>busted hrt repper twinkhon >been told minimal ffs would save but ill never afford>spend majority of my life not believing love exists and just le animal breeding chemicals for goyniggers im above>meet my ex bf, ftm short and non passing but idc he’s just a man to me, edgy & bitter but deep and really nice and loving always treats me like a woman and really loved me even rejected cisfoids and passoids interested in him for me even tho he’s disgusted by dick and wants pussy, never asks me to top, wants long term>says he wants to be a better man for me & i mean world to him, but so emotionally fucked and dysphoric i cant be the loving supportive gf & eventually wife i want to be he deserves and no idea how to adapt to being loved or accept myself as a woman>he deserves better so nuke the relationship lying its because it’s making me feel pathetic and cringe because i want him to have better>think ill go back to my normal leddit intellectual misanthrope aromantic moid self >i don’t months later im still feeling nauseous and stomach pain non stop and cant stop crying or dreaming about him, hear how he got attached to someone else who rejected him but cry so hard and feel torn up inside, ive had cismoids hit on me since even one dl chad but idec, i really cant imagine being with anyone else and dont want anyone else, i just love and want to be with and marry him and accept im a woman and be as good of a wife and woman as i can and spend every day trying to make him happy and feel better and see himself as the amazing wonderful perfect man he is, i tried to make myself indifferent or hate him and go cold again but i cant being away from him feels suffocating and i panic, we still friends & said he still liked me too but said he doesnt think its good to get back together because it makes me hate myself, it hurts so fucking badly how do i just go back to my old self anons? :(
>>43412079Go get your man back
>>43412079message him
>>43412126>>43412145i can’t, i mean i can but, im pretty sure he’s over me, the foid he liked who rejected him had him posting about how lonely he is and will die alone etc so i dont think i mean that way to him anymore, like i said before he drunk texted me one night asking if he could fuck me & ‘no i don’t wanna fuck you actually i just wanna love you’ but then said the bit about not thinking it’s good idea to date again because i said i hate myself when i said how i rejected some cis moid into me at time so i havent brought idea up ever, i dont want to lose him as a friend too
>>43412240You need to swallow your pride and talk with him about or else you’re just gonna be stuck like this for the rest of time
>>43412240just message him
enjoy your bf bitch., fuck you, T. REAL LEDDIT INTELLECTUAL MISANTHRRORPE AROPMATNIC MOID LOVE ISNT REAL
>>43412290>>43412295ig i haven’t actually said any of this to him i have here or how i do want to change, idec about repping the embarrassment of being a hon anymore or being cringe i want to be a woman if i can just be one with him, im just terrified of the rejection because it hurts so badly already this long i cant imagine how bad it’ll hurt, but he’s already suicidal & tried recently and yeah the thought of him dying without saying it is also scary >>43412314rude :( he’s not even my boyfriend anymore he doesn’t even like me now
>>43412455Bitch just talk to him you leaving obviously hurt him you both need each other
>>43412455ask him to meet up for a coffee/walk and chat, especially after the sui attempt and given your realizations. might be that knowing these things changed, he'd still be open to it - or at least put it out there and let things be for a while, maybe see if he'd like to hang out sometimedon't self-eliminate the possibility of having your man, nona
>>43412617yeah ok i need him, i can’t deny that anymore, but i don’t think he needs me (i asked him if we can talk later anyway and he said sure because he doesn’t have work today just getting his car from mechanic but im dreading this so much..)
>>43412739It just kinda sounds like his life has been in a rutt since yall broke up he got rejected and tried to attempt dude he needs you as much as you need him but even if it’s not true at least try your hardest get your man back please update tho
>>43412079op - i have to take my cat to the vet & back and go shopping but i have to talk to him soon because i set it up now, anybody got any last minute advice what im supposed to say? my stomach is knotted
>>43412240>then said the bit about not thinking it’s good idea to date again because i said i hate myself when i said how i rejected some cis moid into me at time so i havent brought idea up ever, i dont want to lose him as a friend tooidk just be honest with him about how you feel >>43412455>i haven’t actually said any of this to himyou gotta. for real. dont just assume it wont work give him the full info and let him decide if he wants to try. not fair to either of you to forever what could have been
>>43413049>got any last minute advicemaybe go through the main points and write them down like an outline so you dont forget to get everything out and then do that thing where after your like 'oh no i didnt say xyz' and you can hit all the important things and elaborate on each one without getting caught up in one and forgetting the others so they have the full context and can gauge whether its really not a good idea or they wanna try again too. like actually tell them tho put everything on the table dont make them guess or leave things ambiguous so you never have to 'what if'
Fucking chad t boy over here
Why couldn't you afford Qassemyar?If you're patient enough to wait like 18 months lol.
>>43412079>>spend majority of my life not believing love exists and just le animal breeding chemicals for goyniggers im aboveyou get exactly what you deserve mr wizard
