im a freak who will never pass therefore i plan on boymoding until i die (read: kill myself)
you and me both nona
1st, ur probably exaggerating and using this as an excuse. aka being a coward and blaming it on dysphoria2nd, lots of hons have happy worthwhile lives. friends and lovers, satisfaction, success, etc. it's nnot a death sentence
>>43370942:D>>43370995>2nd, lots of hons have happy worthwhile lives.i dont so no reason to make it worse
>>43370935same, i feel obligated to tell everyone else never kys though i genuinely think most people even here have something beautiful to share with the world. i just utterly lack that ig. im going to move up the timeline on my own end of life plans soon though i thought id boymode, manmode, thug it out and whatever but iktf of that just becoming completely painful and intolerable. i'm sorry and i wish i could give u a hug nona
>>43371173i feel the same but in reverse :Dyou probably have way more to share with the world than me and you sound really nice please dont kys nona
>>43371377i promise u there's really nothing, and im a nasty evil cluster b basket case irl with no redeeming qualities physical or otherwise. i naively started transitioning thinking i could pass. that has eaten up everything else in my life and driven me crazy and all for nothing, i just am so tired. and having reached this point multiple times before and stupidly persevered anyway i dont want to try again
>>43370935Why not try transitioning if your plan is to kys anyway? Seems like you've got nothing to lose by your own logic
>>43370935how old are you?
>>43371625just keep taking hrt without having any expectations thats what i do >>43371689its never going to work>>4337180824
>>43371868oh fuck off retard. hurry up and troon now. i repped from 19-24 and have way more t damage bc of it. do you really want to be starting out from the position if a 27,30,45 yr old man when u inevitable troon?just fucking do it. sorry, but ur gnna have to honmode at least a little bit, just like most tw do. GET OVER IT
>>43371868>its never going to workSure, but if you're just going to kill yourself anyway why not give it a shot first?
>>43371868>just keep taking hrti've been doing that. i did my injection today only a minute ago, i started in 2021. i just dont want to keep living like this for much longer
>>43371948yeah of course u feel like shit. bc its nots just SEX dysphoria its GENDER dysphoria and if u boymode then your GENDER is still not transed. so you wont get relief. you have to make it real. you have to take a leap of faith and take risks.
>>43372005my body doesn't accommodate female presentation at all, it'd just be a transparent lie to everyone around me. i know bc ive tried before, when ppl were more accepting of this kind of thing and even then i could see how much they were trying to just be polite and smile. i dont want to skinwalk women especially if its never going to be remotely convincing. and honestly it should just be called sex dysphoria, i dont want to be this sex i dont care abt any of the other socially constructed stuff. it's an unfixable problem
>>43371948:(>>43371944im not actually going to kys sorry im just being a bitchbut yeah im never going to troon because id look really stupid>>43371904>at least a little bitforever more like
>>43370995>2ndI hate when people say this because it's a reminder that I'm an empty husky that can only be loved for the appearance of my shell
>>43372223but my point is that isn't true. there are tw who you would consider to be repulsively honnish who are loved
>>43372271Exactly. "Hons" can find love based on their inner beauty while my value is based on what I look like at the moment.
>>43372468you have inner beauty too! you have value! you're a person deserving of love and care!! poeple will see that, even if u dont think so
>>43370935same senpai I've stopped HRT though. hopefully the gyno clears up a bit
>>43372199Gotcha, glad to hear you’re not actually suicidal. Gl whatever you decide to do <3
>>43372652I wish that was try but life has proven the opposite time and time again.
>>43370935dont stop taking HRT or looking for love
