>be me>22yo mtf>been on hrt a few months, got some conetits now but mostly just look like a mid guy with a dick that doesnt work>hook up with 33yo mtf at a party ive known for a few years, get on well>im smitten, shes very sweet, she seems to like me>shes a bit of a tough nut to crack but over the next few months things get more serious and we end up dating properly, meeting families etc>i lose my job for some retarded reason and ask her if maybe this would be a good opportunity to start looking for stuff near her, she says yes>(for context i live at home with my parents and she owns her own house)>i come to stay for longer periods, being a housewife while she works, applying for jobs, providing frequent sex>go over there and meet her at work wednesday, we get lunch and make out, she leaves work early because she misses me so much and we watch movies that night and have kinky sex>thursday i have an interview while she's at work, she gets back and seems rather miserable but i figure its just been a bad day>friday after work same deal, i ask her whats wrong and she finally reveals shes not been feeling it for the last few weeks and is also in love with my best friend>i am completely blindsided, the last few weeks seemed to me like the best our relationship had had, i freak out and leave and breakdown and stay with a friend>meanwhile she overdoses and i rush to hospital, she says little and is discharged to stay with her familythat was friday night and ive basically just laid in bed, drunk, and cut myself since then. i love her so much, i dont understand whats happened, i dont know how to wrap my head around it and why everything changed so suddenly. we communicated a little since then and i was initially hostile but got more worried when i started to wonder if this is a bpd or psychotic episode?? since then ive only briefly communicated with her mum and i think shes been sectioned. feels like my entire life has collapsed this month. idk what to do
Congrats on learning not to date someone you have a 11y gap with.
>>43390561Agreed, gap needed to be bigger.
>>43390561i thought me being the younger one would mean i was the mentally unstable one and worked very hard to not have that be the casegah
>>43390482how do you get invited to parties, how do you get jobs, how do you meet other trans peoplehelp
>>43390482Damn, this sounds awful. Fuck her though, jfc. You HAD a really good relationship. Don't be a cuck. This relationship is over. Teach that bitch a hard lesson. Fuck BPD. Fuck psychotic episode. Excuses. You literally were a housewife for her and provided sex for her. And this how she repays you? Mental illness or not, she sees you as a side hoe. She violated YOUR trust. Even if she is a BPDdemon, BPDdemons should always be held accountable. They know they have some fuckshit yet they choose to bring YOU into it. That's toxic. Burn her.Actually, you know, take nudes of yourself, send her a text of your nudes and say, "you'll never fuck me again. Say goodbye to this forever." It'll make you feel better knowing that this post-30 bitch now hurt. And it'll also empower you. Trust me, you'll feel a lot better.
>>43390482this is honestly pretty mild as far as T4T goes
>>43390732bump. tell us how anon.
>>43390732>how do you get invited to parties have friends who know people i guess>how do you get a jobfuck knows, was out of work nearly a year before landing this one, fired for no reason, will probably be another year unless i succeed at suicide this time>how do you meet other tranniescoincidence i guess, she wasnt properly out to this group but i knew a few things through my friend
>>43390743im not sure my nudes would garner much of a reaction i just look like an underdeveloped teenage boyalso i dont want to hurt her shes obviously fragile and i really loved her ;-;
>>43390796do you live in some city like seattle where theres tons of trannies and you just run into themgod i wish i lived in a city and not a dead suburb where nothing happens
>>43390796Anon, suicide? Stop depressing maxing. Go outside. Dumb slut.
>>43390817Do you have a SINGLE body part that this ogrehon likes? Show that then. You claim you provided sex and fucked yet are hard pressed to talk about her having a type of "reaction." What? She fucked you, yeah? Did she also fake her orgasms or was she not even reacting to your "underdeveloped teenage boy" body when fucking you?
>>43390830no i live in the middle of nothing-ever-happens nowhere england>>43390833i have always been excruciatingly fucked in the head but this past 7 months or so with my previous job and then getting on with her ive genuinely been happier and more optimistic than ever before. in a month it all disappears
>>43390817Why does her life matter? Would you cheat on someone? You two are not equal. And if you're not equal, she's inferior. She weak-willed. Its better she ceases her existence. Stop doing false equivalences. You are better than her. Stronger than her. Now kill her.
>>43390856she said enough nice stuff about my body but was never one much for words or expressing emotionsi got constant groping that was the validation i needed
>>43390879Defeatist mindset, honey. You carry that mindset, you'll just get hurt. Don't be afraid of being optimistic. Failure will come naturally. Be optimistic and a failure than defeatist and a failure because when you're defeatist and a failure, the defeatism contributes to the failure. Optimism can NEVER contribute to failure because optimism comes from your heart and your heart is precious sweetie <3
>>43390920Oof. Yeah, pedo ogrehon is TOXIC. DAMN! nu-uh to her.
>>43390920You're so pathetic omg hehehehe.This is why trans women need male partners. Chasers preferably. You need a non-pathetic chaser to treat you right and put you in your place.
>>43390482This is why you never date (or talk with) hons. Either you talk with actual passing trannies that do girlmode or you better avoid them completely, they are the most toxic freaks ever
>>43390973i dont think a chaser would want me anyway i dont even look like a clocky tranny im just a guy with tiny tits
>>43390879WHAT THE FUCK, i live in middle of nowhere nothing england, how the fuck do you have friends....
>>43391076i dont know, it probably helps that i have been terminally online for many years and somehow found some people who dont live too far away and who are willing to indulge my delusions that i should be gendered female
>>43390561this isn't really the issue
