>had a boyfriend of 6 years>Loved me so much tolerated my antics, mentall illness and even supported me pre and post transition>Even helped me book therapy sessions and sent me links for endocrinologists in our city. >Lived with me and covered bills when i wasn't working >Whole time i was an absolute selfish and emotional child>Threw tantrums, always suspected him of cheating and trying to get rid of me>Whole time my dumbass was the one eho actually made him insecure by thirsting over other people to others within other friend groups>My friends revealed that to him>He was hurt so fucking bad by it, but still wanted me to be happy and tolerated it>Finally get into an argument (that i started cause i wanted attention) after months >Say "I wouldn't be feeling terrible if you weren't here">I didn't mean it. I genuinely don't know why the fuck this came out of my mouth, why the fuck would i say such horseshit to one of the most comforting people>I can tell it hurts him, says to "give him time" >That was last week.>this morning he moved out and said that he could no longer be with me. Says that the apartment has the next 3 months paid for so i should try to find work or get onto disability (he already had some forms for me and my doctor to sign and where to go)>It hit me that i genuinely lost someone that important to me>It's hitting me more even now that i genuinely want to throw myself off the balconyHelp. I genuinely don't know how to feel or what to do. I want to hear him one more time, but im too afraid to text him
>>43388764Learn an incredibly expensive lesson that will dramatically change the rest of your life for the better or just roll over and die
>>43388764Talk to him. Apologize for what you said. Maybe it won't bring him back, but I promise you'll feel better than if you left words unspoken.
>>43388791She deserves to lose him though. Nothing can be achieved without consequence
BrutalI can't help that I'm the same way I can't stop throwing tantrums at my bf I need to learn to stop doing that :<He's still madly in love with me tho for now
>>43388764Sorry but you ruined it the best you can do now it's get better on your own so don't make the Same mistake
>>43388764you have fallen. you can get up againapologise for what you said to him, but not out of an expectation that he'll come back but so that you may heal from it (as >>43388791 mentioned)
>>43388764I feel bad for himeat shit op
If you make it out the other end of this you're going to become bulletproof. Or become totally derranged and get cptsd if you do it bad.
>>43388764You have 3 months to find a better boyfriend. The clock is ticking.
>>43388796Maybe. Or maybe she deserves forgiveness and understanding. We all do.She may not receive it from this man, but she should give it to herself.
>>43388764Sometimes i envy people in relationships but when i read something like this i think, if that's how modern relationships look like, is there something to envy really? I would rather be alone than to experience what your boyfriend did.Since he left you he probably wished he was alone too
>>43388764>The result of emulating nasty ass hoes.It's funny when a faggot does it.
Leftists: the blackpill isn't real, it's all in your headThe blackpill:
>>43388764Presuming that you are mtf, posts like this are definitive proof that trans women are real women because this level of retardation can’t be faked.
>>43388764well you clearly are mentally ill and completely dettached from reality, you caused this by yourself to yourselfyou deserve this, I just hope ur ex finds a beautiful girl to spend his life and be happyyou had a partner for life and ruined it be because you wanted, simple as.and YOU ARENT THE VICTIM, fuck you, your ex is the victim,im so sorry for him>>43388791dont do this, yes!! surely he will love you now after you ruin his life badly enough to , after having sacrificed so much effort, time and love, just end up regretting all of it
>>43388869Not OP, being in a relationship is great if you find one of the people who is right for you, and if you’re a reasonable enough, mature enough person to work well in a relationship. Now that I have had a serious and happy relationship for a long time now, I think of both how lonely I was before and how poorly so many retards like OP act in relationships, what they squander, and conclude that people like OP are scum who don’t deserve sympathy, they deserve to fix their rotten hearts or die.
>>43388941It's not about her "winning him back." It's about her owning up to her mistake and learning to be better.
This is the lesson we all must learn as children or as adults: Other people are never your toys. Especially your partner. They’re your partners your equal. Treat them better than you’d like to be treated and be honest. He isn’t going to come back, but he’s a good guy (especially for prepaying the rent like what) and you are probably not a monster, but you could be a monster someday if you don’t apologize and turn your heart around toward commitment to your friends and gratitude.Culture tells us to want more and more and more and that just doesn’t work. We should want to give more and more and more, hold more and more and more weight and responsibility, that’s where real life and euphoria comes from. I understand the pressure to want attention in a relationship but more often than not that’s just a symptom that you’re not happy with yourself and need to work on a new goal. I love you OP, I wish you and your ex well. You’re going to get through this. Life is about being empowered that we have the choice between right and wrong every minute. Don’t beat yourself up, just commit to making the right choices, keeping promises, and treating yourself with real care.
>>43388982Trvth. Well said.
>>43388796yeah i agree, i don't think she deserved him and this should be a lesson that leads her to becoming a better person and not treating other people like shit>>43388941>your ex is the victimyeah i agree, op sounds like she was genuinely abusive and her ex was right to leave her>>43388764op, consider yourself lucky that it even lasted this long
>>43389014You guys are being overly harsh on her. She knows she fucked up. Obviously she's carrying a lot of pain to have been in the relationship she was in and still miserable. And she's self-aware! Yes, she is very much in the wrong for hurting her boyfriend, but she doesn't need to be labelled an abuser. She's a human being, same as the rest of us. She has the capacity to learn from her mistakes and be better, and right now those skills need to be nurtured.
>>43388764This may feel unnatural to a bpdemon, but you need to apologize.
>>43389069Fuck consoling OP over this. Some people need to learn they are soul rotted BPD crones who will never be happy without being medicated till they're dull in the eyes.
>>43389069You are OP
>>43388801>>43388764You sound like you have BPD. I recommend DBT therapy, helped me to stop being such a horrid bitch to my partner. It is difficult and takes time but its possible.
thank god the insane tranny from here dumped meop you got a lot to learn
>>433887641: an apology if you can muster it, but if not just leave him alone, but in either case you should not try to get him back, you were crazy abusive towards him. utlimately, that is a relationship that you will have to let go. you can attempt to make amends if you want but recognize that it is over and move on. this is a learning moment for you, and a period of self reflection and change.2: take some time without a relationship and work on yourself. get into counceling, if you cant afford counceling get on some medicaide or similar program to get assistance with getting counceling. if you can work, build up some independence and money, and dont make your whole life about romantic relationships. just focus on professional and personal development for a while, and if you do get into counceling and it turns out you have bipolar, borderline, malignant narcicism or some other personality disorder (which this very much sounds like), follow their instructions, go through the therapy or take medications if needed. a ddiagnosis is not the end. it is the beginning of recovery3:spend some time out in nature. go on walks, go on hikes or bike rides, go visit some national parks or take a walk through the zoo, go to the beach. physical exercise (it doesnt have to be intense, just casual walks or bike rides are enough) and time in nature can do wonders for the psyche4: do not make plans for life ending. recognize the emotion, understand that it is an impulse, let it pass, and focus on rebuilding your life and improving yourself. use it as fuel for personal growth5: start engaging in self reflection. pause before you speak. is this really what you want to say? are you being needlessly cruel, taunting or misleading? from the sound of it your behavior is incredibly impulsive. practice mindfulness and actively examine your emotions and potential provocations before you say them aloud, and make attempts to reign them in and behave in a more even and charitable fashion
>>43388764my ex only dealt with my shit for 2 years and i wasn't as bad as you eithermy advice you'll be sad for a year maybe a little longer and you should probably wait about that long and try to self reflect and improve yourself before looking for another person
You sound like you have BPD. I recommend suicide.
>>43388764can i have him
>>43388764i was in the exact same place as your ex bf for the same amount of time with a cis woman. genuinely go fuck yourself
>>43388764>get into an argument (that i started cause i wanted attentionRealest shit I've ever heard>>43389556>Some people need to learn they are soul rotted BPD crones who will never be happy without being medicated till they're dull in the eyes.I fear this may be me.
>>43388788ThisDisregard everything else itt. You must get better, for yourself and for others.
>>43388764Poor guy, he learned a very difficult lesson. I wish he would have gotten out sooner.
>>43392252Also, don't apologize to him. This isn't any different from the myriad of things you've done, it's just the straw that broke the camels back. It's over. Don't bother him for a long time, when you're a better person.
>>43389556yeah, honestly fuck bpd people, i think people with untreated bpd who try to get into relationships with others knowing full well that they have bpd are scum of the earth because they knowingly drag the other person through so much shit and hurt them in so many ways
>>43389069She literally did abuse his kindness and love. It doesn’t mean she’s a full scale monster but abuse did occur. The quicker she (and others like her) accept this and process it the better off we can all be. She doesn’t deserve death or to be alone forever or some shit she just needs to gain a lot more empathy and ability to love. It probably stems from the fact that she can’t love herself. I’m struggling through something similar though. The only way out is through.
>>43392802i don't think anyone said that she deserves death, she should use this time to reflect on herself and maybe get treated for bpd or whatever cluster b disorder she has that causes her to behave like this. she 100% did deserve to get dumped though
>>43388764wish my ex felt that way about me, then again I was also useless and immature so on the upside she can feel ok about ending things
>>43392279I also clocked 6 years. If I'd gotten out 2-3 years earlier, I might've now been able to fix my housing situation and avoided the years-long injuries I got a few months before it ended.
>>43388764>>43388801>Threw tantrums>I can't help that I'm the same way I can't stop throwing tantrums at my bf I need to learn to stop doing that :<What exactly are you two doing? What does an adult tantrum entail?
>>43388764Lol, do better next time, let this be a learning experience ig
Holy fucking shit.>"helped me book therapy sessions and sent me links for endocrinologists in our city.">"covered bills">"suspected him of cheating and trying to get rid of me/Whole time my dumbass was the one eho actually made him insecure by thirsting over other people to others within other friend groups">"hurt so fucking bad by it, but still wanted me to be happy and tolerated it""STILL WANTED ME TO BE HAPPY AND TOLERATED IT"You. OP. You are genuinely a terrible fucking person. Holy shit.Yeah, I get the other posts have said that kind of shit already, but oh my fucking God. This one of a kind man, who not only humoured your delusions of being a woman, helped you maintain those delusions, provided for you, cared for you, footed your bills for fucking up your hormones, and in return, you treated him like less than the fucking sidewalks that billions of people walk upon every day. You are a horrifically awful human being.
>>43393966^(me)I think you should genuinely consider suicide, OP. Carbon monoxide poisoning by lighting some charcoal in a sealed room, then downing some sleeping pills and passing out is a relatively painless way to go, and more than you deserve.
>>43394015you should do it instead.
>>43394027I haven't treated anyone who was weird enough to even moderately like me with even one thousandth the amount of pure fucking evil this OP has to this genuinely amazing person with the patience of a Saint that was described, so I think I'll pass. Thanks.
>>43394065thats only because no one ever liked you before and you know it
>>43394093If you're OP, then anyone liking you at all was a terrible mistake. The world would be better off if BPDoids all unanimously necked themselves.
I lost 9 years to a girl with BPD. Reading this honestly just makes me feel terrible I feel like I'm similar to ops boyfriend and honestly I just feel so sad for op. Bpd is like watching an animal eat itself. It doesn't excuse all the abuse but I can't find it in myself to hate them. Op if you read this you can buy bpd workbooks on Amazon cheap. Go get one and start therapy
>>43388764im curious how far the argument "for attention" went. like screaming or just something small that escalated? did anything at all bug you or did you make something up?
>>43394406I'm sorry you went through that. Thank you for being sympathetic. Everyone needs love. <3
soz OP u are evil. forced MAID for "people" with BPD would unironically make the world a better safer place
>>43395139>I'm sorry you went through that. Thank you for being sympathetic. Everyone needs love. <3op split on her ex, felt guilty after and posted this. now shes reverting to the neutral state of defensive childishness and may even get distressed enough from the replies in this thread to split on us and sperg out in ~20 mins to 2 days depending.>t. dated a bpdoid for 5 years, basically was the tranny version of ops bf
sometimes I worry I have bpd and then I read this stuff and realize im a saint
>>43388764Who the fuck simps so hard for a mentally ill male
>>43397149sometimes I worry I have bpd and then I read this stuff and realize I probably do
He'll probably still end up dealing with this kind of neurotic attention seeking behavior but at least he'll be have something to show for it (being with a real woman).
>>43388764>next 3 months paidJesus Christ what a cuck. Nobody will ever love you btw.
>>43397160Extremely low self-esteem men. He's still definitely functional enough to impregnate a cis girl before OP can find a job.
>>43397171im sure one of your personalities is not a demon
>>43397367hh, only three of us truly felt bad and one was out of losing a source of comfort and food and the other was out of a self loathing complex. so realistically only one of us really.. idk.. wanted the best... sure alltogether all of us wanted him and everything to go amazing, but one of us always hated him, viscerally.. and there's not much to be done about that <~>
>>43397402sad! you looked really cute in your collar.
>>43397451we took his tag off, he.. deserves so much better. I will get better for him.I still wear the necklace he bought me though, he's, still eager to talk, but, I, **I** can't handle the thought of hurting him more. I will fix my personality and one day we might be able to talk to him again. but not until we can promise him everything he promised me.
>>43397461sometimes you just have to let them take care of you. they do it for a reason. idk what
>>43397545this is the third time I've cried about it today and I think thisis the hardestI I can't do that to him, he, I, I will repeat the cycle forever of lashing out, and, I, hhhI really hope he finds someone better
I will never ever pursue a boyfriend because I'm worried I'll be too selfish to make it work like OP, I'm such a subhuman freak.
>>43388764You deserve it for thirsting after other people AND taking him for granted. I hope you grow as a person from this, find love again, and don't take the coward's way out by killing yourself. You'd only hurt him more if he found out you committed suicide over this.
>>43388764>be a massive piece of shit to someone who would walk through a wall of fire for you>say incredibly abusive things to this person>act like a fucking child>he breaks up with you>your first instinct is to try and guilt trip him back in with a sui attemptHe should never ever talk to you again and move on with his life. You get what you deserve, BPDemon
>>43388764Learn from it and become a better person? Stop doing the problem behaviours? If you love this person you should improve yourself so you don't hurt them.
I didn't even do anything anywhere near as bad as OP and still lost my Doro.
if I did that I wouldn't be able to not kill myself
>>43388764Recognise that you are bad for other people and should not interact with them until you are not. That includes your bf. You'd only be apologising for your own benefit, so you are better off leaving him alone and not inflicting yourself on someone else until you have sorted all your ridiculous bullshit out, if ever.
>>43399935to be clear you should not interact with your bf again, you'll just end up hurting him and he deserves better. your options are fix your behaviour or be single, unemployable and friendless for the rest of your life.
>>43388764You should just kill yourself desu
>>43388764Lol are you my ex, same shit happened to us except the thirsting over other people lol. Except I also had to cut that 3 month lease, enjoy paying 3k cause FAHHHH.
>>43397367theyre a single person with untreated coping mechanisms. dont enable them
I just hope he gives up on trannies this time, he deserves better.
>>43388764>It's over. I genuinely can't live anymoreIt's not and you can. Keep it rolling playa
>>43388764Post this thread to him in a text.
I'm so glad I'm not fembrained enough to actually act like OP.Being an incel who trooned unironically made me a better woman. I can't even conceive behaving like this for no reason with my husband.I'm very glad for OP's ex. He needed to cut that abuse from his life.
>>43400307Have you made a thread before? I think troonmaxxing is the way of the future.
>>43400337yes, several months ago.>I think troonmaxxing is the way of the futureFor some, yes. But it's not a panacea. It requires a lot of discipline to make it and way too many incels simply don't have that discipline.Also, once you make it, it's a brutal confirmation of the black pill IRL. People (especially women) who didn't give me the time of the day now want to be my friend and have me at their events and goings out.Oh, and it's costly too. I spent $50k just on my face. But I had the money since I had no social life and thus a high savings rate.Unlike dysphoric trannies, transmaxxing doesn't leave room for half measures, as I found out. I'm still glad I did it, but I will caution that it's not as easy as it sounds.
>>43400410The reality/truth is that a lot of men aren't going to make it, and below a certain threshold, the only way out is through transitioning. Like you said, it's not easy, so it'll just be another endeavor they fail at.
>>43400465I don't disagree. But do keep in mind that a portion of the men who aren't going to make it are because of their fault, sorry to say.>the only way out is through transitioningIt's not the only way out, it's A way out. Imo it would work on around 1/3 of incels.Prerequisites are discipline, lack of stubbornness, a bit of androphilia (or willingness to create it) and money (or ability to make them). Ironically, it requires very stable malebrained to pull it off.>so it'll just be another endeavor they fail atErrr... yeah but with consequences.Fear of failure was a huge driver in my trooning.Lots of incels who try it get stuck somewhere in the process and then spiral out of control and of the objectives. It's not pretty at all when that happens.
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