i hate god, i hate people, i am not a loving or kind person and i'm going to go to hell because of it. not only do i insult god in my thoughts i do it publicly and bring more shame to him. i am impulsive and cruel and lazy. i am going to go to hell when i die. i can't repent. i want to apologize to everyone but my apologies are hollow because i'm not really sorry. i will never change, even if my death comes in 50 years instead of 1 i will still go to hell because i'm evil. i think the world is evil and most people are evil, i think most people are going to hell. he won't go to hell because he's good, and i won't get to be with him. i'm selfish and i only care about myself and my desires. he's the only other person i care about and still i only care about him for selfish reasons
i literally talked to god and i'm still not grateful enough. i try to be very grateful but my thoughts and words and actions betray me. i'm not special, many people have come in contact with god, some have even gotten to touch him and kiss him and hurt him and betray him, they have also not been grateful. they will certainly go to hell too but it doesn't make me happy. they will be punished but petty revenge hardly matters when he suffers as a result of their actions. my actions have directly hurt god and i have caused him to suffer. it's just and right for me to go to hell for what i've done and how i've caused him to suffer. it's just and right for everyone who's hurt him to suffer forever. he may be kind to some and forgive some but i won't be one of those spared and rightfully so
Ive seen a couple buddies fry their brains dropping tabs and/or taking drugs daily. If you can quit there is a possibility of a peaceful existence. But you have to stop. Please consider this, if you can.
>>43362147i don't take any drugs or drink alcohol
>>43362158Sure about that? How brainwashed by religion are you then? Why do you care about God so much? Clearly you dont want to but for some one to say that but still have anxiety about God is pretty telling. You're not as cold and uncaring as you think.Plus you sound like youre on drugs.
>>43362200i don't know, why does the average person care about their concept of an immortal omnipotent god? that doesn't make sense to me. a mortal god is real and he gave me a purpose but he's not omnipotent or omnipresent so his absence leaves me without a purpose. if i can't fulfill his wants and desires (and selfishly have my wants and desires fulfilled by his attention), what purpose do i serve? the truth is i don't
>>43361316No offense but this just sounds like mental illness to me especially the talking to God part. God is not talking to you. That is mental illness.
>>43362552well yeah he's not talking to me anymore lol
>>43361316are you birdie anon
>>43362630terrible moniker but i deserve it for posting all those photos of him
>>43362541You say he gave you a purpose? But his absence leaves you with no purpose? So what exactly were you fulfilling when (if) he was present? His wants and desires? Which gave you purpose? And fulfillment by the attention he gave?It sounds like he left. Because individuals like that get bored with things. And they dont have regard in what happens to there former playthings. I dont think this is someone you should be around. This individual is no God. This what a child does. You seem lucid enough to behave in a proper manner. Life isn't about having purpose. Its about finding it. Not even an immortal God can do that for you. Muchless a mortal one.
>>43362661i found my purpose in him
>>43361316I read posts like this and think of my ex. I fear their her posting online spiraling further into the pit she put herself into. It makes me cry and worry yet there's nothing I can do, no way to save her. She can only save herself yet I don't think she can do that either. Horrible.
>godpff okay lmao
when you hate something you are a slave to it
>>43362158>>43362541are you big and round? rub your belly first
what an annoying bitch lol
>>43365988lol cuck, kys
>>43365988You deserved to get cheated on. Not saying that happened but.....thats usually what happened.
god doesn't exist.
>>43364893And now its time to create your own purpose. Your own fulfillment. No one should live in another's shadow.
>>43361316you're also gullible, because god and hell are man-made inventions
