>>43385551
Better friends. At least one better friend. You never know you might find someone willing to lend you clothes and let you be yourself around.

>>43385589
i mean thats good advice but i wish it was that easy. i live somewhere quiet and boring, and i suffer with the tism and probably depression so its difficult/awkward to make friends...

>>43385551
Cis straight man here.

>i want to be the person i want to be but how the hell do i do it without being able to express myself
Courage can be built/increased GRADUALLY.

>i want to be a femboy but i just cant get the clothes
Start by buying something that gives you PLAUSIBLE DENIABILITY. E.g. A shirt that could be used by both men and women, but is usually prefered by girls and/or feminine boys.

>i can't get the makeup
Start by getting and using makeup that is very subtle and that could be rationalized/excused if someone called you out for it.

>im so scared about what my friends would think, im scared about my parents, etc.
If you're gay or bi, start by coming out of the closet.
And if you're not, start acting in subtle ways that SIGNAL your friends and family that you might not be heterosexual (even if you are indeed straight). The reason being that most people are normies and tend to have a very fixed idea of gender roles when it comes to heterosexual people (but don't hold such expectations from people who identify as gay or bi).

>i can't get the shit cuz im poor as fuck
Learn marketable skills and get a better job. And in the meanwhile, maybe ask close female friends (if they're open to LGBT people) if they can lend you something.

>but, on top of that, being expressionless feels creepy, y'know? i don't feel like i fit in and how will i ever know if i do because i just can't express myself....
The fact you've made this thread is PROOF you're NOT expressionless. You just need to build more confidence in yourself so you can express yourself MORE.

Good luck.

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>>43386420
psudeo-tranny here
>ei thought was a tranny cause im a naturally feminine guy but pushed all that down because of fear of judgment and thought trooning would go over easier that suddenly being a fag again in my 20s after pretending to be normal since middle school
all of this advice is very good. moving in the direction you want to slowly is good helps you feel more comfortable than jumping into it head first would. it also helps people people around you warm up to it. i've seen people jump into it head first and the reaction is always "ew why are you weird all the sudden.". but when you start little by little it people are more likely to be like "well there where signs". people like to be detectives they like to feel like they're uncovering a secret, if you show all your cards at once people are going to look for a different secret motivation for your behavior.

start easy wear unisex closes that lean more towards the women's fashion side, grow you hair out pierce your ears. painting your toenails is a fun one cause its just less attention whorey than fingernails, and its also just kinda funny.

>>43386661
ps also stop calling yourself a femboy its super cringe. also don't dress in amazon basics femboy clothes. being gender nonconforming and swagless is a nightmare combo

>>43385551
imo op this issue is unironically a matter of perspective in a sense. fears go away very very quickly once you face them, they can be pervasive but really it's just purifying residue emotions and thoughts. your mind will be clearer for it. stop engaging in these fear-driven thoughts, they only make it worse. you're not having a thought, these thoughts are having you.

also stop depending on others socially. really 'get better friends' is kind of dogshit advice. dont take most of the advice youll get here that serious. you feel trapped because you're dependent on others socially and let these undue emotions and fears (induced by your environment) control you. most people on this website are going to be dependent losers. not much unlike the rest of society but still. you need to learn to think for yourself. based on you calling yourself a femboy and some other things i'm gonna make a guess that you seriously lack security in yourself. not through any fault of your own, and that's nothing to do with just 'stop being le mentally ill!!' but i really hope you think that over

>>43386420
this is written out like you have severe esl and its really weird advice in general. i don't know why people who capitalize random words like that are always the freakiest motherfuckers on the planet. i mean go figure cishet moid and he's on /lgbt/ but damn

>>43386531
loser

>>43385551
make a plan to escape your evil and dangerous environment.