Is it possible to develop AGP out of extreme self-loathing? I've always hated myself, but my AGP developed very late in life compared to everyone else who talks about it.
>>43361156i had agp my entire lifemaybe you repressed memories
MaybeIt was probably always there, just dormant, until something activated itI wouldn't call myself AGP until recently but I probably had leanings in childhood and teen yearsIn my mid 20s I discovered faceapp and gender filters, that was my first proper introduction to the fetish, I buried it after a while thoughOnly in recent months I returned to it with LLM chatbots and such, I do believe it hits different now when I feel my life is worthless and going absolutely nowhere
>>43361207that happened to me too, the moment I got on hrt I was brain dead for a month and it was like my whole life was on repeat pointing out all the signs.
>>43361207I've considered it and there's maybe signs that I was just supremely ignorant as a teenager. I really didn't know "be the girl" was an option at all so I just never thought of it that way. But I was never ever girly so who knows.>>43361213My life is going nowhere either. I'm a bit nervous to try faceapp or anything like that. Maybe that's a bad sign.
>>43361229What were the signs you discovered?
>>43361156ye i did that in my 20s, then undeveloped it when i was less cucked
>>43361229same! so many memories that i had swept away and they all came flooding back
>>43365631What kind of memories?
>>43361156I'm almost 40, I get AGP when I'm at my lowest. I never had any AGP until I was in my 20s when weird negative shit happened in my life.There are no repressed memory or other bs, this is learned behavior that arises from environment, events and the interpretation of them.
>>43366951gay and queer ones
>>43361156I think this happened to mebut then I took e and developed reverse dysphoria and now I hate myself even more
do you only get agp at your lowest or also your highest?at my lowest i tended to feel pressure to man up to protect myself, prove myself, earn my keep, get back up and fight back.at highest i could finally be myself, nothing to prove, earned my keep, i won at life and could live for myself.masculinity feels cheaper, rugged, base, primal animalisticfemininity feels higher, ascended, sculpted of the heavens.maybe your agp is tangled up with mef? >>43367814
>>43369705NTA but generally at my lowest, pretty much for the reason you listed but inverted somewhatWhen I'm down I feel like I have given up on this reality, and I'm in need of ascending beyond this mortal plane, I feel more spiritualWhen I'm up, I feel good about living and I don't mind being a part of the world, I can keep going and fighting whatever I can to make things even better
>>43369772interesting, its inverted somewhat like you said but still femininity is more ethereal and masculinity more concrete for both of us
>>43369705My life is pretty consistently low but it's more or less an every day thing.
>>43361156If your sexuality randomly changes late in your development, get your psychology and hormones checked. It might be a problem other than lifelong gender dysphoria.
