>>43472243
if I do I know for a fact that im gonna retroon sooner or later bcoz im too weak to rep long enough to just kill myself + im still holding out hope that one day I'll make it

>>43472254
also the idea of going back makes me cry and feel sick

>>43472243
Going back was such a huge relief at first because I felt more like I could just exist and there was no pressure on me but the I realized how bad it sucks so I returned to manmoding but now Im thinking about giving it another try.

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Because there’s nothing good to go back to

>>43472358
u dont have to see a tranny in the mirror

>>43472243
literally just remember what being a repper was like

>>43472412
Mate seeing what was before is a lot worse

>>43472243
by unfucking my hair and practicing self-care
when was the last time you had a long, hot bath, or burned some incense, or otherwise took care of yourself emotionally?

>>43472243
nothing would change if I stop HRT. I boymode untill FFS. HRT is just skincare product.

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>>43472243
Is there any difference in choosing to go back to repping and having repping forced on you by erasure in the collective consciousness?
Idk. Ive worn femme clothes (literally just I dont usually wear skirts) and havent been gendered female in over a year, and even when I do wear skirts I get gendered male straight to my face.
I live in Portland.

>>43472243
nooo don’t detroon you’re so pretty

>>43472243
Remember
Remember how good it is to jack your massive manclitty

>>43472661
Owned

unironically couldn't go back at this point even if I tried. I guess what really got me earlier on tho was the thought of having to look a passoid in the eye and say "yea i gave up". now that I'm a passoid I'd probably be more judgemental of someone who gave up than someone who's trying even if they're a hon. like yes luck plays a role but theres always someone who has it better than you and it's not an excuse to not be your best self.

they say hell is where you meet the version of you that you coulda been had you done your best.

I think ur pretty cute fixing your hair would be a huge W.

>>43472243
why do you feel the urge to rep in the first place

fortitude is a meme, 99% of discipline is merely temperance and destroying desires as a whole

>>43472243
I dont, i would only troon under specific circumstances that will never emerge i will not do so in this world. I identify ad faketrans.

Please respect my identity.

stop posting shit like this you fucking whore

>>43472243
i dont