how does one reconcile the fact that they have been possessed, taken over, and have their trajectory of life forever ever being corrupted and marred by a succubus? is there a way out?
>>43370100Time machine for Option A.
you're not thinking schizo enoughhuman bodies require a soul to be vested into them. usually god creates the soul, but sometimes the soul of a demon is allowed to be born into a human body in order to attempt to redeem itself through christ. In hell there has been a anti-satanic faction in the circle of lust for a long time, and so increasingly more succubi have actually decided to become humans. As their penance for their crimes against god, they're born into the wrong bodies and tested to see if they will fall back into their seditious ways.I know all sorts of necromancy and shit that proves this stuff but nobody believes me anyways so who gaf
you should probably just accept it as soon as you canI'm stronger than mine though so I'm just keeping her locked up so I can live a normal happy life occasionally posting on /tttt/ etc
>>43370219>you should probably just accept it as soon as you can>I'm stronger than mine thoughthe hands that typed this:
>>43370100live in the momentthere is no such things as a 'trajectory of life'
>>43370273cant believe western culture is becominbg buddhist because the billionaires suck that much
>>43370219>I'm stronger than mine though so I'm just keeping her locked upyou're going to lose you knowshe's just letting you suffer in the meantime
>>43370280I'm becoming Buddhist because I've been abusing drugs for over a decade and struggle to make any friends at all due to my inherent weirdness
>>43370100My Mommy is a succubus and She loves me very much. She makes me put stuff in my butt and wear a chastity cage and diapers :3
>>43370100>do nothing>become old>realize youre too old to care about looks>move on>focus on family work etc
>>43370803>just uh be old and work a lot and then you'll be happy or something
>>43370811she has a point though. what else is there.
>>43370803What family? What work?I will never find a woman who'll love me in this society, I will never find a job that supports my needs and isn't completely soul-crushing in this economy
>>43370834>she obvious male trollif your plan for life is to spend the rest of it working, you might as well just kill yourself now god isn't going to reward you in the next life for that shit
possession is hot. I have no quandaries about this situation. The voices in my head treat me better than I do.
>>43370100>>43370219I feel like this shit might actually be true but i don't know. when i was on estrogen i started feeling really weird whenever waking up from sleep and had weird dreams and then woke up having mild psychedelic visuals once, it terrified me. I'm so fucking stressed. i also keep having shit happen to me that prevents me from being able to transition, i suddenly started getting scheduled for work a shit ton and got barely any sleep and couldnt function and think straight and during that time cut all of my hair off because i messed it up while trying to comb it out. i keep getting bullied and attacked and feeling deeply ashamed for being trans and it's worse because my mom is Christian now and trying to teach me her native language and stuff. i also have been hypersexual since literally like age 12 because i used porn and sexuality to cope heavily during really traumatic times in my life. but i also have really fucking bad dysphoria and on top of that always get clocked as a fag (even though I'm bi and not gay). i literally got called a low t fag on a different board today for talking about my dysphoria but then i come on here and people say "youre agp for being a bi tranny instead of a straight tranny". or for being a lateshit (though i knew at 12 and got offered hrt at 13 but was scared so i didnt take it.). i have bad ocd and notice "signs". it seems like some entities are repeatedly directing me away from transitioning but i think its because of my Christian mom praying for me to stop being trans or something. i realized today no one really understands us but ourselves, its like we have some radio device in us that incites hateful and violent responses in transphobic cis people. and so many trans women on here have done crazy perverted shit (someone said their gf blew a dog, and the dad incest posting meme on here). i wonder if we really are possessed by these kinds of spirits. why couldnt i just be a girl though? i would be happier. picrel
>>43371916i just noticed that i took that screenshot at 11:33 am. i believe in new agey stuff about angel numbers because i got introduced to it as a teenager, its a new thing common with gen zs and younger. and the combination of 1s and 3s according to Joanne Walmsley, who writes about them, indicates that it may be a sign that a goddess is nearby, and a feminine number, because there are 13 moon cycles annually.
>>43371953the moon is definitely related to it. there have been noticable moments where I notice the trrans women are acting different and I check the phase of the moon and it's a full moon every time.
>>43371986that's so interesting. my Mom said that in the hospital where i was born the nurses told her that sometimes the childbirth part of the hospital is totally empty for days but when its a full moon tons of babies are born at once.
>>43371953There's definitely something up with the moon, so many trannies calling themselves Luna
>>43372012>that's so interesting. my Mom said that in the hospital where i was born the nurses told her that sometimes the childbirth part of the hospital is totally empty for days but when its a full moon tons of babies are born at once.unironically that might be caused by the tidal effect of the moon or something for a baby in the womb but there definitely is some inherent syncing going on. Another possible cause would be that most women are ovulating at certain times of the moon cycle. Could also be a regional thing of couse too, because women very close to one another tend to sync up mensturation. No real way to know how wide-reaching this effect goes or if it affects the entire species to an extent.
>>43372047i also think about that with succubi because of how many trans girls apparently name themselves Lilith. but someone on /x/ said other spirits warned him about Lilith and said not to trust her.
>>43371916>>43371953my theory now is that a succubus is possessing me but i also have spiritual beings watching over me who are protecting me and not letting me get fully possessed or synchronized with it. like military training where they are using real knives and bullets or something. it sucks not being able to transition though, i really do have bad dysphoria and always got asked if im gay since i was 13, even with short hair and facial hair and dressed normally for a guy. and all the shame. i also really might have autism for a few reasons and my Mom wants me to get tested, and i already have ocd which is actually related to autism.
>>43372205LMFAO I JUST REALIZED ALSO MY DAD HAS ALWAYS HAD THE SAME PROBLEM OF PEOPLE THINKING HES GAY. AND THE OP PIC SUCCUBUS THEORY SAYS THE SUCCUBUS TARGETS THE DESCENDANTS OF THE ORIGINAL VICTIM. and he was suddenly interested in Korean shows when i was a kid BEFORE kpop and k dramas were a mainstream thing outside of teenage internet circles. he also did know some trivia stuff about Korea like how people who rode horses drunk got forced to ride donkeys instead publicly as punishment so i wonder if its a past life. my Mom also had a dream about this particular island and later ended up seeing something about an island with the same characteristics as the one she saw in the dream and it exists in Korea. and also this guy on /x/ who was speaking incoherently like he was channeling information referred to me as "Korean anon" (but he typed it as koren anon, but he made other typos in the post so i think he meant Korean) or something even though i didnt mention anything about East Asia.
>>43372262Industrialization in Asia ruined the Feng Shui of all the cities and the ghosts of all the courtesans have come out to haunt the world.
>>43372297i wish a japanese courtesan would haunt/possess me. sounds interesting
>>43370100Just make freinds with em most malevolent spirits will like you if you arnt a whiney bitch. Its kind of like interacting with yall
>>43372332this is truewhen i was repperchading i had a prophetic dream where an angel visited me and screamed at me because i had a bad destiny but then a week later i had a different dream and this time I met a demon and the demon was nice to me and explained things clearly. There really isn't any "malevolence" to spirits, they are just forces of nature that act out their beings. Only humans can change their nature through their actions. Eternal beings have their actions fixed secondary to their being which is why they take interest in mortals. This is also where the concept of damnation and salvation come from, because you're sort of "locked in" after you die and go to the afterlife.
>>43372297that's intetesting. i think that could be true but it also has to do with past lives for me. i remember when i was 10 and didnt use social media at all except maybe youtube for gaming videos and music i somehow found out about sword art online and watched it on an anime piracy site, in like 2013 when it just came out. i remember i got so into it i asked my mom to straighten my hair for me and i started learning the Japanese alphabet on nihongo master lol. i still have the emails from them, picrel i also remember being friends with anitwitter otaku types on twitter when i was 11 and that age was the happiest time of my life. some of them were trans i think. i really hope theyre all doing well, i love them so much. i will always love Western otaku because of that time in my life.
>>43372372>Only humans can change their nature through their actions. i heard someone on /x/ say this, that angels and spirits envy humans because we can change our nature due to having corporeal bodies. >because you're sort of "locked in" after you die and go to the afterlife. a few months ago when i was genuinely suicidal and going through some of the worst times in my life i had a dream where a voice told me "Some people choose to be tortured in this life so that they have an advantage in the afterlife."
>>43372422Do you ever remember your past lives? I know for a fact that in a past life I was a monk in ireland because I have recurring dreams of specific details of the place. It sorta doesnt align with my gender id so it bums me out a little honestly.>>43372478Yeah, that's why self- mortification is so common in basically every spritual practice. Once you start to have encounters with the afterlife or what is beyond the corporeal, you realize just how important it is to be spending every single moment of your life on discipline and spiritual ascendancy.
>>43372504>Do you ever remember your past lives? i have had two vivid dreams about it. once i randomly had a dream where i already knew the setting and what was going on like a memory. it was somewhere in East Asia and i had blonde hair and was in some organized crime setting and was about to be punished for something but an older man in the group raised his hand silently as if to say "stop" and i was spared of punishment. the other dream was even more weird, because i experienced the pov of a girl and then a guy. it was in front of what looked like a cheap 2-story japanese apartment building and in the beginning i was the girl sitting on the floor in front with a guy. the guy asked me something like "why did you keep it?" and i was crying and said something like "i wanted a chance to be the mother i never had." then in the next scene i was in the pov of the guy with the girl, and we were in the living room of the same apartment, and we were playing around with each other under a table, then i was laying on top of her (but fully clothed) and looking at her and suddenly got a comedic japanese humor style mental image of a dog making a weird face, like the random face shots in punpun, picrel. then in the next scene it was night and we were on the balcony together and i was still the guy and saying something about that we should leave that place and live together on our own, and i remember knowing that someone was eavesdropping on our conversation. then it cut to a scene where i think it was an Indian guy about to stab me in the living room of the apartment, and it was dark, i was still the guy. i said something to him like "wait, I'm an islander, too" and then the dream ended.
>>43372657switching perspective mid dream is especially interesting, thanks for sharing.
>>43372711I have that happen pretty often to me too, I think I might be living multiple lives at once
>>43372504>Yeah, that's why self- mortification is so common in basically every spritual practice. Once you start to have encounters with the afterlife or what is beyond the corporeal, you realize just how important it is to be spending every single moment of your life on discipline and spiritual ascendancy. yeah. i grew up in a fringe Western Hindu cult. then i converted to Buddhism at 18 and it really really messed me up maybe for life. when i was a kid i was always super vivacious and full of life and expressive and playful and fiery. i loved making people laugh and talking, and i was totally myself, and i was so fearless and always had faith that i would get through whatever i was going through. then Buddhism made me completely insane about karma and filled me with terror and hypervigilance about karma 24/7. at one point i didnt even listen to music on youtube unless it was official upload tracks and music videos, or watch pirated movies or series, and didnt even play pirated games. i literally bought a ps2 just to play tekken because i didnt wanna pirate it. i didnt care about anything except Buddhism and my personality changed completely. I've been different ever since then despite leaving Buddhism. i dont know if I'll ever be the fiery kid version of myself again. i was so full of life and so fearless. now I'm like a hollow, cowardly shell. it's hard to put into words quickly, but i changed so much because of Buddhism and i hate it so much. i can't even make miso soup properly with wakame (seaweed) now because it has a lead warning on the bag and i think that if i make it and let my mom eat it that it would count as killing my mother if she ever gets health problems from it and i would go to Avici (the lowest hell in Buddhism) for quintillions of years. i hate religion so much. one of my biggest struggles right now is dealing with the uncertainty of reality. and coping with my abnormal family situation.
>>43370100
>>43372711no problem :> >>43372739 i think this might be possible too. life is so wondrous and interesting when you start studying spirituality through your own questioning and experience.
>>43372765>i dont know if I'll ever be the fiery kid version of myself again. i was so full of life and so fearless. now I'm like a hollow, cowardly shell. it's hard to put into words quickly, but i changed so much because of Buddhism and i hate it so much.>i can't even make miso soup properly with wakame (seaweed) now because it has a lead warning on the bag and i think that if i make it and let my mom eat it that it would count as killing my mother if she ever gets health problems from it and i would go to Avici (the lowest hell in Buddhism) for quintillions of years.>i hate religion so much.>one of my biggest struggles right now is dealing with the uncertainty of reality. and coping with my abnormal family situation.sounds like you got indoctrinated to an abusive degree. I'm really sorry anon, but you aren't going to be a hollow shell forever. Just because they poured water on the flames of your soul doesn't mean the fuel can't burn again. Just keep trying to get in touch with your emotions and embracing the things you love. Before long it'll be really easy to be forthcoming and less ashamed of what makes you happy. Wasting your life on anxiety and fear is probably worse karma than making some minor mistakes anyways.
>>43372739>think I might be living multiple lives at onceoutside of constraints the time everything can be seen to be simultaneous. The same way 2d frames can be stacked to make a moving image, you can hypothetically fold time up into a geometric shape beyond our sensory ability to visualize.
>>43372798thanks <3 >sounds like you got indoctrinated to an abusive degree. nope, thats just how evil and grim and soul-crushing Buddhism is. no eternal heavens, hell realms that last for millions or quintillions of years, no belief in a soul, and annihilating your own existence ("final extinguishment" is the term they use) is the only way to be permanently free from suffering. I also hate Hinduism because the concept of karma is victim blaming. and they are anti-materialists while simultaneously worshipping gods that are dripped in gold and have stories about seducing tons of women at once and even stealing others' wives. these beings are real too and can mess your life up. i also had an extremely vivid nightmare once related to Krishna where i felt such darkness and disturbance that i dont think He's a fully good entity anymore. i also think He might be torturing me because i stopped worshipping. my life became a nightmare a few years ago when i stopped worshipping Him. something else that has been bothering me is that over a year ago i prayed to Him to help me transition and pass in exchange for being his lover in the afterlife (this is one of the 3 types of relationships or "rasas" one can have with him in the belief system of the group i grew up in, Gaudiya Vaishnavism) and i think the day after that i started feeling really physically groggy and off, and i also havent been able to remember most of my dreams since then, and before that i would have vivid dreams that i remember nearly every night since i was a kid. so i wonder if i can ever transition at all, or if I'll lose my freedom to Him if i do. maybe thats also one reason i keep being guided away from transitioning.
>>43372869>something else that has been bothering me is that over a year ago i prayed to Him to help me transition and pass in exchange for being his lover in the afterlife (this is one of the 3 types of relationships or "rasas" one can have with him in the belief system of the group i grew up in, Gaudiya Vaishnavism) and i think the day after that i started feeling really physically groggy and off, and i also havent been able to remember most of my dreams since then, and before that i would have vivid dreams that i remember nearly every night since i was a kid.wait lol wtf. i did something similar. this is really crazy. I put a geass on myself to become more feminine and beautiful in exchange for never being able to recognize my own face. I think it worked because I still can't recognize my own face and I get gendered right now, but I also think it might have been some seriously dangerous shit i got into or it damaged my soul somehow. I dunno, I was too hasty to apply my understanding of things and did it before I knew enough to do it safely.>so i wonder if i can ever transition at all, or if I'll lose my freedom to Him if i do. maybe thats also one reason i keep being guided away from transitioning.Have you tried praying to the Angel Michael? He's the patron for people with these kinds of problems. The truth is though that your soul cannot belong truly to a spirit until you die. When you die you lose the ability to change and become their servant, but you can actively do contrition and make your binding magic go away. It might undo whatever you gained in exchange for the deal, but it's way more important to keep your soul than to get consumed by the wrong lights.
>>43372798>>43372869also since i mentioned Gaudiya Vaishnavism and Indian religion be careful if you ever get interested in it. I heard someone say that tantric gurus said that Krishna can be dangerous to worship because he can cause your life to turn upside down to get you to abandon material things. And that another Indian goddess can be dangerous to worship because she might make her devotees ugly and doesnt like them having romantic relationships. my Mom also started getting predictive dreams and stuff after doing Transcendental Meditation when she was younger. we've also had issues with some of my family members potentially doing black magic on us. She's fully Catholic now I think. it reminds me of a Filipina girl on reddit who said something like her Mom doesnt like talking about occult or magic stuff because she had bad experiences with it and knew someone who was possessed when she lived in the Phillipines and is strictly Catholic now.
>>43373070Thank you for the warning anon. I'm not a hindu but I've experienced a few of the gods and understand what you mean. I'm a fully inducted sorceress but not a witch or satanist, more like an anti-theist. Honestly, all the astral divinities are just a distraction from our own potential to cultivate on this world and potentially rival them. Theurgy is my main goal for spirituality because at the end of the day worshipping something just feeds it your soul slowly.Catholicism is at least a little based because the resurrection allows you to receive your life back in exchange for worship because your actual living practices feed YHWH enough. It's not that bad of a deal but if you're trans you can't really relinquish yourself to the orthodoxy.
>>43373035>Have you tried praying to the Angel Michael? He's the patron for people with these kinds of problems. i haven't. i don't want to follow the rules of modern Christianity or get baptized. i dont want to consent to being a servant of the Christian God. >but you can actively do contrition and make your binding magic go away. i havent fully transitioned. i got stuck with slight hrtitties and actually looked like a girl with short hair when i was on estrogen but i stopped after the weird dreams and psychedelic visuals i got when waking up once. my "deal" was anyways to transition and pass, so in my opinion it doesnt count as being fulfilled except POTENTIALLY if i transition, but i didnt necessarily do it with His help even if i do transition and pass. i also watched my face remasculinize and i have short hair now so i hate my life. i cant be a femboy anymore even because i fucked my hair up. why the fuck am i even here. >It might undo whatever you gained in exchange for the deal i was gonna respond to this but already did i guess. i still cant remember my fucking dreams but i only remember some images or details and sometimes remember more from my dreams later in the day when i hear a word or think of something then i remember part of what i dreamed about after that happens. oh yeah i was gonna say, its hard to find occult information about Hinduism that poses it as negatively aside from Christian fundamentalists, but when i was researching, i found out that apparently reciting mantras "binds" you to a deity, and thats one of the main practices of the cult i grew up in.
>>43373154I wasnt trying to say you should become christian, I was just talking about one angel in particular. Sorta like how you can access a foreign government's website even though you don't pay taxes, you can always get spiritual parasites removed by the angels because it's not in their interests either.>oh yeah i was gonna say, its hard to find occult information about Hinduism that poses it as negatively aside from Christian fundamentalists, but when i was researching, i found out that apparently reciting mantras "binds" you to a deity, and thats one of the main practices of the cult i grew up in.yeah, thats generally what i was trying to get across. i think it's just the mature metaphysical perspective for most polytheistic worship.>i also watched my face remasculinize and i have short hair now so i hate my life. i cant be a femboy anymore even because i fucked my hair up. why the fuck am i even here.why don't you get back on hrt? You can do a binding nullification ritual and reconfigure the terms of any spiritual binding you have. if you want, take a contract up with the purple star beyond saturn. it will be nice to you.
>>43373136>Honestly, all the astral divinities are just a distraction from our own potential to cultivate on this world and potentially rival them. YES. THIS IS WHY I LIKE TAOISM AND CHINESE CULTIVATION. BECAUSE YOU CAN LITERALLY BECOME A GOD. Taoism metaphysics of change and duality also helps me cope with my fears of religion. I think they really got it right and explained reality truly. i also think everything that happens is fate anyway. when i thought about it myself a few years ago i realized "all possibilities were determined". everything we can do is specific and limited. we can jump but we cant fly. everything that happens was influenced by factors that influenced those things to happen and the influencing factors were also influenced by previously occuring influencing factors and so on. i think this goes back infinitely. so i think everything is fate, but at the same time i think Taoists are right about emptiness (infinite potential?) too and that literally anything is possible. https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=4cl238pYrGw
>>43373269wow, you just verbatim expressed my beliefs on the matter. do you have any socials we could talk about this stuff on in the future? It's really hard to find like minded people. Would be maybe fun to discuss and learn from one another
>>43373352yeah, my discord is snow.firefly
>>43373209>I wasnt trying to say you should become christian, I was just talking about one angel in particular. Sorta like how you can access a foreign government's website even though you don't pay taxes, you can always get spiritual parasites removed by the angels because it's not in their interests either. thanks, this actually helps. maybe i will try to do that, but im also scared to try to communicate with spiritual entities outside of emergencies because I'm scared of getting admonished for my past misdeeds or current flaws. i actually read an Indian guy write that he works with Archangels now on that same thread where i found out about what tantric gurus said about how certain Hindu gods can affect your life. https://www.reddit.com/r/exHareKrishna/s/XfUBC7lXni >why don't you get back on hrt? You can do a binding nullification ritual and reconfigure the terms of any spiritual binding you have. if you want, take a contract up with the purple star beyond saturn. it will be nice to you. i am considering trying this, thank you for telling me. how would i go about doing it?
>>43373474i just saw 108 (11:08) on the clock after i closed my browser tab after rereading my post. 108 is a significant number in Hinduism and that particular group. this has been happening to me constantly for the last few years and was far worse before i was on psychiatric medication, it would also coincide with objectively abnormal and unusual bad stuff happening to me at work and such when the number appeared. this is one of the reasons i believe i am being tormented by Him.
>>43373502my phone also just said 1hr 8min til fully charged when i left again. see what i mean? if you talk about this people think youre insane but it happens way too much for it to not be some kind of interaction. i am so stressed. why does spirituality have to be so scary? why are we being targeted by entities 24/7? why cant we just be happy and free?
>>43373532like it said it exactly when i put it on the charger and got up to leave. also we should have an /x/ general on this board. i think a lot of us are interested in occult stuff but /x/ is full of /pol/ transphobic homophobic types.
fuck yeah, i love schizo threads
>>43373502>>43373532This is just Krishna trying to terrify you out of making your progress. It's a sign that you're on the right path, not the wrong one.They threaten you but in reality they have no power over your soul.>>43373474>i am considering trying this, thank you for telling me. how would i go about doing it?burn a beeswax candle upside down above your hands clasped together in meditation. Melt off the whole candle and drip the wax onto your hands. When the wax freezes seperate your hands from one another and the spiritual bindings will be undone. Seeking specific beings through necromancy is a lot more dangerous so I don't feel safe talking about it publicly.>>43373441sent btw, thank you.
>>43373551>also we should have an /x/ general on this board. i think a lot of us are interested in occult stuff but /x/ is full of /pol/ transphobic homophobic types.sounds like a good idea honestly. half the population of x is chronic masturbators that like to christlarp and derail any post made by a trans person./
>>43370100i wish the succubus fucked me
>>43373625>They threaten you but in reality they have no power over your soul. i think this might be true because one of the main aspects of their religion is "surrender" to their god. so it seems to me that you have to consent for them to have direct influence over you. >burn a beeswax candle upside down above your hands clasped together in meditation. Melt off the whole candle and drip the wax onto your hands. When the wax freezes seperate your hands from one another and the spiritual bindings will be undone. won't this burn my hands? are there pictures that show which way to have my hands clasped? and do i need to make a device to hold the candle upside down by itself? and do i clasp my hands in the same way when i let the wax harden on them?
>>43373824ok. i don't think it's a good idea to have a "default message" for the thread though or stickies because there are literally endless amounts of information related to the occult and they are connected to different belief systems that disagree with each other and would cause great conflict from even being mentioned. I'm not sure what should be said aside that people should discuss anything supernatural they are interested in in there.
>>43372372 honestly i don't think this anymorei can't do anything because of my ocd. and i end up DOING a lot of shit that messes me up because of my ocd. i don't think you can really act freely or control yourself when you have a mental illness like this. i think everybody's life is different and some of us are just born to witness a completely predetermined fate and I'm one of them. i have no idea why i got to get a taste of transitioning and having fun just to have it ripped away from me by things outside of my control. it's pretty apparent to me that I'm not the one in control of my life or what happens to me.my ocd has also made me notice random things that cause me bad luck, like drinking black tea or having certain phone wallpapers.my reality feels like trying to defuse a fucking bomb 24/7. i can't do almost anything because i have noticed subtle connections in what kinds of actions cause what kind of results.
succubi are so cool i wanna be one too
If you take Ayahuasca you can ask the spirit of the spirit of the vine to live in your soul and it will eat any other spirits residing there
