It's been 3 years. Three years on hrt and I just look like a man with gyno. And not in a bpd passoid way. Like I actually just look like A Man™ >friends and family: I think you already look quite feminine!Yeah. For a man!Just waiting for hrt changes bro, just waiting for hrt changes. Just gotta save thousands for laser/electrolysis to get rid of all this wretched body hair. Maybe if I'm lucky it'll all be gone by the time I turn 40.Just gotta save more thousands to get ffs and get rid of this huge brow ridge and chin. Maybe if I'm lucky I'll look like a butch woman in the right light.Just gotta wait for these cone tits to fill out. Just gotta raise my larynx. Just gotta ignore my linebacker frame and flipper feat.And the hair. The fucking hair.What's the point? I can never undo the masculinization I went through. I've wasted the prime of my life as a mentally ill shut-in tranner and there's no prospect of fulfilling this stupid dream of mine, so what's the point?And I knew! I fucking knew since I was 5 that I wanted to be a woman, but by the time I even learnt trans people existed I was 18 and it was already too late! I'm so resentful to society for not teaching me that trans people exist.The first guy I crushed on will never love me the way I want him to. I'll never look like Clairo. And I'll spend the rest of my life in HRTrep limbo with the only consolation being that I won't become the next John50.Literally the only thing keeping me here right now is that I like shopping for trinkets and decorating my room, and I'm incredibly scared of failing a suicide. But what's the fucking point anymore?
>>43402153>I just look like a man with gynoLets all see what the fuss is about
Kiria?
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>>43402208Nop
>>43402215>male hairstyle>thick eyebrows>sweater>no or little makeup>no necklace, no rings, no jewellery whatsoever apart from a puny fag earringyou idiot.
>>43402215grow your hair out, put on makeup and accessorize dumbass. You are literally presenting in a masculine way, stop complaining when you can change so much. Holy fuck. You guys spend all day on here or in other male circles and it shows
>>43402215Never post on this board again, I am so fucking serious.
>>43402215you look like a soft boy. you could've got a better and longer hairstyle than that in 3 years
>>43402253>:(
>>43402263Yeah I know. I did have long hair but I periodically go through phases where I feel like I need to commit to manmoding because I want to prevent bad interactions in public.
>>43402215You had 3 years to at the very least grow your hair out
>>43402215>do literally nothing to try and appear female>appear malewowie zowie, how could this be?!
>>43402247I get that those things help, but I guess I wish that I could look feminine enough for those things not to be necessary in the first place. Like in an ideal world I would've a tomboy who passes without any of those things
>>43402408would've been*
>>43402380you need to commit to 'femmoding' if you wanna pass you idiot
>>43402390women literally do nothing and appear female
>>43402433and you’re not a woman lil nigga so get to work
>>43402433Yeah that's what I'm saying
>>43402408the world isn’t ideal. You need to play with what you are dealt. There are cis women who get shouted at for being male when they have short hair too. You just wanna have it easy and when you don’t get that, you give up
>>43402215You look like a lesbian
>>43402380You can manmode with long hair
>>43402215tbqh I think you look fine, most people look uncanny as fuck and it's not a big deal.
>>43402468Yeah it's true. And I'm definitely gonna grow my hair back out for this reason
>>43402494Thanks
>>43402459A few people here have said this. I have to admit I don't really see it. But I'm glad some people do I guess.
>>43402251I think I'm not really interested in makeup or accessorizing though. If I'd been on hrt before testosterone puberty, I would still be presenting in a largely masc way. What I desire is a body that is more feminine, not a change to my personal style of that makes sense. Like I basically want to look like a butch woman.
>>43402707even butch women accessorize and can weak make up, morondon’t be lazy. You wanna look more feminine or passing? You got options and you are actively choosing not to pursue them
>>43402730Idk I don't think it's moronic to lament testosterone puberty but also not want to wear makeup & jewelry.Like I saw a lady the other day who was dressed in exactly the same sort of clothes as I am in that picture, except she looked unambiguously like a woman because of her height and face shape.
>>43402215lel fuckin nadzee
>>43402215why have you never grown your hair into a feminine haircut, thats like the most obvious and easiest thing you could have done. not even lesbians have it this short
>>43402942I have
