do you anons ever feel like you're missing the animalistic parts of life? like i live so far removed from nature its not even funny. i live alone in an apartment in a city and even though i walk to work theres very little greenery, like i cannot remember the time i physically touched a plant. i stare at numbers and talk on the phone all day doing tasks that didn't exist when my grandparents were born. i work like 12h/day and don't have much energy for friends, the ones i do have are like colleagues and we talk about our field mostly. i dont have time/energy to cook so i get those mealkits shipped to me so i can eat healthy. i eat every meal at home or at work. im a tranny, so i'll never have kids and am reliant on weekly injections. i havent had sex in like 6 months and havent had good sex in 2 years (4y hrt). its been a month since i touched another human being at all. all in all, my transition is going well, i'm healthy, no addictions etc, but sometimes i just wish i had like a den. not a puppy thing, just like i wish i could have a husband and he and his friends would kill a boar and butcher it and i would wash his cuts and cook/preserve the food and we'd have kids together and live in a multi generational house/tight village.
>>43409216>cont.and the tranny thing gets to me a lot, im a midshit so its not fully over, but i have issues w/ my body and see it mostly as my greatest enemy rather than feeling embodied in it. this has gotten a lot better post-trooning, but i just dont think ill ever feel normal or like a creature in nature idk
>>43409264bump
>>43409216yes so I do a lot of unhinged and self destructive behaviors to keep it in check. I even stopped hrt not to be natural but to become more wild. embodiment desu is like thing separate from trans I think trans can be an expression of embodiment rather than a means to it.
>>43409216I have been declared dead on 3 seperate occasions for different reasons
>>43410290what do you do?>>43410382what were the reasons?
