im so tired of going through unstable relationships and end up heartbroken and feel so bad about hurting othersat this point im not sure if to just stop trying to meet people, its so hard to meet people when you're /lgbt/
i wasnt even in love with this person, but it felt so comfortable to be able to be with her after such long days, she was always glad to hear about my day or just hear me sleep
I think i probably have never been in love with anybody, I just feel good enough around them and wait for the relationship to be overmaybe its just part of my low self-esteem that i cant feel truly loved nor can love others as they deservei just realize once its over about how much i cared about them and how much im going to miss them
this thread makes me wanna cry and throw up
>>43462107i want to cry too, i hate feeling alone
>>43462002Maybe I'm lucky but I met the dream bf of my life as cis bi
>>43462002If you broke up with them then why TF are you acting like a victim. You did this. It was your choice.
>>43462154Sorry I miss wrote it, i meant that she broke up with me, it was the most mature decision since this (long distance) relationship was never going to really work, and it was too emotionally demanding due the long distance part of it.
>>43462129:( im sorry :( i send u hugs im really sorry i know its so hard
>>43462170Have you ever tried having a relationship that's not long distance?
>>43462186Easier said than done
>>43462248Have you ever tried having a long distance relationship with me instead?
>>43462186I have had, right before this one I was going out with a boy for few months, and right after we broke up I met this current girl.Thats why it was so tough for me sometimes, it was so easy to compare both relationships and being in a irl relationship have so many more benefits than a LDR, also I felt guilty about not being fully over from my last relationship while we were trying to settle a new thing with this girl, tho she knew about it because we met when I was breaking up with my previous
>>43462248How? A long distance relationship is harder than a real life one. It's only easier in the sense of getting one, but what's the point?
My nights are gonna feel so emptyi need to get distracted as much as i can for the next few weeks or months
i found this thread at the worst time i wanna cry i feel so alone and empty
>>43462129I have a friend who I sometimes invite to do stuff with me and she declines every single time. This has been going on for years. The only time in the past 2 years that she agreed to spend time with me was when I was actually in her town and meeting up in person. It's a very strange friendship arrangement that I'm not used to, but at the end of the day, I really think it's her loss more than anything.
>>43462531i feel bad i wasnt good enough, I regret so much ever hurting her, I was supposed to take care of her but some part of me didnt care enough or wasnt mature enoughi would love to have another chance, tho we know this relationship has no future due to LDR and her situation (crazy overprotective family). But i feel i would just hurt her more if we are together, I get very emotional at times and she gets stressed over not being able to help so we both end up isolating to not hurt the otherwho am i supposed to send cute animals now?
>>43462002sometimes you just have to
i need to stop ruining things around me
>>43462021sounds like love vs infatuation. one is a choice
>>43462531as a person on the other side of this with anxiety and autism who does this im always "busy" self soothing and following my routine so i dont fall apart and i rly appreciate invites and make a huge effort to clear my schedule and say yes but you gotta ask me like 4 times in a row with a 3-7 day lead and i really do want to and am sorry for being a needy shithead and no its never annoying if you impose on me in fact its the other way if i forgot to reply for a few days ill start thinking im being a flakey asshole and imposing on you so i wont reach out or follow up assuming you are actually busy and have a life my fav people are pushy extroverts that impose on me constantly it makes me feel like someone cares but im scared they get insecure with how one sided the dynamic is so im trying to be better
>>43467539OP here. Most of our fights would be because we couldnt match our free time.I feel I was way too demanding with her, she was just a neet girl with no responsabilities and a relationship can be tough especially with /lgbt/ people.Despite we didnt do much for the last few months due to holidays, vacations, moving out, now I know its over I miss her more than ever
