>pre-t, not out to family>mother almost caught on and punished me for it so now I wear makeup every time I see her.>short and fat from antipsychotic medication.>I am constantly given opportunities but am too much of a self hating retard to actually accomplish anything. I can have anything (within reason) that I want and I'm still unhappy.I could have a great life but no matter what I do, every second I'm wishing I was a guy. I'm too autistic to move away from my parents and transition but I wish I could. I want to go be the man I an inside but I am too pathetic to do anything about it. https://litter.catbox.moe/fuuu4gcsmfagfybp.pngthats me. I think my nose is quite masculine and if I lost some cheek pudge I would have a good jaw. but I am not sure. it's hard to judge yourself. I've been staring at me for my whole life. my opinion is going to be warped.I would kill to look like nathan fielder. he just looks like some guy. I think that's a realistic transition goal because I can't change the permanent retard stare I have.
>>43427130I really amd wholeheartedly suggest not posting your face on here which you already did granted its in a litter box but still, people on here are nasty and mean and will grind you down and make your self esteem worse. Of course you can pass, in think youd make a cute twink. Is there a way you can start DIY?
>>43427130I love Nathan Fielder
>>43427157I'm definitely interested in diy, I take supplements like zinc that's supposed to increase test but I think thats more of a placebo.. I'm going to get a job so I can actually buy minoxidil (did not think it was that expensive..)
>bleached hair>face piercings>sh scars on arms>sh scars in generalAssuming you're under 5'10" (which you most likely are since you describe yourself as "short") you are most likely ngmi, at least not as a masculine man. Too terminally fembrained. You could take your chances with diy and maybe twink (cuntboy) maxx and make bank with an of or something, but theres a good chance you'll just look like the pooner drawings, especially if you aren't planning on losing any weight.
>>43427232that is my big fear. I would not mind cuntboymaxxing as long as I can be reallt hairy. height is not that big of a concern because while I am short, so is my entire family and they still look like men. I would rather be a fat shitstache theyfab poon than continue repressing and hating myself for not at least trying. my weight will not change until I am able to not take antipsychotics but I am trying to go to the gym. so the weight is more muscle instead of fat. I apexiqte you being honest with me, I prefer that rather than hugboxxing
>>43427339How tall are you and how tall is your dad/brother/closest male blood relative?
Sorry you hate yourself so much. Taking testosterone and wearing more masculine clothes is much easier than working through whatever you have going on.Wouldn't be surprised if you were underage, in which case your options are more limited as you should stay in school.Just get a stupid job if you haven't already. Cover your scars with a thermal. You can go to planned parenthood for informed consent, I hear Mostly decent experiences, and you can always switch doctors if one insists on poondosing you. Otherwise, DIY is inexpensive, I want to say less expensive than the legal route if you do not have insurance.You don't know what you will look like on testosterone. You will most likely pass, it's much easier to blend in with non-women than it is to blend in with women. Not that you look any more male than MtFs look female, but it's much easier to be viewed as nothing special, the default of the human race. Such is life, it makes us quite lucky.I've been on testosterone for several years and I still get clocked. I have a longer face than you and I definitely look pretty "normal" in comparison. It just is what it is, I cannot change my skull. However, when I meet women my age, I still am very grateful that I have been able to be on HRT. The changes are worth it, even if you don't get to where you want to be.You aren't going to look like anyone you can imagine. You can't imagine "Yourself, but more masculine". That's all I wanted when I started, and I still never imagined that I would look like who I do now, it's just different. And much better.You can learn to accept what you cannot change, and you will learn to appreciate what has, even if it is disappointing that you will never be born male.Your biggest concern should always be the roof over your head and food. Do not attempt to transition unless you have money and a plan to support yourself if you think your parents will kick you out. diyhrt.info
>>43427487money is no an issue because I live in a really liberal part of Canada but I have to be 19 to get hormones without my parents permission so I have to wait a bit.I think alot of my brainworms are from being online and an inflated sense of self importance. when I go in public nobody cares. there's not a spotlight on me. people in real life just walk past you.
>>43427675I'm not sure what it's like getting HRT in canada because you guys have public healthcare. Ask other canadians (On.. reddit) about their experiences. This includes the doses they are prescribed, their access to informed consent, and waitlists if applicable.Again, diyhrt.info
>>43427723i knew a guy who got on t through the canadian healthcare system. no idea if he had to wait or for how long but he did get poondosed and would secretly inject more than prescribed. seems like it could be worth accessing alongside diy
>>43427834That is a good idea. Doing both DIY and legal means you have a paper trail for when you want to get surgery as well. It also means you can travel and still bring testosterone with you. Good luck.
>>43427130Hot
>>43427130audibly said "damn bro" when I saw those arms bcuz damn, bro
>>43427130mentally ill woman thinks she is a man
>>43430321and you are into diaper porn so we all got issues
>>43430288and thats after more than a year of me trying to fade them ;-;
>>43427487I lived in the village near Matthew Broderick and Sarah Jessica Parker. Not sure if they're still married, too lazy to look it up, but they have some ugly kids who are grown up now. Anyway my point is he always looked completely miserable and she looked angry as fuck whenever I saw them together. The kids would be trailing behind them with a brown nanny (not really a nanny since they were already teens, but some kind of employee and the kids seems more attached to her).
>>43427130The only reason it's over is because you call yourself a faggot poon and post on this stupid website. Touch grass and your life will get better.
>>43427130>feminizes herself because of mommy issues>obese, on antipsychotics, calls herself an autistic faggot>acknowledges that she refuses to take initiative yet still complains>https://litter.catbox.moe/fuuu4gcsmfagfybp.pngHoly shit, this isn't bait? Every trait checks out, and then some.This is the opposite of repression, it's her destiny and completely expected behavior from the modern female. She's the embodiment of a histrionic BPDemon that'll inevitably get over it, but hopefully she'll mutilate herself before then. Women facing the consequences of their actions is exhilarating.Troons seriously need to take notes from these types of women, it doesn't get any more insufferably feminine than this.
>>43427130This board is 18+ lil buddy, the walls in the background of your pic are clearly from an American school building
>>43437185hello fat angry man did you poop ? in your diaper?
>>43427232Dyed hair and piercings honestly don't affect your ability to pass unless they are explicitly feminine like piercings of butterflies and flowers or something.
>>43427675Give me your Discord. I can hook you up with DIY in Canada, but best not be ratting out the dealer on a publicly archived forum, you know?
>>43437185The most APG Hons are always the ones that take issue with Trans men. When a Troon doesn't pass and knows it you call it boymoding. When a Poon doesn't pass and knows it they are Faketrans.
>>4343730118 year Olds still go to high school.
>>43437301As a Canadian, not OP, those are rec centre walls.
>>43437337Boymoding is pathetic feminine behavior, fitting for MtFs. Any pooner can pass with miniscule effort, even tomboys (now extinct) get mistaken for young men. The ones that bitch about not passing and "girlmoding" just intentionally hyperfeminize themselves and make shitty excuses to avoid accountability.It shows that being on tutorial mode isn't enough for women, they always need to feel victimized and special. Validating her over-emotional delusions is an ironic mockery of men with real problems that she'll never be able to comprehend as a female. She should be thankful if anything.
