In a fucked up way, I think I've started to understand a portion of the abuser mindset. How they seek to socially isolate victims, control habits, control money, etc. My fwb is stuck out in a semi-rural town at a mediocre job. His entire friend group that he's known his entire life is composed of the literal worst examples of the LGBT scene I've ever encountered. He's unquestionably the smartest and most beautiful person in his social surroundings, like a gem that doesn't know how to leave the trash heap.There's a nagging voice in the back of my head telling me that I could drastically improve his life if I were just a little more manipulative and underhanded. And I'm starting to understand how I could 100% give in to that voice if I were a shittier person, and follow that road until I had him in an even worse situation than he is now. Narcissists really do think they're helping people.
>>43397585You're an abuser, get help
>>43397585Unfortunately I feel you, and this might sound dumb as fuck but playing Skyrim when I was 14 and experiencing Paarthurnax as a character basically go "Yes the nature of all dragons is to dominate, but it's still wrong and causes harm, and I can choose not to of my own free will." probably helped me not turn evil. Because I don't think humans are inherently inclined to dominate, and anything that feels that way within me is probably just ultimately a trauma response to oppression.
>>43397585I'm not seeing what's so bad. Just manipulate for his own good. It's not bad if it helps him in the end.
I wish I had a boyfriend like you
