I don't love my boyfriend but im still with him because he is the only way for me to be touched and I will never find another.

I want a trans gf but I'm worried I will feel ashamed in public and in social circles if she isn't stealth

>>43371928
what if she never went in public with you? she was just more like a pet in your home that you could use

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>>43371343
I’ve used this painting as thinspo

>>43371952
she would deserve better than someone who's ashamed of being her bf and hiding her. though I would like a pet I can use and take care of.

>>43371928
I unironically feel somewhat the same, and I feel like a horrible person because of that. I'm terrified that the moment I see something too manly for me in her face, voice, manners or whatever, I'll start resenting that and distancing myself. I don't think any person deserves a partner like that

>>43372095
what if instead of resenting her you beat and punished her?
>>43372030
I deserve nothing but suffering.

>>43372191
>you beat and punished her
I don't think I'd ever be able to do that sorry

>>43371343
i may have failed an exam. really scared.

>>43372191
I don't wanna turn this into hornygen but it would be nice to beat you right now and be emotionally close

>>43372251
You'll be fine

>>43372251
every exam I ever took I thought I failed and every time I didnt.

>>43372266
what about maybe choking her?
>>43372266
thank you.

>>43372556
You replied to me twice, but that would be good. I'm glad you know that you're worthless. I will still love you and you'll be my worthless tranny. You can choke on my dick now as my sex toy.

I am very racist and anti-semitic but pretend to be anti all that in my real life. Still like getting fucked by black men when I'm high

I can't tell my girlfriend, but years ago I realized I would eventually kill myself. I think at the time I simply wanted it, but really I think I was always fated to do it. I think I've carried this fate inside me forever. The last couple years, it's felt near, like it has finally realized itself within me. Because whenever I feel okay, and at peace, and whenever it's just like, one of these nice spring nights, I think "this is the right time, to do it"

I Think I'm Going To Kill Myself

>>43374189
Fate's gay, do what you want. You sound like you need an ocd diagnosis

I keep you around because I actually like having you around. I think our connection is ultimately doomed based on the fact that you don't seem to care at all, but I still keep you around because I might as well just enjoy whatever remains for as long as it lasts. The question is why the fuck haven't you told me to go away yet. If you were a responsible human being, you would let me go.

I just sometimes wish that I was a cis gay

>>43374294
How I'm feeling about my situationship lately

Want to transition to female 31 M.
Girlfriend and a kid, she wants 1 more kid at least.

Family is great. But I want feminine features, I work out my glutes and legs4+ times a week just to attract men on Grindr. I want my fat redistributed to my hips, I want to get breast enlargement surgery. I want to have the biggest ass I can. I already have a set of fem clothes and have been dressing since an early age.

A few days ago I was finally able to deepthroat my dildo, like all the way down and it was the best sensation I've ever felt

Nothing is more invalidating as a trans woman than waking up with a raging erection against your underwear when you are just trying to fucking sleep to escape the agony of gender dysphoria for a few hours. It feels harder than a brick falling from a tall building onto your head when you wake up with another erection while 1+ yr on hrt and you feel like you have a gay man's sexuality again.

>>43374637
I just grind on my body pillow when this happens

>>43374637
Do you not take HRT? You shouldn't be getting random erections if your levels are right

>>43374654
fake and gay

>>43374678
Huh? That's literally one of the primary side effects of HRT. I've never had a sleep boner since going on HRT..I have to actually try to get a boner

>>43371807
Grim but at least he touches you, there are people who have it worse

>>43371807
It's a lot of relationships that are like this.

I am a straight tranny who dated a nonpassing transbian because I believed no real man would ever want me.

>>43374161
really... you could love me??
I have a very sensitive gag reflex. I prob would choke on it.

>>43374161
fuck off from confessgen

>>43371343
Why Is almost every mtf fat as fuck?
if you are gonna take the time and effort to come out and figure out how to dress, do makeup, ect. Then why don't you also put in effort to lose the weight is the true version of you fat as fuck? no, yet i still see a bunch of beer belly guts in dresses. it should be a requirement to drop to a healthy bmi before starting E

i always eat my own cum

>>43376419
If you let me treat you as my property and demean you, which I can do because there is some darkness in me but probably also must do because you couldn't handle something above that (yet), I would love and protect you and have to tragically hide my love for you sometimes to keep you stable.
>probably would choke
That's ok. You'd be fulfilling your purpose, being my pet and existing to please me. Then that's just what we'll have to put you through sometimes.

>>43376575
I'm skinny 18 bmi twinkhon THOUGH

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The truth is, that was a tranny from /lit/.
That's because, first of all, I do cry about muh misogyny, but not on /lgbt/. I do that on /lit/. And I do say that I am not from /co/, but not on /lgbt/. I do that on /lit/.
Played em like a fiddle.

I will never make ourself proud. I will never make something of my life.
I'm an adhd ridden pluralfag who had a neglectful childhood who's semblence of parental archetypes gave them no knowledge, discipline or tools to survive as an adult.
I can't save money. I can't clean unless I have a shock collar and someone domming me. I can't draw, it used to be my passion and I just dont have the energy anymore. I can't pursue bettering ourself because some of us just don't want to get better. Some of us want to make someone proud but we'll always, forever be relying on someone to control us. We're not even pretty enough to achieve that. We've been called cute when we post pics but in motion we're awful and people only think we're cute because they don't realize I'm 5'11 and like 215.
I want to get ffs and laser, I want to lose weight, I want to draw beautiful things and create worlds for people to get lost in, I have so much passion but zero ability to manifest any of it on my own. I dream of someone dating us, caring for us and providing everything for us, but we're too impulsive, and if we're not a right fit I just, don't last. I left my ex because he wasn't the right fit, but he was otherwise perfect. He was willing to work hard to be able to pay for ffs for me, and, I.. hh.. I don't know.. I blame myself and noone but.
I hope I get better but I don't feel like I deserve it, we're so caught in our own head none of us can agree on what to do or where to go forward.
I wish I was raised better, I wish I had the tools to raise myself better.

there's this guy i like, but i'm afraid of the off chance that he's a tranny repressor and that would be a real bummer because i have zero interest in anything related to trans. i'm not a hater, i just do not want a bf that has this condition, flat out deal breaker, on par with hiv/aids, disability (like complete blindness), obesity, etc.. call me shallow or whatever, i can have preferences

We will talk again soon, I hope

Im continually watching my friend, who i love, have romance after romance with different girls. I think because im trans he feels a certain unreality in his relationship with me, where he feels able to be somewhat flirty with me, but it will never be serious for him. Its serious for me. Other friends keep asking if there is something going on between us. I'm trying not to be in love with him. My foolish hope is that he can be my handsome friend, who I can be playful and affectionate with, without feeling romantically invested. I hate being a dumb bitch

>>43371343
Avoidant cowards sicken me.

>>43376823
waow

>>43382954
like AVPD or like literally people who avoid you?

>>43383287
>AVPD
id never get angry at some poor avpd bastard

i mean egotists unable to face any kind of emotional intimacy and that would ghost people after a fight rather than discuss/dump them and grant closure

yes, Im talking to you, P. ill get over this eventually, but u will always remain a vain piece of shit

>>43371343
im afraid my gf will leave me because i dont pass, ive been putting effort into every aspect and i still just look like a freak of a man that's vaguely androgynous, i feel so bad for her whenever we go out that she has to be with me, she tries to hugbox me but i worry that being with me makes her uncomfortable in public, she deserves someone better

>>43383430
ok good
>t.avpd and suffering
but yeah I hate people who run away from arguments and act like they won
>>43383455
she probably likes you because you don't pass, esp if she is also trans.

>>43383666
she's a cis woman and you're probably right, i feel like a lot of my female friends just see me as a safe male friend and not a woman

>>43380992
I pray that it is soon.

i’m glad that i stopped talking to you. everyday was excruciating waiting for your reply

>>43382954
I hate you so much remina I trusted you and empathised and tried to help and you kept pushing me away. You didn't even try to be friends after. You would be friends with Dippidy and Shining but not me. Everyone else got to be friends after but you just gave up on me immediately and ruined the entire friend group. Dippidy blames me for everything and kicked me and blocked me and hates me.

I'm scared to empathize with anyone because of you. How can I trust anyone after you lied to me about everything. Its so unfair you get to make new friends while I'm left all alone. You showed me what having real friends is like and then you took it all away I wish I never met you so I didn't know what I lost.

i miss you and this feeling won't archive

You probably don't come around to these threads much these days, but I miss you, I miss you a lot
It's all so bittersweet

>>43371343
I think trans women are more fun than cis women but I think I just can't connect with cis women anymore.
I'm fucking losing it.

I'm a fatty who put on six lbs over the weekend. God I hope its water weight.

>>43371343
i made fun of my ex because shes ngmi

i miss her so much and i dont think i can get back with her now,, i feel so pathetic and useless. i dont know how im going to keep going on at this rate. my life has been falling apart.

>>43387028
I'm the same, I've been with trans women so long and had such a good dating experience that I filter all the cis women I see. Also I never liked vaginas.

>>43371343
i hate myself so much and i don't think i'll ever change that. i must work around it

I have this weird thing going on with myself where I simultaneously believe both that I'm attractive and a very special one of a kind person who anyone would be privileged to love, AND that I'm an unlovable annoying weirdo who will be alone forever

>>43387122
I'm glad guys like you exist.

I've been suffering the nastiest kind of dreams lately, wherein it is as if nothing ever went wrong and we were still happily together.
Doesn't help that one of my aunties hasn't been advised yet of your departure, and has still been asking how you're going.

i'm intersex but thanks to years of cis hrt no one can tell and it makes me feel horrible actually. it's hard to explain to people that i went through an excessively androgen fueled puberty earlier than i should have and that when i was a teenager everyone thought i was a faggy twink or a trans girl and i was subjected to so much transmisogyny and so many threats of violence that i got removed from school and i didn't leave my house for years. i stopped taking the hormones they put me on and started taking the opposite ones because i feel like i was robbed of the identity that was intended for me. i want to be the person i was as a teenager again and not let people push me around this time. i feel bad for teenage me, i can't let them kill her just because it makes things easier. i feel like an idiot for walking face first back into that hell, especially knowing that even if i'm technically trans i feel more like "cis intersex" or something and there's very few people in the world who understand my experiences. i don't want to explain my existence over and over and argue that i have a right to exist. i wish i fell cleanly into cis or trans.

>>43388125
I genuinely feel awful for your situation, I may not have suffered in the same way, or even necessarily have had any similar experiences to draw from, but I want you to know that you're not alone.
Don't you dare go hollow, as they say.

i am every diaperposter on this board
all of them

>>43387028
>>43387122
YAY you are stuck with us. its because trannies appreciate their bfs and cissies use them