>Be me, 2018, early 20s>6'2, broad shouldered, manly looking, top exclusive>Start experimenting with bisexuality>Date femboys and trannies who call me daddy>Life is good>FFW to 2026>In my 30s now>Uncontrollable urge to dress cute>Uncontrollable urge to get railed by a bigger, dominant male>Fucking hate my huge caveman body>Crave to be a cute little bottom twinky femboyWHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED? WHERE DID I TAKE A WRONG TURN? WHY DO I NOW CRAVE MAN COCK INSTEAD OF BUSSY?At least I'm still happy being male lmao
>>43399508Liking feminized males (GAMP) is an external projection of your own self (AGP). That's why everyone laughs at "totally masc 100% straight" trannyfuckers.
>>43399610But why is it developing now of all times? I'm in my fucking 30s now, there is no becoming cute anymore.And sure, I never was nor pretended to be the manliest guy out there, even if I always present very masculine, but the urge to become a cute smol bottom is completely new. A year old at most.
>>43399610Wow. Meanwhile, I was always into huge buff bara guys…and then one day snapped and hopped on roids and became one. Maybe this shit is universal.
>>43399508It's inevitable
i'm actually a short twinkish feminine male in his mid 30sthe cute thing is doable, or maybe i'm just biased since my body is like this. for what it's worth, i don't even get to enjoy getting railed by larger men, because i'm not a slut. i'm actually a closet case, which is pretty weird at nearly 40. also i don't even like taller men, i like short guys because i feel physically conpatible with them.
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>>43399922Checks out lol. I know a woman who got into men like that, then became a roided bodybuilder, then trooned to FtM and is now married to a woman who is also a bodybuilder.>>43400089I just have the craving, never been railed in my life so idk how that actually feels. As for physical compatibility, I've only been with short guys, trannies and women. All felt fine, I guess? Though idk, I've always been at least 5-10 inches taller than pretty much 99% of people in my life, be them friends, family, coworkers, etc. >>43400031What pisses me off is it's happening so much later in life. Chances are it started much, much earlier and only now I'm coming about with accepting it, but ffs over the past year it's been getting so much harder to deal with. And I can confidently say I was NOT getting these thoughts and fantasies ~10 years ago.
>>43399508According to the average chud this is because something something society something something porn addiction something something actually you're just an abomination that should kys. Idk honestly it's probably just unconscious repressing combined with societal pressure to be performatively masculine to avoid social credit loss, but you can't push it down and repress it forever so now it's coming out and you're John, 30ing now. Just be glad you're not a John, 50
>>43401186Checks out desu, particularly the avoiding social credit loss bit. I always knew I wasn't as masculine or manly as my buddies, but it's absolutely true I did not let myself slip below an "somewhat acceptable" level of faggotry for fear of being ostracized. But even then, I never felt physically attracted to the manly masculine types, and to a large degree I still don't. I'd still very much rather date a femboy, tranny or woman than a dude-ish guy. But the desire to be smol, cute, submissive and breedable persists. So what gives?Am I supposed to get fucked by a top tranny now? Is that what my brain wants? Fucking kill me.
>>43401350My question to you would be why do you see wanting to fuck fem types and being less masc and more fem yourself as mutually exclusive? One is the type of person you're interested in sexually/romantically, the other is an expression of who you are. Do you fear being unable to find fem attraction if you yourself are not masculine presenting?
>>43399508>6'2, broad shouldered, manly looking, top exclusive>Uncontrollable urge to get railed by a bigger, dominant malei'm sorry but this probably isn't going to happen for yout. 5'6" boy who takes estrogen
>>43399508Yeah thats tuff
>>43402147nahh there's plenty masc4masc tops what are you on about
>>43402209i can find 6'2" guys easy but he's not going to be able to find a guy who is 6'10"...
>>43402147Oh I'm perfectly aware. I only met a single guy IRL that falls under the "bigger, dominant male" category in my whole life, and that's a Dutch fellow I met at a pub near Brussels in 2015. Everyone else I've ever met IRL is either smaller in general, or tall but skinny af. Also I live in South America. At 6'2 I'm essentially the tallest dude in the fucking continent.>>43401565I know those aren't mutually exclusive, and I am very much aware lots fem-presenting fags and troons are into femmy guys. The issue is I somehow ended up in a situation where I want to be bottom for big alpha Chads, while simultaneously finding most of them physically unattractive because they're generally not fem, while also reaching the conclusion I'm too old and masc-bodied to ever present as fem without being a walking caricature.I mean, I tried growing my hair out and shaving. My gay best bud declared I look like "a fat ugly semi-butch lesbian".
>>43402359There's guys out there that are big alpha Chad's that are also kinda fem. Don't close off your potential existence because you think the kind of person you would go for doesn't exist>I mean, I tried growing my hair out and shaving. My gay best bud declared I look like "a fat ugly semi-butch lesbian".People, even (and especially, it seems) your friends will say unimaginably cruel things without even realizing how it could affect you. I've been both on the giving and receiving end of this phenomenon and it's extremely painful, both to have received an insult and remembering the pain I inflicted on my friend. He was probably just trying to hyperbolize to make it a joke you could laugh at with him but it clearly hit much closer to home than he realized.My advice would be that you'll never be able to control what other people think about your appearance. There's some people that will just always despise how you look no matter how nice you see yourself as. Just let that be their problem and don't make it yours. There's a never ending waterfall of judgy assholes, you can't let them dictate how you choose to live your life. It's what caused you to wind up in the situation you're in now, wanting to be yourself in a certain way yet terrified to express it because of their judgements. Obviously you have to bend to societal standards so you don't get arrested or hate crimed. But you can find a middle way that you're comfortable with and be happy, irrespective of external pressures to conform to a standard that you have come to realize is destroying you.
>>43403519I know there are big dudes that are also kinda fem. I've met plenty online, and even got to flirt with a few. But they're all in Europe, and I'm stuck all the way down in South America lmao. It's not that they don't exist; the issue is they are so few and far between that it's extremely hard to find one, let alone find one that is also bi/gay and into me.As for my buddy's comment, I know he's joking, and I'd be lying if I said I found it cruel or painful. It hit close to home, sure, but desu I've had boyfriends and girlfriends I dearly loved calling me far, far worse and I took it in stride every time. I even find the comparison humorous and kinda accurate. The long hair, glasses and clean shaven face do make me look like a fat lesbian lmao.
>>43402359>>43403519>>43405053This reads like just autism
>>43399508>be OP>be bisexual>want access to feminine male bodies (HMMMM)>turns out he wants to be the feminine male bodyMANY SUCH TRANSBIANS
>>43407107I can guarantee I'm not a tranny. I gave it some thought a couple of months ago, and I came to the conclusion I'm very happy being a man. >>43407080That could be it too lol.
