>be me>18yo virgin loser>download grindr>ugly guy hits me up, hes like 50yo>talk and schedule that he comes to pick me up>get driven to his place, his hand on my thigh>get to his place>we cuddle and he uses me as a blanket, i can feel him hard>im absolutely not erect, for someone who gets hard from greentexts>we get naked and he starts biting and kissing my nipples as i moan>he starts kissing me, turns me over and sucks my flaccid dick>he says he cant resist me and turns me over>starts fingering and eating my ass>i moan and yelp, never been touched by anyone there, never even put anything in my ass>it hurts but i dismiss it and let him continue>he turns me over again and starts kissing me, putting his tounge so far in my mouth>cuddle and kiss more>i ask him to get cigarettes and he obliges, goes to the gas station>i smoke my free cigs and he eats my ass some more>shower and leave, drive backthis was my first ever sexual experience and i didnt even get hard or like it much, maybe its because i take antipsychotics so my dick cant get hard. and the dude wasnt even hot, but i got free cigs so i guess its whatever. At least i wont die a neet with no sexual experience before i kms desu
>>43452365>ugly guy hits me up, hes like 50yobaka. you need to find a nice boyfriend not some random 50yo youve never met before holy fuick
>>43452381yeah, fair... i was just desperate, i regret it now
>>43452365nice picrel
>>43452385yeah you deserve better anon
>>43452365This is exactly what I do t want to happen to me but I’m gonna have to because I can’t find a suitable boyfriend
>>43452393its shitty really, i wish i had a hot bf that didnt only care about sex and wasnt ugly like this dude was, i regret it now
>>43452411i wish i had a boyfriend who was nice to me
>>43452416truth
I want a virgin gf to love so you guys better stop with this shit
>>43452365Nigga, wtf, why'd you do that?
>>43452474i was desperate
>>43452482For old ugly men?You know if you're that desperate, you could have desperately tried something better
>>43452488like what? i really didnt know what else to do
>>43452365i at least fucked some guys i met by femboyposting on discord before i turned to married 40 year olds on grindr after i turned 18, you should try that anon
even going to a gay bar is better than some random 50yo grindr man.
>>43452490Idk, people are getting hookups somehow, not just with old men
>>43452500i wish i had an actual hot man but everyone around me is old, unfortunare really...
I wish I didnt have social anxiety so i could do this. I cant even bring myself to download grindr. Im gonna die a virgin neet
>>43452491ill consider it
>>43452510i also have social anxiety, i cant talk to people at all, i was shaking and muttering the entire time, at least until i got cigarettes
>>43452509You're living in retirement area?Doubt that, you're just too stupid you've wasted your first time on a old man's rimjob
>>43452519hard to find anyone that isnt old in my area, at least thats the experience i have... yeah i guess your right about me wasting it..
>>43452513post your ass in some retarded amazon basics shit and talk to someone who's not a total creep and if they're not close enough to drive they might fly out or pay for a plane ticket for you. worst case you made some new friends at least
>>43452393same fml
>>43452365>antipsychoticsyou should stop taking them
>>43452564probably, i hate taking them anyways
>>43452566what do you take them for?
>>43452517i mean, atleast you were able to still do it. Thats something to be proud of. Im too afraid to even show my face online>>43452491not op but ive been femboyposting on discord for like a year now, and im still a virgin.
>>43452572i tried to kms in february so they just game me they after my attempt, apparently its to make me less aggressive"
>>43452583they really just hand that shit out for bullshit reasons these days. imo they're not worth taking unless you're actually hearing voices. plus they probably don't have you on enough to do anything other than side effects like making you tired all the time. i met a guy who was on 25mg of seroquel one time lol. idk what the fuck the point of that is
>>43452613yeah i agree, the meds i take are primarily for schizophrenia and bipolar. The funny part is i was neverr even aggressive towards anyone, i dont know the reason they gave me them
>>43452579i was doing it for like a year before i met someone who actually wanted to fly out and take my virginitythis was also like 7 or 8 years ago i think? and i gave it up after i started e so idk if shit's different now
>>43452579>>43452637nta but what kind of servers do you post in? like ones posted on here or soc or something?
>>43452533I didn't mean to say wasting it was too significant.. I just feel sorry for you being so lonely
>>43452777i probably wont do this type of thing again, but fuck i wish i didnt in the first place, yk?
>>43452831It's okay, obsessing over past isn't getting you anywhere. Just avoid doing shit like that in future, try different shit)