being human and trans and having to search for meaning in this wretched existence is utterly demoralizing. i dont understand it at all. what am i supposed to do?
>>43414913Nothing, you sit down, and breath. You look at the floor under you and the walls around you. You think not of them as a prison, but think about the lives of the trees, of the rocks that led to their creation. Think about the people who built the house, the hairs, skin detritus, the tiny remenants buried under the floorboards. Think of the dust mites and millions of creatures who call one strand of that hair home. Realize that you too, are just a creature in the endless tide of life, and let go. Fighting the current hurts, flow with it, accept that nothing is permanent, and try and enjoy looking at the fish as they float by
trans people aren't actually humanyou are more like worker bees, you just do what you are told and live as willing slavesthe moment you decided your misandrist ruminations were validated as "sex dysphoria" you revoked all claims to sapience
>>43414937Look at that fish, it's a fascinating one!!
>>43414931dont invoke that dbt horseshit with me.BEGONE VILE CREATURE.
>>43414963Dognitive brain theruppy
>>43414913Party like there’s no tomorrow
>>43415052meth or heroin?
>>43414963It really helps, though. Sounds like it has worked for you before but you’re choosing to wallow in self-pity this time. Rather than take accountability, you’re choosing to destroy your life and neglect yourself. Do you not have responsibilities or anyone/anything you care about in your life?
Maybe I'm an NPC but I really hate living in an era where there isn't really anything on which to base my life. Religion turned out to be fake, ideology is futile, community is dead. I am incapable of creating my own meaning.
>>43414913>>43416585Also, you’re not supposed to find meaning, you’re supposed to create it for yourself. The fact that you haven’t killed yourself and you’re asking these questions means you do want to get better. You wish someone would help you find meaning and console you, eh? Did you push those people away and now regret what you’ve done, what you’ve said to them?
>filenameOh look, I was 100% correct.>>43416585>>43416663
>>43416585>>43416663>>43417130What are you even on about?
>>43414931She knows what you said works. I did this with her and she was happy in those moments. Some people are in love with their own misery, don’t want to better themselves and admit their own feelings of loneliness or want for affection.
>>43414913You didn’t save this image or else it would’ve had a randomized image name. It’s your image. Why do you post these suicidal threads? Especially when you know I’ll recognize them since you use the same images or even images of you/your backyard?Is it really that hard to say you’re sorry? You’d rather destroy your closest friendship than admit you want help?
>>43417233youre creepy.
>>43417301Are you mentally disabled? We were friends for over 5 years. You’re crashing out, have destroyed your relationships, and have been suicidal. No one in my real life that I’ve asked has thought I was crazy for being worried about you. Any of them would’ve checked in on you in person. To think I almost believed the awful things you said to me. I’m creepy? You destroyed the gifts I gave you, called me some of the most awful things, lied about our relationship, and blamed me for your life being in shambles.You should NOT own guns. You need to get your ass up, act like an adult and seek mental help. Isn’t that what you told me? Isn’t that what you TOLD me to tell you? You’ve done it before. You KNOW it works. You tell your roommate all the time to do the DBT sheets you have!!!
I haven’t been able to get proper sleep in the past month thinking you’ve killed yourself. I cry every few nights ruminating on the terrible things you said to me. I hate myself. I often wish I was dead. I genuinely cared about you. You made me laugh, we shared so many interests, I let you into my life despite you knowing how difficult it is for me to make friends and trust others. I gave you so much of myself, Olivia.
I was such a good friend to you, and you know it.I never even needed you to love me or give me half the affection I gave you I never expected much from you besides your company which we both enjoyed. I expect so little from others and I was okay with it.But I never deserved you treating me this way.
just follow along with the current zeitgeist. be an absolutely horrible person, and look for opportunities to gain superiority over anyone you encounter. stay on the side of the law, but get ready to cheat, deceive, and antagonize. man or woman, it is the only way to stay sane nowadays. i'm not trans, and i can only imagine how much worse it must be for you; for that i am so sorry. but people are shit regardless. treat others like dirt, because they will do the same to you.
>>43417407HAHAHA Sane??? That’s exactly what she did and she’s more suicidal than ever. She said not too long ago that suicide is on her mind every waking moment. SHE treats people that love her like shit.
These fish have grown increasingly worrysome to look at.With what little power we have in this fleeting reality, I'm gonna eat a snack and watch a childhood tv show.OP you could be doing the same
>>43417424>>43417402>>43417386>>43417348tldr on this drama?
I hope every time you see a rabbit in your backyard, go to a museum, pass by a cat cafe, and even turn to look at your passenger seat, you remember me and the kisses and affection we shared. And that it is immediately followed by the dread I’ve felt the past month, you realizing you destroyed it all because you refuse to let people care for you and you refuse to be responsible enough to do what you know is best.You want to threaten me with telling me you hope I search for your name in obituaries?You’ll see my face and remember my voice anytime you try to do anything you enjoy, things you always asked me to accompany you with in person and online.
>>434174954chan chaser moid dumped her and she took her anger out on me and blocked me because I asked her to communicate. Is angry I assume that’s the reason while refusing to tell me what is wrong. Angry I ask. She’s been suicidal for a long time and is now at the lowest point in her life besides her former addiction.
>>43417561sounds like a real gem.
>>43417607She was sweet and funny when she was at her best. Loves animals, nature, sci-fi, games, other stuff we both like. She’d excitedly explain things to me in such detail at museums I didn’t need to read the info. She had a lovely glint in her brown eyes, a silly wide smile when she explained things I didn’t understand. Could be affectionate and adorably clingy, asking me to accompany her for the most mundane tasks. I genuinely loved her and she chose to destroy my self-esteem, sense of worth over a man.
>>43417499I also think of lago whenever I see rabbits
>>43417775My coworkers tell me they always think of me when they see rabbits, lol. They show me rabbit memes they saved for me at work. So I know the same is happening to OP. Good. She needs to remember all she had and all she threw away.
>OP dead silentlago I think you killed olive
>>43418506Nah, she just shuts down when confronted with the reality of her actions. Baby deer coded.
>FAT>GOBLINAActually morbidly obese!
>>43417233>You didn’t save this image or else it would’ve had a randomized image nameWhat do you mean by this? Are you not able to rename files on your computer?Also, this image exists in multiple locations on the internet, not just here. Saving from from one of those locations would yield a different filename.And finally, the absolute cherry: ever heard of a copy-cat?Now whatever you do, don't take your meds.
>>43420513She didn’t save the image off 4chan. It’s Olive posting because there are only two instances of this image being used at all in the archives of this board and both have the same exact file name. Posted within the same month too.Plus her replies confirmed it. She’s extremely averse to continuing DBT despite being manic and Borderline. Says the same phrases, calling people vile for merely suggesting it or calling me creepy for being worried about a suicidal friend with multiple guns who has posted pics of them in her mouth.
>>43414931Breathe. Sit down and breathe.
>>43421620Hold up, bitch. Sit down. Be humble.
>>43421886Hey, can you stop calling me a bitch? Thanks.
>>43414913Trans people already have designated jobs and roles, you're just not looking far back enough
>>43421922They’re Kendrick Lamar lyrics, uncultured swine.
>WAHHHH WAHHH I am a passoid with a job that paid for my ffs and I have people who care about me but I come to 4chan to bully disabled hons that can’t work fuck you oliver
>>43421974what? hookers? v-codees?
>>43422238Spiritual workers, medicinal/herbal workers, decoders and translators for "in-between" space (internet, dreams, nature), artists and designers, lore keepers, working with the dead, and caretaking for the sick or elderly.
>>43422238cock sleeves
>>43422415kek
>>43422260my ass
what a disgusting picrel desu
>>43414913HAVE YOU CONSIDERED A CAREER IN THE MILITARY?!?!
>>43424193it's probably a joke but even so i hate jokes of this kind
>>43417386>>43417499holy shit she dodged a bullet
>>43424193She sent me pictures of dead rabbits knowing I have two pet bunnies. She liked to shock me like that. Sent gore towards the end and trans women hate crimes pics.
>>43424288conejo dodged a bullet. olive is a schizo racist hon that was known to bully everyone she thought was better than her.
>>43424233it’s from an actual vid of the kitten being tortured and killed. sorry. from that guy im that netflix documentary.
>>43424561are you a cripple?
>>43424768mental illness is a disability
I’m spite of it all, I will always care about you. I will always hope we can be friends again someday. The memories we shared together in person and playing toys online are some of my happiest with a friend. Please please please take care of yourself. Do DBT, take those silly meds. You know they help. You’re worth it. I know you can be good.
>>43425438sis is a simp
>>43425475Caring about my best friend of several years isn’t simping. I don’t understand why she/you thinks I only care because I found her attractive and had a stupid puppy love crush. I care about her because we shared a lot of time and interests together, she was funny, and she was occasionally good at listening. It was nice having an intelligent person with a sense of humor to talk to regularly. And we shared good memes together.I’m not a gooner chasoid who wanted to jizz and jet. It makes me sad she thinks that. I thought I did a good job of being a friend and listening to her whenever she was hurt.She has forgiven people in her life who have done far worse, and it pains me she ghosted me because I was afraid she’d kill herself and because I asked her to communicate. Yeah, I was pushy when it came to her opening up but I never had bad intentions.
>>43425475bro has never had friends
>>43416617https://youtu.be/hLGMm6c_BCA?si=OfSCmUtz6QOICfeV4:50 onwards
>>43426430You know he ended up committing seppuku, right? Probs not the best video for this thread…
crazy thread even for this boards standards
>>43427117you should’ve seen OP / olive’s threads back in the day. she fucks horses and blacks.
>>43425475did lago treat you like a boyfriend when she visited you?
>>43427501Lago deadnamed her and olive’s little sissy clitty got hard
>>43427623IT SHOULD’VE BEEN ME
>>43426006Olive doesn’t understand friendship because she has never had a friend likely due to her repulsive personality we all warned you about, lago
>>43417499>>43417668i’ve been in a similar situation with an ex gf. all i can say is i’d take you out for a drink because holy fuck. take care of yourself and know that you will find someone worth your time love and effort
Make yourself happy in the deepest, most fulfilling way you personally can. So not just eat ice cream and shoot heroin until you OD, more like philosophically define the most rewarding relationship between you, humanity, nature, life and death, and then attempt to find a path between where you're at right now and the point where you are serving those goals as efficiently as you can.
>>43428569Thank you. <3 It has been comforting talking to people who’ve gone through something similar. Wish you the best too.Wish OP would talk to others to feel some comfort too.
>>43414913why would you post that image
