I was a male prostitute from the age of 15-18. I'm kinda bored and I wanna unload some trauma and some funny(and not so funny) stories Abt it. So ask me anything! I'm an open book
>>43401891Why did you start?
>>43401891howd it start
>>43401891worst experience
let me guess, you are a "trans woman" now?
What's life like in Moscow?
how do i become one too?
>>43401891Who the fuck is even the clients for a male prostitute?
>>43401891where were your parents?
>>43401891>I was a male prostitute from the age of 15-18.where you the legal age of consent?
This is a fetish larp
>>43402031This
>>43401906Got raped by my brother and abused by my family. Plus my family is extremely homophobic and with me feeling weird Abt my sexuality it kinda just spiraled along with substance abuse.>>43401942Please don't. You'll look into the mirror every day and hate what you see>>43402005Didn't give a fuck Abt me. They were drunks and drug addicts. The only time they cared enough about me was when they were beating me.>>43401930No I'm not actually. I dress feminine but I consider myself more gender fluid and male leaning
>>43401958Other older men. And men who can't get any. And some women who like to dom or cuck their husbands>>43401937I live in Florida... So not much better>>43402022It's 18, but I was doing it illegally:/
>>43401891How are you doing now? Everything okay?
>>43402258I'm doing better. Therapy really helps along with kicking out all the people in my life who enabled me. It's hard and a tough road but I'm clean now from drugs and alcohol along with I'm feeling better than ever. Not every day is perfect or good but it's better than doing nothing at all
>>43402250What's a type of client (or just one in general) you hate dealing with? More than others I should say cause honestly I feel like I'd hate them all.
>>43402250You sound like a guy i knew in middle school and highschool in South Florida. Hope everything is better now!
>>43402278I'm proud of you anon. Much love and hope you have bright days ahead.
>>43401922I told my worst experience on r9k cuz I wanted to multithreadbut my second worst experience was when I was meeting up with a client at his place and everything was normal. I changed into my slutty clothes and stuff and we got at it. But as we were in doggy and he was railing me he suddenly pushed me down and held my arms down as he shoved me down and stuck a needle in my body. I freaked out and tried and to run but he smacked me to the ground and blocked the door. Idk what he injected me with but I became really dizzy and loopy and then he proceeded to rape me obviously. After a while I woke up on the floor and he let me leave. I would have contacted the police but then I would have been caught to being a 16 year old prostitute yk. So I left. It wasn't until a few days later I saw him across from my school, then I saw his car just sorta around yk. It took me a little bit he put a air tag in my bag so he could track me and I have a android so it never alerted me that I had that following me. Thank god nothing happens cuz of that but for a solid 3-4 days he knew my exact location. And stalked me. Thank god it ended good
>>43401891do you have any pleasant experiences from this time? any wisdom, relevant to your past life or not, you wish to share?
>>43401891You on hrt?
>>43402280Most of them were find. Just your run of the mill kinda weird guy. And most of the women were good as well except for 1 (she tried to kill me and tortured me a lil) but the type I hate the most are the ones who get violent (duh) usually they would beat me during sex and would hit me during and after trying to be "sexy" and if I had a problem with it they would get mad for and actually beat me. The guys with the biggest temper also had the worst dick. I also hated clients with a big ego thinking they are the shit. Like bro you had to hire some guy to fuck you. And yea I didn't like any of them really. Except one that I actually am still freinds with. He's cool>>43402290LMAO rlly. I grew up in orlando not rlly south Florida, but that's a kinda funny coincidence lmao.>>43402306Thank you anon. I really appreciate the support
>>43401891were you on PrEP or are you pozzed
>>43402412Sorry I don't know what that means? Can u elaborate lmao
>>43402439were you on the medication that prevents HIV infection (PrEP)? if you were not, and you were bareback taking loads from johns then you are probably HIV positive by now.
>>43401891What do you look like? Like bodytype etc
>>43402389Are you able to be intimate and feel safe with your partners now? Do you get any emotional flashbacks?
>>43401891How did you find your clients
>>43402250>It's 18, but I was doing it illegally:/Clients are not gonna legally risk pedophile charges having sex with you.
>>43402467I avoided him because I was really careful with people and I would have them show me a test results sheet. I avoided him but I got other stds like syphilis and ghoneria and stuff>>43402487Skinny 6"2 twink. Hispanic with a small but nice bubble butt and a 6.5 inch penis. Anything else you wanna know?>>43402491Yes its hard I do get flashbacks and It hard to form those connections. But with time I have gotten better
>>43402250FL? Holy shit
>>43402503Obviously false.
>>43401891Can you give a basic structure on like how your women clients wanted to be treated?
>>43402547Assuming you're a bottom?Also, what do you do for a living now?
>>43402389>rimmingok weird taste but i expect it considering how much you probably hate yourself, plus my own inclinationsi want to ask you, why do *I* feel so envious of you? like I did the shittier hotter-bitch form of prostitution as underageb& and even as an adult [peddling pornography of myself] and yet I feel truly disconnected for not being an underaged whore. This sounds utterly disgusting to most people, because frankly, it is, but it seems that this type of thing is heavily integrated, institutionally normalized, in the whole "LGBTQ" community. Like everyone's done something like this, and how far in you were to the "game", you have more respect and "belonging". I don't know, maybe I'm just neurotic. Yes I'm planning on killing myself.
>>43401891Have you seen this movie?
>>434025004chan,grindr,reddit,FetLife>>43402503Yes bro. Do you know how many weirdo pedos there are that find it hella hot that their fucking someone underage. Alot of people on 4chan would love it trust me>>43402556Lmao yea>>43402735Most of my female clients I would treat obviously alot better and nicer and less slutty. We would usually talk a little bit instead of getting straight to the sex. And I would make sure to come in wearing my slutty clothes I stead of how I usually did it of wearing street clothes than changing in their bathroom. Than after a little bit we got too it and usually they would be pegging me and getting off on a power trip. Which I personally found really hot. Anything more specific?
>>43402812Yes lmao and RN I'm working at city electric and I wanna get a degree In marketing and hopefully a job in advertising.>>43402837I have not lmao, is it good?
How is your dating life OP?Do you tell those people what you did?
>>43402844I had just read that like the male prostitution industry is a lot more competitive and that like customer service was a lot more important, and I was wondering how that translated into how women wanted to be treated.
>>43402818Anon please don't kill yourself. As someone who was on that ledge for the better part of 2 years it gets better. But I think feeling envious of people is normal. When I was in middle school I was really envious of the popular kids who had sex before anyone else, and when I was a slut I was envious of people in relationships, I have been in relationships now and I have been envious of people who are free to fuck and kiss whoever they want. It's all coming from the mind. And I think it's normal to hear of this shit and want to experience it and want something you never got to. And even I can admit it sounds really hot and erotic the whole underage prostitute thing. But you have to value what you have and who you are and accept all of it. We love you
>>43402844Nta but elaborate on how that woman tortured u and why she wanted to kill u ?Have any other women wanted to do painful (hot) stuff to u ? (like ballbusting for example)Am I crazy for being jealous of u and wanting to be a whore myself as a straight (bottom) guy ?
>>43402917It's decent but not great. I tell everyone as I think it's unfair to date someone while hiding my past. And even those who accept me it's hard cuz my trauma and stuff. I prefer dating women desu tho, but yea it's rough for me.>>43402960Oh 100% it was a little different for me cuz most of the people who ordered me where men just looking for a quick nut. But I treated some of them good if they treated me good. And I always made sure to treat my female clients like royalty basically lmao
>>43401891did you ever have a client you wanted to date/be in a relationship with?>t. wants to date past john
I'm glad you're doing better. How much did you make doing it, and what did you spend it on? I'm guessing you moved out and are away from your shitty parents now?
>>43403207>>43403178>>43403151this is a blue board you sick fuck
>>43403207damn. any chance of inheritance?
>>43403014>emotionslopI asked you why I would be jealous of you when your position is inherently unenviable; to be treated as an object for basic subsistence, a position only borne out of loathing for you?Fuck off with this absolute slop advice. I don't love myself because I am not "normal", or "notable", or wahtever the hell I want to be. This "mainline above-average/notable" individual amongst the fags and trannies, that's what I want to be, and that's what I'll never be, because I didn't spread my asscheeks at 15 and never will because that age passed five years ago.from the bottom of my heart, go fuck yourself for this trashy "advice".also>>43403178>porn>it's niggerdickew ew ew pozzed alertask me how i know your breath stank
>>43403260Prob not. It's all prob just going to my brother. Engineer, smart, married. Everything I'm not desu>>43403250Whats a blue board? How is it different?
>>43401891did the guys just treat it like a casual hookup? basically shush you, do whatever they want and then kick you out straight after? or did you have some clientele who wanted to cuddle after and do aftercare for you? any broken bird saviour types that you remember?
>>43403151>Once money is involved it makes people treat you like an object they can abuse, and it makes your mental state go to shitWhat if Im exactly into this ? Is reality bad compared to fantasy ?Im not only a bottom Im a masochist too... lol..Also btw do u miss being a whore ?Sorta related but damn I love latinas and cute latinos... hope it all didnt fuck u up too much...Maybe u should post a few pics of urself sfw or nsfw if ur feeling brave ?
>>43403151Oh my God, I am so so so sorry you had to go through that. I'm so glad it sounds like you're in a better place now...
>>43403287>Whats a blue board? How is it different?a SFW board
>>43403151how old was she?
>>43403178some guy on another board said once that he got sexually abused by some older woman as a kid but turned it around and now he's a sex addict and loves having sex with women. from this pic it seems like something similar happened with you. i really hate it because it also seems to be in the same vein as those new agey spiritual theories that we choose what struggles we experience in this life to grow from them and i myself even had a dream where a voice told me "Some people choose to be tortured in this life so that they have an advantage in the afterlife.". i honestly am a bit jealous that you get to enjoy sexuality in this bold explicit way like posting pics like this with your stuff casually. ive had issues with sexuality since i was a kid because of my mental illnesses making me think i get bad luck for masturbating and some religious anti-sexuality influence. what you said about the woman who tortured you and tried to kill you is terrifying though. also, in regards to what i said, do you or anyone else think there's any advantage I'll get or way i can turn my own suffering around? Ive been abused severely my whole life even now into adulthood. ive had really bad supernatural experiences and issues with family members practicing occult shit. lots of times even yesterday i thought "nothing justifies what i went through in this life." i keep losing the things i want. i have basically no hope that I'll ever be happy in this life and I'm always jealous and lost so much shit i wanted like being able to transition and other things. so i guess I'm asking if anyone thinks theres any way my suffering will turn into something actually good. i really hate my life
>>43403861>i honestly am a bit jealous that you get to enjoy sexuality in this bold explicit way like posting pics like this with your stuff casually. also literally last night my mom was telling me something similar about someone she knew whose daughter would "behave inappropriately" whenever men were present and the person she knew told her something really bad happened to her as a kid but she wouldnt say what. it got me thinking about this same theory and made me feel jealous. i wouldnt openly speak about this but seeing a few others in this thread be honest that they're jealous of you OP made me decide to say this.
>>43401891Rooty noooo
>>43403861>>43403894this and then the image you used for the op too... i am jealous of people who can enjoy sexuality as boldly and strongly as this.
>>43403861>but turned it around and now he's a sex addict and loves having sex with womenWhat if for my part it made me a sex addict who hates sex>t. not OP
>>43403965>What if for my part it made me a sex addict who hates sex idk. my own experience with sexuality was some brony kid i knew at 11 telling me what eating someone out is on twitter and being exposed to hentai and porn and that gross ass looking rule 34 porn of cartoon characters. then my home life got worse and i got more addicted to hentai and masturbating in different ways and even did autofellatio on myself a few times. the worst thing that happened i wont say though. but then when i was 13 one morning when i masturbated in the morning before school for the first time something bad that never happened to me before happened that day at school and from then on i always thought masturbating gave me bad luck. i had lots of issues with it and even now sometimes still do. i was an ultra jealous incel type until i was 15 and got addicted to sex with my ex but i was still in denial about being trans and shit. now i wanted to transition but i have severe family problems (and spiritual problems but only other schizos relate) that prevented me from being able to transition. i even tried spearmint tea today and it actually worked and my chin is visibly smaller and i feel similar effects as when i was on estrogen but im also on psych meds and i think my heart has been beating faster and more strongly today because of the tea so i cant fucking drink it anymore but it literally fucking works. though i think i might also be hormonally intersex because of stuff i noticed when i was on estrogen so that may be why it worked more easily for me. im really sick of being jealous and repressed and having such a damn abnormal life. when am i gonna get the rewards for my suffering?
>>43404023take your pills nona
>>43404023for my part I have been repeatedly abused emotionally and sexually since I was 6, I also got unappropriatedly touched by my mom and my babysitter when I was 4-5 but I'm not sure if they did so willingly sexually.When I was like 8-9 I was flirting and saying inappropriate comments on online games, and kept on making orgies between my Sims on the Sims 4 on ipadThe abuse hasn't really stopped yet sadly
>>43404023lol also ive had fucking bedbugs for 3 years now because my sadistic abnormally fucked up father spread them throughout the house on purpose and we cant get rid of them, so i cant have a real physical social life let alone enjoy sexuality. and my mental illness is fucking torturing me and treatment isnt working cause my therapist is one of those people who thinks spirituality is fake and everything is just chemicals in youre brain and were just animated meat. like i cant do anything but endure all the shit im going through and it just doesnt get better. i grew up in a cult that im pretty sure worships a malevolent deity and now my mom is a Catholic so she gets to enjoy the benefits of having actual spiritual entities and remedies to protect her because she doesnt mind being a slave to a specific god. but i dont have any protection. i feel like im a wandering homeless person in a medieval anime and am sick and barely surviving. also because of the dream i had i think im gonna be miserable my whole life until i die. i have no hope at all and all the things i wanted got fucking taken away from me and my fucking mom keeps trying to convert me. like i had a dream where a bunch of Christians were talking to me and it was some group class setting and he was trying to convert me. the teacher/speaker dived into a river at the end trying to get something and basically sacrificed himself and died because an alligator ate him after. and then a few hours ago i had a dream where my mom told me that accepting her religion is a beautiful thing. but i dont want to be a slave of a deity. i hate religion. she at least apologized for everything she caused to happen to me recently. i think i have been getting tortured by a fucking hindu god or some other evil entity for years. and no one believes me or gives a shit.
I hate how hot this thread isEnjoy your ban OP uwu
>>43404114I FUCKING DID AND I WOKE UP HAVING HPPD VISUALS OR SOME SHIT. THEN MY FUCKING CLOSETED CHRISTIAN MOM WHO RAISED ME IN A CULT STARTED CRACKING MY MIND WITH HER CHRISTIAN PROSELYTIZING AND MY OCD TOLD ME IF I DONT HAVE THE VIAL IN THE RIGHT POSITION ON MY DESK ID GO TO HELL FOREVER SO I THREW IT OUT. IM TOO BROKE TO BUY ANOTHER ONE CAUSE I HAVE TO PAY FOR OTHER SHIT. I TRIED SPEARMINT TEA AND IT FEMINIZED MY FACE BUT ITS INTERACTING WITH MY PSYCH MEDS GIVING ME TACHYCARDIA OR SOME SHIT. I CANT BE ON HRT CAUSE MY FUCKING MOM WANTS ME TO GO BACK TO HER GLORIOUS EUROPEAN COUNTRY WITH HER NOW BECAUSE SHE REALIZED THAT HER STUPID FUCKING EXOTIC BLACK GUY CULT MEMBER EX HUSBAND MY FATHER WAS ACTUALLY AN EVIL ABUSIVE DEMON LIKE HITOMI FROM THE VISUAL NOVEL SAYONARA WO OSHIETE.I CANT GET AWAY FROM THESE FUCKING PEOPLE UNLESS I GO HOMELESS BECAUSE I AM TOO MENTALLY ILL TO FUCKING FUNCTION IN COLLEGE AND I HAD TO DROP OUT.
>>43404023>hen am i gonna get the rewards for my suffering?that's the thing nona, we don't, we have to grow out of it by ourselves
>>43401891Are you formerly a male but still a prostitute? Or formerly a prostitute but still male?
>>43404204dysphoria may wane but it will raise back againtake your pills whenever youre safe nonat. exmuslim mena tg
>>43404117>The abuse hasn't really stopped yet sadly i sure know how that feels, although its not sexual abuse. >>43404136i cant believe im going through this fucking shit still in adulthood. i feel like im still a helpless 12 year old. i remember looking up my old twitter username and seeing tweets from my mutuals saying stuff like "thats really awful i hope you and your mom find a way to get out of there soon :(". my mom also told me she had a dream that my father let something really evil possess him and he was in the bathroom in our house when it happened. i feel so helpless. this world is so cruel. i hate unfairness, suffering, and evil.
>>43404254can I add u on discord? You seem cool and relatableI was the OP of these posts
>>43402844>15>pedodo americans really?
>>43404215>we don't, we have to grow out of it by ourselves it's so hard. this world is like attack on titan or some shit. >>43404250it already is raising but i cant do anything. i think my mom has even been praying that i stop being trans or some shit cause i suddenly got bad luck and got called in for work unexpectedly a bunch of times while super sleep deprived and it led to me fucking up my hair while trying to fix it and then cutting it off. it took me nearly 2 years to grow it out and even then it was still short cause im half black. >>43404276aw thanks and sure :') you seem sweet and i also was a danganronpa kid when i was younger LMFAO my discord is snow.firefly (like the plastic tree song :D)
>>43404276>>43404325btw if youre underage im blocking your ass cause now i cant tell because of the age you said that stuff happened and your pfp
>>43404345i'm 21 chill
>>43404361ok bet twin gang type shit ima fwu
>>43404361>i'm 21...You interested in making a couple of hundred bucks, for old times' sake
>>43404402I mean you most likely don't even live in France
>>43404402shes the op of the posts she made not the op of the thread
>>43404450I mean, I'm actually pretty close to France. But I was joking, I don't get involved with shenanigans like this. Hope you can get better, Anon/nona/whatever
>>43404493Thanks Anon! And yes don't even worry about it I'm doing better
>>43401891i did that too. i think the creepiest one was like a weird pedo toad guy that was a sports coach for a middleschool or highschoolhe never fucked me but he always wanted to eat my ass and suck his dick and he'd give me a few hundred bucks about 1-2x a monthi didn't mind him cause he had a clean house, and bedroom but i think he did drug me sometimes cause he'd give me a drink and it'd loosen me up. more than a drink should, but never to the point i was unconscious. i just felt loose and relaxed. it kind of bothered me that he was a coach for kids but whatever. i was taking it for the team ya know..i guess he fucked me with his tongue.. but he never stuck his dick in my ass which i appreciated.
>>43403178>>43402389ofc you're into nogs lol
>>43401891How many incurable STDs did you get?
>>43402344Do you ever wish you could be loved like that again
>>43401891>>43403178>>43402389>Molested>Prostitute>Into blacked shotaMaaaaaaaaaayne....
