any other 30+ manmoders like to go through profiles of those who were born decades after you and imagine what could have been?
>>43402857I can dwell on what could've been or I can be grateful I can afford multiple surgeries
>>43402964what if you couldn't?
>>43403005id look for a job
>>43402857It's not healthy, focus on the now and your future
>>43402857No that sounds insane
>>43402857Wait so like you just look at the surgery results of youngshits or something?
>>43402857no that makes me suicidal i try not to do that anymore i did used to do it a lot though now i go for silly walks and look at deer when im sad
>>4340285731 y/o here (my birthday was last week)I absolutely doI keep thinking about where I was and who I was 10-15 years ago and I remember the dysphoria, the way that I would try on my mother's makeup while pretending to shower and then scrub it off, I try to remember what the world was like and I genuinely do not recall seeing many gay flags 15 years ago or there being any kind of events at my school, any kind of guidance for this type of stuff2010~ feels like a century ago, the only trans people we saw were ugly hons because the trans movement and the support was nowhere near what it would become later so of course no one wanted to be that in public, imagine Rocky Horror Picture Show being one of the only representations and how much people made fun of itI try to imagine what it would be like for me if I was born 5-10 years later and belong to the cohort of gigapassing gen Z dolls instead of a millennial who repressedit feels like trans rights and trans topics really only started picking up steam 2016+ long after all of the feminist discourse of the early 2010s and by that point I was already a repping blue collar workerit is what it is and I did get to see Dodgeball and Shrek in theaters as a kid so there are positives of being a millennial(picrel is the average millennial style that I wish I would have worn as a teen)
>>43405152I relate to all of this (inlcuding seeing dodgeball and shrek)
>>43405052Yes. And those who pass without surgery.
>>43405152are these trannies
>>43406889mwah>>43406962one may be but at least two of them are cis
>>43405152I do want to add to this that I feel like there's an especially painful feeling when realizing that it is specifically millennials and the progressive mindset we have that enabled gen Z dolls to live their best lives. It was us who were so hellbent on pushing body positivity, inclusivity, etc, but it's gen Z who get to run because we walked. You have to give us some credit because back in our day the only trans people were hons who had no social support and we were all cheering in support of trans rights, it's easy to support trans rights now when so many trans women look beautiful but back then it was like fighting for a future we didn't know would look any better than fishy bricks and drag queens.To know that my generation is responsible for paving the way for younger and prettier trans women makes it especially melancholic to think about.
>>43402857For me being a zillennial/younger millennial trans woman, it's definitely kind of weird since most of us exist in that awkward middle ground between the good ending and the bad ending.I definitely feel privileged that I got to avoid the truly bad ending that befell many older millennial and gen-x+ trans women; you know, the whole coming out post wife & kids stuff, not to mention the decades of testosterone poisoning. But yeah, I do sometimes look at the pictures and tiktoks of younger zoomer trans girls and it's like, jesus fucking christ, if only I had been born a decade later that could have been me. Instead of being an awkward twinkhon perma-androgynous sometimes passing, sometimes not trans woman, I could have been a gen-z passoid trans girl. With the knowledge that I have now, and the hrt regimen that I'm currently on, the likelihood that I would have had significantly better results and a better social life would have been astronomically higher.
>>43405152do you not have a trans sister
>>43407360I do, that's a complicated story because I essentially spent years of my life helping her through depression and transition while the medical system completely failed her, and all through repressing. Well, it's actually the fact that I preferred having a living sister than focusing on myself that I put all of my efforts on her instead of myself and only when the weight came off my shoulders did I realize I no longer had a purpose and could not stop myself from unearthing old skeletons.but that's a long story that isn't good to share on 4chin
if teenaged me were alive today she'd be on diy E from bitcoin she scammed and stole30s will reptildeath and try to channel it into art and work
>>43402857no i like to look at the stuff of people who born around the same time as me but had better opportunities and less obstacles and even people older than me or people that in the same boat as you but definitely set with few things better than you and have a lot of prospects that shit hits the hardest
>>43402857Im not a manmoder but im. almost 40 and year looking at younger generations hurts.I turned out pretty well for a mid 30s transitioner but holy fuck I would have actually been hot if I had done this in my late teens/early 20s. It pisses me off so bad what was taken from us and how traumatized we were by society.
>>43402857I don't LIKE to noit's very painful
