Is anyone else here schizophrenic? I am.Being schizo + trans is a really devastating combo lol.I'm interested - how do you cope with being trans and having mental health issues as well?
>>43401242not schizophrenic, but borderline + ocd, its hell. yeah i just kinda exist and it somehow manages
>>43403713That sounds rough, anon. I know it's not much, but I want to let you know that I'm proud of you for having the resilience to endure your condition.
>>43403874hey, appreciate it! :)if ur op i also commend u for enduring ur life, schizophrenia is really tough and reaaaaally fucks up ppls lives, especially if its mistreated (as it usually is in society unfortunately). either way though same goes for ya!
They don't have any new information. It's just another version of you. Possibly the impulsive version of you that asserts possibilities about people and things so that other parts of you can test that idea against other things you know about reality. You just need to treat them with respect. Remember that you don't *know* the things they think. But also listen to them. You have instincts and they are not baseless but they might be overreacting. If your instincts make you afraid of someone, it is probably not based on nothing but you can't trust that you know things you don't know. The reason that they get so hostile is because you won't listen to them. It's just another part of you. And not being listened to is so horrible. Just remind yourself that you don't *know* something but if they keep getting scared tell them you'll work around it.
>>43403713i have severe ocd and i can't do anything except like run through it while screaming because exposure response prevention therapy does not fucking work for some of the things i experience. like multiple things i noticed cause me bad luck still cause bad luck when i do them. i literally have no way out except through. this disorder is hell. and by far my worst theme is religion because you can't prove it or disprove it. it's even worse cause i have actual weird stuff and "signs" happening all the time and have had bad supernatural experiences and i also have lots of nightmares from ptsd. I'm really easily overstimulated. i can't handle anything. my biggest trauma so far has been what i believe is a malevolent hindu deity torturing me because i stopped worshipping him. so many negative circumstances happened after that that never happened to me before, ever, and they are still going on. I've got no idea what is happening to me.
>>43405278forgot to add https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=oQnJAU-lOR0
>>43405278dude same. the most crazy delusion i've had is having a dream abt a black hole outside of my house and in turn i decided to not go outside at night in order to "save everyone", by far the absolute worst part of ocd for me is health anxiety, as that will absolutely RUIN u from the inside out (i had a full on mental breakdown for abt ~2 months from thinking i had dementia at the ripe old age of 15), but legit the only way for it to get better in my experiences is literally just sleeping and rotting in bed all day, because the anxiety is so agonizing. ocd is actual fucking nightmare fuel, not to mention how me having bpd plays into it too. its like being burnt alive constantly where new ppl come in to burn u, dangling carrots above u n shit then leaving, then it happens again and again
>>43405562i forgot to add this img to the post lol
>>43401242hey anoni have some sort of psychotic disorder (diagnoses change from doctor to doctor, current dx bipolar 1) and hoping that even if it isnt schizophrenia a psychotic disorder is enough to contribute to the thread.i hope you feel better and can carry your cross easier>how do you cope with being trans and having mental health issues as well?I am off my meds right now but I've spent about 10 years learning how to hide symptoms of psychosis and delusions from other people. For example, if I hear a voice calling out to me I won't respond unless I can see the person I'm talking to. A lot of the time I'll be hallucinating in public and struggle to tell what's a person talking to me and what's a voice in my head. If I have some deeply held belief about something emerge suddenly, I have made it a rule to ask somebody else if I should do it and if it makes sense to do. For example, I get delusions about a bunch of worms being under my skin. I ask someone else if they think it's possible that someone could have worms under their skin trying to eat their way out. They say no and I decide to grit my teeth and bear it until it fades.I made an oath to my parents to not kill myself when i was a teenager, so I mostly use that to get through my hard times. I still have really violent episodes of self harm but I'm progressively getting better at handling it. Unironically, I think my weirdness actually helps passability a little bit because nobody has ever met somebody entirely like me and so I don't fall into a clean box of a type of person i'm "supposed" to be.I guess I would say the problems aren't multiplicative. I'm mentally ill and that sucks and I'm also trans and that sucks. Neither one makes the other worse, in fact it might make it a little easier. When I have angels talking to me and calling me a girl it makes me feel very assured of my identity.
>>43405562>>43405594>its like being burnt alive constantly where new ppl come in to burn u, dangling carrots above u n shit then leaving, then it happens again and again for me its like the learned helplessness experiment where they keep electrocuting the dog every time it tries to go to a certain area and the dog eventually stops trying to go to that area even when they turn the electricity off, EXCEPT THE FUCKING ELECTRICITY IS STILL FUCKING ON. or like if someone had a dog and they put a bowl of food in front of him and every time it moved towards it they beat the dog relentlessly until it learned not to try to get food anymore. at this point i only think willpower, meds, and spiritual help are the only things that can change it. it feels like my reality is a video game with bugs in it. https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=gV26zIE0130 i really fucking hate how human life is just dealing with evil religions like Abrahamic religions that threaten eternal hell or dharmic religions that say victims deserve their abuse because its "karma" or that you have to annihilate your own existence to be permanently free from suffering. and then if youre unlucky you have to deal with fucking evil cunt family members who do black magic on you BECAUSE THAT STUFF IS FUCKING REAL and only ethnic people know from experience. lol and then they complain about racism and shit like they dont go contact demons to fuck your life up when they get mad at you. reality is like prison. if you're weak and can't protect yourself, you have to let some stronger guy fuck you up the ass in exchange for protection. FUCK BEING A HUMAN. FUCK IMPOTENCE. FUCK SUFFERING. FUCK EVIL. IF PEOPLE ON /X/ WHO SAY WE ARE ALREADY GODS WHO CHOSE TO CAME HERE HOW THE FUCK DO YOU FUCKING GO BACK TO BEING A GOD INSTEAD OF A VICTIM OF ALL THESE EVIL FUCKING BEINGS AND PEOPLE WHO HARM YOU? FUCK THIS WORLD
All schizophrenics I know detransitioned when they got better management of their schizophrenia
>>43406820very interesting because i deschizod when i transitioned
>>43409016did you notice that when you got on hrt your hallucinations were less severe? this happened to me
