Thoughts on Cyborgs and/or Extreme Body Modification? Personally I don't want either and would rather my soul haunt a lovingly hand-crafted porcelain doll after my death.
Now I do, too. Let us all be turned into dolls.
>>43382410i love it in theory. I am one of those cis men on hrt, its all just body modding to me. Having some kind of cool posthuman body, mechanical or like lab-grown superior tissue, is cool. I have no issues from a philosophical standpoint. However, backdoors, planned obsolescence, renting my own body, enshittification of my fucking organs, all that makes it a hard sell in real life.
>>43382463IRL it would probably end up in a sort of Robocop scenario where you'd be a slave to your own DRM, which sounds erotic but also hellish, but I love the idea of total control over my body. I already see it as pretty much just another object but part of me wants to sever that connection completely.Another part of me sort of sees all of that as nightmarish identity death. I hate change, I'm a sperg; perhaps why I've remained a dysphoric, AGP, MEF cis man all this time despite considering transitioning since I was 12.
>>43382507And yet at the same time I feel a profound attachment to my body as I was born with it and my maleness. Maybe it's that I aspire for an extreme contrast between my presentation and the fact of my maleness in both sex and gender but I don't know so much of where it comes from. It could simply be a contrarian desire, but I don't know if I would have held onto it so strongly for so long if it was. I don't know. This is embarassing but I have a fascination with those silicone fake boobs you see cosplayers use. Part of that is sexual. I'll spare you and myself the displeasure of putting myself under the microscope on that one, but there's another aspect too, I think wearing those (along with good makeup and things, of course) allows one to express femaleness and not simply femininity while also remaining totally male. I guess that goes back to my fascination with "pretending to be a girl" - I know "trap" is a word not a lot of people like these days but I like the idea a lot for some reason. My current outlet for this is playing female DND characters, which is probably very sad.Really my main point is that it almost feels like the identity I desire most is a false female layer sitting above a true male one, but with both aspects forming my true self. I do feel something I'd liken to phyisical dysphoria as I've heard it described. I'm only 18 so my body hasn't masculinized so much yet but I'm terrified of aging into an older male body. I think my fascination with crossdressing is too long-running and deep-rooted for me to pretend it's just a weird hobby I have. Idk if should just get on HRT or something. Fuck it sorry for the essay. Maybe this reads as insane cope.
>>43382410i wouldnt want to have sex with a cyborg
i think cyborgs are cool and if they existed i would be one
>>43382410from the moment I understood the weakness of my flesh...
