I wish I were a tranny instead of a cis man who took estrogen and regrets it
stop taking estrogen for good
>>43459040what if I one day realize im a troon tho
>>43459112do you have ocd
>>43459136idk maybe
>>43459144why did you start hrt? was it just in case you were trans, or was there a goal in mind for it?
>>43459112trans people aren't realjust crossdress in private
>>43459030i am a cis man on hrt
>>43459156I think I just wish I was trans bc I deeply hate myself and want to be a different person. I’ve always fantasized about restarting my life as a different person since I was a little kid. Then in a moment where I was really depressed I broke down and took e. Now I have reverse dysphoria but I wish I didnt
>>43459157The entire world is private, because no one else is actually sentient besides OP.
>>43459182why'd it settle on being trans to reinvent yourself? you could've still changed your name, gotten a new haircut, looked into new hobbies, all without the gender stuff. what's your reverse dysphoria like? is it, "i hate these boobs bc they're on a male body" or, "i hate these boobs i don't want them at all?". you should really figure out now if you should stop hrt or not
>>43459211bc I feel I would need to change my appearance drastically to feel like I’m a different person also if I were a different gender then I wouldn’t just fall back into normal behavior patterns. And my reverse dysphoria isn’t really like body horror it’s more just that I know deep down I’m male and it feels wrong and also I’m super self conscious bc I don’t want anyone to know I ruined my body
>>43459270so it feels wrong because you transitioned to have a different identity, one that isn't yours? i really feel like you have to confront whatever you did/were. why do you need to change everything, rather than just what you hated about yourself? and is what you hated about yourself worth hating? what did it prevent you from having/being?
>>43459270oh and btw, if you like being trans, you can just choose to be.
>>43459339I never transitioned I just took e. And the thing is I hate literally every part of myself, I hate my appearance, my personality and general essence, I hate my inner thoughts and I hate my childhood and basically every life experience I’ve ever had. So it’s not like I can just change one thing. I think the idea was that if I transitioned I would come up with a whole new personality and backstory and then over time I’d forget who I really am. But after taking e I came to my senses and realized that’s impossible bc there’s things I hate about myself that I can’t change and also I’m just stuck in my ways>>43459412ye that’s what I had thought but then I got reverse dysphoria
>>43459270you could be a different person as an mtftm https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-hDQA5BsNoY
>>43459030you sound like a tranny
>>43462244not really, I don’t have much in common with them
>>43459030Same, altho im not certain yet if i regret it or im just anxious.>>43459112This is also a mood too.Ig i should also consider >>43459412 It just fucking sucks cuz im entirely uncertain as to whether i do actually like it already. Or if it doesnt matter or if i might even end up disliking it if i stay on E longer or sth.
>learn what a transwoman is>start making preparations
>a cis man who took estrogen and regrets itone could say you are a... cis man on hrt.
>>43459165Fellow cis man on HRT, reporting in.
im a cis man on hrt but i dont regret it anymore, yes i hate having boobs but i also hate being a man but most of all i hate myself. it makes perfect sense that a loser like me would think he's trans and troon out into a failure. i deserve this and at this point im doing it to hurt myself.
>>43459211Trooning out is radical transfiguration
what if youre actually nonbinary and coping cause thats cringe?
>>43459030at least you wont go bald :/
>>43467126yea I took e due to self hate too. I think I would fine being a man but I would need to be different in every imaginable way>>43467470nonbinary is cringe bc it doesn’t exist, it’s effectively the same as calling yourself a cat
>>43467126Safe hatred is stupid and doesnt accomplish anything. You might as well beat off and then wonder why isnt your life fixed. Complaints and woe is me are self-indulgence.Just do what you gotta do, disassociate and stfu
>>43459030ok, tranny
>>43459030I fixed this through a simple list, more meat and more going out.The list of things I regretted turned out to be just one thing: i was touch starved and kinda retarded. While the list of things I liked was longer and it started with "hey, wtf? I actually like how I look"I'm still not a tranny, but no longer regret taking estrogen and continue to take it. Soon it will be one year since I've been with my bf and life has gradually improved to even be somewhat enjoyable.It seems your issue stems from having unreasonable expectations. Estradiol isn't magic, anon. It's a technological tool. It does some (subjectively) nice things at the cost of making some other things (subjectively) worse.>the idea was that if I transitioned I would come up with a whole new personality and backstory and then over time I’d forget who I really amYeah, that's unreasonable. Estrogen is not your problem, OP. Your mindset is.
>>43467845If female bodybuilders can take roids while still remaining cis, then cis men can also take estrogen.
>>43468272lol
>>43467808safe hatred fan vs imsecure love enjoyer
>>43468272das it mane
>>43468272ntafemale bodybuilders are chemically indisguishable from pooners. They just don't do top surgery.similarly, I am chemically indistinguishable from troons. I just don't do srs.just like female bodybuilders I do "crossdress" sometimes because why tf not.
>>43468226im not gay tho, if I were gay I’d prob regret it less. I literally just a normal straight dude who fell into this due to severe self hatred
>>43468553>im not gay thoI thought so too. But then slowly accepted that I'm proooobably at least a bifag.These days I'd probably say that I'm gay tho. I'm still kinda sorta attracted to women and some still do hit on me but I now legit love my bf. And sex with men is easier.
>>43468311I have a lot of safe hatred i just recognize its a useless emotion that's not worth fostering.Just figure out concisely what you need to change and then sybau and become a biological zog golem and disassociate and do the set of tasks that you have to do to get better.
>>43469744zased
>>43469510maybe I could convince myself I was attracted to men if I were a tranny or a cute twink but it would only be for social reasons I don’t have any genuine attraction to the male form so it doesn’t work as an ugly male
>>43470549really not even in porn?
>>43470549You think its only okay to like men if you're a cute twink? what?
>>43470978I don’t watch porn it’s cringe>>43470994i guess what I mean is if I were cute such that men would hit on me then maybe I would go out with one just to feel wanted but I would never actually seek out a gay relationship bc I’m not attracted to men at all
>>43471053>no porn>kinsey 0 cis male>on estrogenplease go to a doctor
>>43471090talk therapy doesn’t work for me and I don’t want to take meds that turn ur brain off
>>43467677>nonbinary is cringe bc it doesn’t existyeah but 'cis man on hrt' doessure
>>43471053>I don’t watch pornYou should. Plenty of porn with really cute guys.Good as educational material too. I searched for ways to do anal training and before I knew it, there went months since I hadn't watched straggot porn or read any smut that wasn't gay. Definitely increased my androphilia. Though definitely E had a lot to do with it too.>i'm not cuteMeh, I'm not particularly cute either. Just more youthful looking due to abuse of estrogen.There are more bifags than straggots, and men have greater variability in everything, including tastes in men. You're just lazy anon. Instead of finding love you don't even try. Sad.
>>43459030I wish it was lgb again.
>>43459030I wish ftm didnt exist
