reccuring scenes. Jungian active imagination technique is insane.
>>43350494>Jungian active imagination technique is insane.pill me on this
When I try to sleep at night I imagine a space that's completely empty where I can create one thing at a time first i create myself than for some reason I always create a pool a small concrete pool with a little latter to go in I create the grass and the sky and before doing anything else i swim and feel weightlessness and pressureim not sure why i always gravitate towards thati think its cause i havnt gotten to swim since trooned out like 4-5 years agoi miss swimming i miss the water and i miss being able to enjoy summerthere is a lot more that happens after but idk it goes on and on i like to create friends who have different personalities and come into existence believing theyve known me for many years sometimes i image going on picnics or whatever bweh not so intresting but its really a perfect escape for me ive imagined that premise to fall asleep for years le sigh...
>>43351970>Choose a starting image, scene or charachter>Could be from a memorable dream ,something that just popped in your head, something you saw in media that resonated with u or if I have no idea just make up like a forest or something>Try and imagine it with as many senses as you can with your self in context with the image. So if a scene your in it, if a charachter your talking to them etc. Do this until it feels vivid and stable>When I have trouble concentrating I find it helps to narrate what I'm seeing sort of as if I was listening to a story>Then try to hold it stable while not controlling what happens maybye explore a little bit ask questions etc while remaining open to see what happens.>Keep doing this until it fades or if your the type who is really good at long daydreams set a timer and imagine an exit out>Draw journal or create something from what you experienced >Ponder it's meaning if your like that>Last 2 bits are optional perfectly possible to just do the beggining indulgently.TLDR you create a daydream that you don't control but engage with as yourself to explore your subconscious.
>>43352011nona I love swimming and water so bad :((( this make me so upset that you have not been able to swim in years I’m sorry :( fuck our stupid troon lives (stolen valor bc I’m a Manmoder)
A radio is stitting alone in some dark room crackling static. The noise covers some thought, some line spoken softly or loudly but you sit and wait for it to come back, to continue. Weather is nice today, clear skies, moderate temperature. I have to sweep today. if I use too many layers of obfuscation will the program become a cluster fuck. It will. I bet I could make a person in blender today. I'm such a fucking hack. Static. You wait.
>>43352057thank u nona swimming is amazing its not stolen valor im a manmoder too :p i hope u get many a pool trips in ur lifetime
>>43348941depends, what layer are we talking about?the daydream conversation exploration of social dynamics and concepts layer, where i expand my model of others and test my concepts under imagined conditions?the level 1 dream layer where rooms remain rooms as ive known them, and a self either disembodied or one i previously embodied walks them with or without my agency, sometimes encountering entities from the deeper layers on triggering of some contact?the level 2 layer where rooms are vaguely conceptual made from previous rooms, and i might inhabit the body of others, perhaps more demonic things?the level 3 layer, where space becomes purely conceptual, and i inhabit long corridoors and rooms that barely follow spacial logic suspended in a crushing pressurised black void with its own strange sense of consciousness?sometimes in my dreams im the agent. other times im subject to the agency of other entities. sometimes in my dreams im merely the observer of some other entity, maybe a previous self, going about their task. sometimes in my dreams, albeit very rarely, i gain possession of a deeper entity, usually before i ruin it in some capacity.
>>43348941everything has numbers and speculations about said numbers attached because god gave me both Tabletop Gamer Autism and Cosmere Autismalso i have super vivid mental imaging, i can like, turn an apple into a tesseract and shit it's so cool
>>43348941It’s like a children’s illustrated book where everyone in the town are friends or, the finale of code geass where everyone is stoked about world piece and everyone is super effete & sexy.
>>43352543i used to do this when i was very young, maybe agp but i called it girl world basically just my normal world but people were okay with and wanted me to be a woman( because it’s who i was ) I would spend hours in prek and elementary zoning out and fleshing out details. I don’t rly rmbr when it stopped
>>43353062i mean its a valid psychological explorationdid it give you anything?
>>43348941idk, it's nothing so concrete or intentional or easily condensed. i don't create rooms or have a "mind palace" or whatevermy daydreams are like long flowing movies of my fantasies, though tempered so as not to feel unattainable or pornographic or whatevermy night dreams are also like long flowing movies, except without the willful fantasy and a lot more haunting magical realist bullshit
